JANUARY AND MAHENDRA

31. All His Laughter is Wound.

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After that, Nathan was taken to the hospital. Mahendra without thinking about anything the man immediately brought Nathan as he was then, when Nathan received physical violence by his own father.

But this time it was different, though equally stressful. But it's really more sad. He doesn't know what it would be like if he didn't quickly bring Nathan in. With so many prayers that Mahendra rarely said, now the man asked more. But isn't that human?.

Mahendra has been in front of the ICU since 3 hours ago. Sitting pensively looking at his finger that was almost injured by the nail he played himself.

The man's head was now crowded, the thoughts were again voiced. He now feels dejavu.

Nathan's condition is still critical, his heart condition is also getting worse. He became very worried about it, since then Mahendra has not been given permission to see Nathan.

"Mahen, Lo has not eaten since" said Gantari to Mahendra who had been silent looking down at his finger. Mahendra then shook his head weakly.

The girl sighed because she had persuaded Mahendra several times to eat, but this man refused again.

"So my dad brought me some fried rice, I'm bribing ya?" Tawar girl while opening her lunch box, but it was held by Mahendra. He is not appetite.

Gantari sighed, "kalo lo do not eat even lo sick, now eat first yes. I'm bribe"

Hearing that Mahendra raised his head to look at Gantari with a sad look, the man was currently holding back his tears with reddened eyes. "What's wrong, Gan?" Ask.

Gantari loudly shook his head because it was true that Mahendra did not have any mistakes, "lo nothing wrong, Mahendra".

"But why does God hate me so much?" Mahendra said with increasingly sharp emotions.

Gantari grasped Mahendra's hand while gently rubbing the back of his hand. He tried to calm the man down, "God never hated people like you, Mahendra."

"Gue knew I wasn't a good brother, nor was I a devoted child. Am I wrong to ask them to live happily?. Though I do not papa if I am sick, as long as I can see them living well" said Mahendra.

This time the man was just scared. It is clearly visible from the tears that begin to melt. His hand felt tight when he was in Gantari's grasp.

He grabbed the body of the man, the man who had a body bigger than him. "Nathan won't do anything, Mahendra. I'm sure he'll recover."

His outstretched hand rubbed Mahendra's broad back, occasionally patting him slowly hoping the man he was clinging to felt calm.

Gantari also only first discovered Mahendra this whole, his energy seemed to have been consumed by his own emotions. Because what Gantari knows, Mahen is someone who has no fear. But this time it was answered, all his laughter was wounds. Everything that made him colorful was his delayed happiness.

Mahendra is very annoying for some things, but Gantari cannot deny that Mahendra is also a human who has wounds. Just like Gantari who too often blames himself but far from it, Mahendra just over it, this man could follow the pain if it continues to hurt himself.

As Gantari rubbed her wide back, the ICU room opened up to see a doctor coming out of the room making her second hug come to an end. Mahendra immediately approached the doctor.

"Where's Om?" Mahendra asked the doctor who was his own uncle.

Uncle Sam, as the owner of the hospital and a heart specialist.

"You guys still here?" Said Sam. The man in the uniform is a typical white suit.

Mahendra does not answer the question of pleasantries from Omnya, he only wants answers about Nathan's current condition.

Feeling unheeded by Mahendra and Gantari, Sam stared at the two alternately

And it seems that Sam was hesitant to say this, "The conditions are still the same, no change at all. Right now we just need a donor to help Nathan's heart performance, as you know finding a donor is not easy. But as much as possible this hospital will look for him. So you don't have to worry about Mahendra."

"Take my heart Om" Mahendra looked up confidently as he listened to Sam's explanation. Well, maybe this is Mahendra's only effort.

Sam was obviously a little surprised, especially with Gantari staring at Mahendra worriedly.

Sam shook his head, "Son, we can use someone else Mahendra"

"I can still do it, why should anyone else!"

"Too dangerous Mahendra! Heart disease is not a trivial disease! You could lose your life!" Sam shook his head for the umpteenth time, the man just didn't want to take much of a risk.

Sam walked away from Mahendra who was still following him, "Om! This time it's Om, I just want Nathan to heal!"

The man still ignored Mahendra until Mahendra finally restrained Sam's legs, and inevitably Sam had to stop his steps, Sam just sighed to see how glassy his nephew was.

"I beg Om!"

"We need to check your heart condition first, if it is suitable then you can directly donate"

Hearing that, Mahendra smiled a little. The man then got up and turned to Gantari who was behind him happily. But on the other hand, Gantari was more worried. Worrying if a happy smile is a wound to himself.

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Gantari was in the hospital canteen along with Mahira and Keshwari. The two girls returned after leaving the hospital last night.

Mahira is actually still heavy hearted to leave Nathan who is still in a limp decomposed condition in the operating room. If it wasn't for Mahendra's orders, the girl would still be keeping Nathan.

Then Keshwari invites Mahira to Nathan's house to pick up some of the man's clothes, instead of calming down Mahira who is already almost messed up. The girl blamed herself.

"Sir, I don't want to eat" Mahira lamented in a much softer voice, either because she still felt guilty or her voice was so.

Gantari glanced at Keshwari for a moment and had both looked up, The girl with shoulder-length hair seemed to shift her attention to Mahira.

"Ra, you gotta eat." Buuk Gantari, he saw the food in front of Mahira was still intact not touched in the slightest.

Then Keshwari nodded in agreement, "don't until you get sick, Ra"

"It's my fault that I should have taken Nathan to the hospital. But I don't even know what to do"

"Lo has done his best Ra, you immediately contact Mahendra it is the best" said Gantari when he heard Mahira with regret.

Keshwari and Gantari approach Mahira who is seen starting to cry, the girl in the dress of responsibility cries in silence but can still be heard by Gantari and Keshwari. Both of them embraced Mahira's body with great affection.

In addition, Luke and Dirga walked up to the three girls.

"What's wrong?" Tanya Gantari looked at Luke and Dirga alternately.

"Nathan's been moved into a VIP room." Dirga opened his voice.

The three girls sighed, because Nathan was still in the operating room until he woke up.

Uncle Sam said his condition had started to improve. But Nathan still needs a heart donor so that his condition quickly recovers.

"Mahendra how? Does he want to eat? He doesn't want to eat". Gantari asked the hose after the two men took a seat in front of her.

Luke shook his head, "Not yet. Very stubborn, boy. Though I brought rice padang but did not want yes I gave to Yanuar"

"Mas Mahen is Mas. It was a long time ago when the mother was very sick to be told to eat." Keshwari stacks up, then lets Lukas drink his cappucino coffee.

"He's still traumatized after losing his mother, Nathan's the only person worth it. Perhaps, Mahen still has a sense of regret and fear".

Dirga and Lukas only agreed to the statement from Keshwari, because it can not be denied for almost 4 years they are friends with Mahendra, the thing that most men are afraid of is losing something valuable.

Lukas immediately chuckles at how funny and silly he used to be when he had a great fight with Mahendra just because of Keshwari. Well they had a fight at that time, when Luke found out that his best friend went with the idol and ended up caught in Dirga's place.

With heat, Luke clearly hit Mahendra's face immediately until Dirga finally came as a mediator. That misunderstanding makes it funny. Luke had accused Mahendra of playing him with his relationship with Keshwari.

And apparently without the knowledge of Luke, Mahendra and Keshwari are cousins. And the reason the two reconnected was Nathan.

Luke again admired Mahendra as a friend, it was logical that Mahendra had hidden his relationship with Keshwari and Nathan.

Lukas smilingly looked at Keshwari making the girl frown, "why mas?"

"I'm Laper, you don't eat?" Luke complained, Dirga who was beside him rolled his eyes tired of seeing how Luke who was being spoiled on Keshwari.

"Well, didn't you just eat rice field?"

"Yes, now I'm laper again".

"Yaudah, I'm going to go first"

"Kesh, I went to Mahendra first yes" before Keshwari really moved, Gantari's voice was heard. Keshwari nodded his head.

"I'm coming with you" Mahira hoarded.

Luke swoops when he sees Dirga also moving, "where are you going Ngab?"

"You come back, yakali here waiting for you guys to date my ogah to be a mosquito. All of Yanuar's menganterin go home, I'm terrified of his father"

"Well, yak, that was Yanuar who just returned from school" I Lukas, "Yes, it's safe, you are."

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In the bright room and the smell of medicine that was so striking, Mahendra sat right next to his sister who was reading a book. Mahendra also wondered why Nathan could read a book when he had just regained consciousness about 4 hours ago.

But isn't that a relief? Nathan could quickly recover from Mahendra's forecast.

Mahendra plays his phone occasionally glancing at Nathan to check if the man is okay or not. Though it was very clear that Nathan was aware and had joked with his three friends.

Mahendra by joining Google's website about heart donors, what effects will be in the donor. Uncle Sam said that the new operation could be carried out tomorrow morning after knowing that Mahendra's heart condition was very good and suitable for Nathan. Actually the procedure is not like that, the preparation of heart donation takes about a week. But Mahendra is still Mahendra, he does not want to spend that much time for the recovery of his sister.

He rolled his phone screen carefully read the contents of the blog listed in it. There is nothing harmful about this donation if Mahendra gets the heart of his successor as well. Even if he doesn't get a replacement heart is okay, he's willing to die for Nathan.

In between the silence of the two brothers who were focused on their respective activities were finally distracted by the open door of the room showing Gantari, Dirga and Mahira. The two men smiled at each other's girls.

"Where's yanuar?" Ask Dirga.

"There's in the bathroom" Mahendra responded

"Well? The kid's bathing?"

"Kebelt".

Then Dirga booed, while putting fruit parcels on the table Nakas.

Mahendra moved on and then switched to sitting on the sofa.

Gantari was sitting right next to Mahendra making the man stunned.

"Feed first!" Gantari orders while opening a foam containing fried rice, without waiting for approval from Mahendra the girl immediately feed it into Mahendra's mouth.

"Nat, you also say Mahira to eat. I also bought fried rice" said Dirga on the sidelines of the man sitting on the sofa while waiting for Yanuar who did not also come out of the bathroom.

Hearing that, Nathan looked directly at Mahira who was already sitting in front of him with a welt, "you haven't eaten yet?"

Mahira shook her head weakly with a look at Nathan's infused hands.

"Why haven't you eaten yet?" Ask back.

"Not yet laper" the girl looked up at Nathan, "Mas Nathan ate?"

"I'm fasting, surgery tomorrow. Now you eat first. Do I want a bribe?" Nathan Tawar.

"No need, I will eat alone" refused Mahira clumsy.

"But have to eat yes, I don't want you to be sick" Nathan said softly, his hands outstretched, rubbing Mahira's mane very gently. Nathan grabs Mahira's hand then in his kiss for a very long time. Then the moment after the kiss was released the two were equally stunned by each other's gaze until they forgot the person in the room was not just the two of them.

"Mahendra, I think we continue to eat out" said Gantari clumsily when he saw the two people in front there.

It was immediately responded to a quick nod by Mahendra who glared to see Nathan being very sweet and completely ignored his existence.

"Aa, I also want to go home once again nganterin Yanuar" Even though he was also awkward then the man went to reach for his jacket.

"Yan, very long time lo" exclaimed Dirga when he saw the new Yanuar appeared from the bathroom in the room. The man dragged Yanuar straight out of the room.

Yanuar who does not know anything becomes confused when pulled by Dirga until he was too busy to reach for his school bag.

"Mahira, I'm out. Nitip Nathan" Mahendra's message and immediately responded to a nod by Mahira.

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While Mahendra and Gantari are in the hospital park, they opt to get out for some fresh air instead of allowing Nathan and Mahira to enjoy some time together. Actually this is the same as what Mahendra and Gantari do, they also need time for both, right?.

The two sat side by side while enjoying the night breeze which somehow became very pleasant when the silence was like this. The clock has shown almost midnight and the hospital looks quieter just a few people who are still passing by.

The turn of the year should be more crowded, right? But tonight Mahendra and Gantari have not seen fireworks in the sky. Are they late or not started yet?.

"Mahendra" call Gantari to melt the atmosphere.

Feeling called and then turned his head to look at Gantari while waiting for the girl to continue speaking.

"I used to want to live like you" said Gantari. "Because I see you never have a worry, and you never have a fear. But now after seeing you worry about someone's life to the extent, I became reddened and buried my sense of desire to be lo"

Hearing that Mahendra even laughed and diverted his attention made Gantari slightly frowned feeling astonished.

"Lo does not need to be me, the worry in every human being will still exist even in the toughest human though. The weak point of all human beings is love, he will do everything to show that feeling".

"Mahendra, can I worry too?" Gantari asked as she looked at the man beside her with a rare look. There is fear in the heart of this girl.

Mahendra looked at Gantari with a smile but not with his eyes that looked more cloudy. "Lo worried about what?"

"Gue was worried about never being able to see you laugh and make me laugh again". Gantari's response was still with a much more silent gaze.

"Lo know Gan? I'm more worried about not being able to see you laugh anymore." Cut Mahendra.

Gantari was stunned again, she paused for a moment before starting her conversation. "Mahen, can't someone else have a heart?"

Mahendra shook his head, but then he smiled. "Gue will not die if only donor heart doang Gan. But Sam has a replacement for my heart"

"But you can't live completely with a surrogate heart, Mahendra"

As Gantari worried about her made Mahenra even more exhausted, there was at least one human who did not want her to die.

"Promise me, you'll be fine!" Said Gantari, Mahendra nodded with a more tense smile.

On the other hand, Gantari is eager to do something but still heavy heart and prestige. "Mahendra?"

"Eum?" Dehm Mahendra's.

"Gue can't hurt you?" Shamefully the girl did not dare to look into Mahendra's eyes.

The man chuckled, "Gue lo Gan's girlfriend, you want to hug, nyium, or lean back please do not need to use that permission".

After obtaining permission, Gantari brought her body closer to Mahendra. Hugging the man and being held back by Mahendra provided warmth on this cold night. Let it be like this for a while, and let the stars and the moon up there curse it.

Mahendra took off the embrace and confused Gantari. The man stared fixedly at him, staring right at the lips that looked pale from earlier. Mahendra slightly smiled. Grabbing the side of his cold cheek in Mahendra's hand, stroking it so gently.

"Gue doesn't have to ask permission to do this, Gan"

With a heavier voice, Mahendra tilted his head to grab those pale, dry lips that made him become moist and wet.

Gantari's eyes closed, letting the man scoop her lips very gently. Occasionally Gantari would scoop up the denim jacket Mahendra wore when he felt the man was******** and create a beating and swish on his blood. The butterflies in his stomach woke up and flew in all directions. Gantari misses this too, longing for Mahendra's thick lips that dance over the surface of his lips.

With rhythm and regular breathing both equally wet the soft surface. The surface is now a favorite when they first try it. They let the sound of the friction of leaves with the ground by the wind dropping into the accompaniment of this cold night.

Until they finished it, the loud voice was still heard. Mahendra smiled again to see Gantari who slowly opened his eyes, his lips were better and did not look pale.

Mahendra grabbed Gantari's body back to bring it to the warmth that had been delayed earlier, the man sighed so deeply mixed with a comfortable swipe on the girl's narrow back.

"Tetep is worried about me well, Gan. Because I just need one person to set aside some time to think about everything about me"

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If your life is full of wounds, then how do you cover it up.?

Strangely enough, you made everyone laugh at your behavior to the point that I thought, "They're good so you."

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