JANUARY AND MAHENDRA

20. Mahendra, It's Not Just You Who's Injured.

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That day, right on Mahendra's Birthday. Mother buried. Mahendra chose to bury his mother in Jogja, where he was born.

There are things that make Mahendra much more hurt, his father is not at all visible from since his mother he rushed to the hospital.

Indeed, it is basically a human dog until anytime it will remain like that. Let it be, after all, if Mahendra finds his father's face it is certain he will beat him up and forget his identity as a child.

Starting in the afternoon, the people who came to the service began to scatter to go home. Except Mahendra, Nathan, Keshwari, Uncle Sam then Bi Mina and Pakle Tejo.

Presumably Mahendra is very tired to cry, now he is more silent and trying to clench the departure of the mother for good. Not because he was not willing to cry, but Mahendra preferred to hold back his crying. Indeed, Mahendra also wants to cry as hard as now. Like Nathan who is still crying until calmed down by Keshwari and bi Mina.

Mahendra also wanted someone to calm him down, he looked at Nathan irikthen rubbed back his tears. Why did you tell him to take care of Nathan when the boy had enough people who loved him.

Moments later Mahendra felt a swipe on his back, he turned to his Uncle who was looking at him pity as if strengthening Mahen. Mahendra smiled bitterly after.

It was already afternoon and looked cloudy, they began to leave the tomb but Mahendra was still reluctant to leave his mother. He did not want to leave his mother asleep alone.

"Bun, sorry Mahen..." Mahendra's voice was raucous, from earlier choosing not to speak this time sounded full of regret.

When it rained, Mahendra looked up at the sky that was completely blackened. Mahendra was getting along next to the tomb. He now does not care about his clothes that have been soaked.

"Bund, Mahendra has promised yesterday that he will not miss his mother. But why did the mother leave?"

"Mahendra has a lot of wrong well mother, Mahen apologized for not being able to be a child that deserves mother."

Mahendra ended up crying, now his crying sounded loud. He tried to open a cry that had been restrained, but instead of being relieved his chest even became increasingly tight. Mahendra only wants the embrace of his mother, the embrace that makes his body warm. The hug that always made him comfortable to complain has now disappeared, disappeared and Mahendra could not reach again.

The sky darkened, there was no one else but Mahendra in this tomb area.

The rain grew heavy as if to disguise Mahendra's desperate cries, frustrated cries why was his life so full of misfortune? Why does his life hurt others?, why was he born in this world? Why, why does God want Mahendra so much to live with regret?.

"Bund..." He said very softly at the figure that was now embracing him, he felt a subtle swipe at his trembling back.

"Sorry Mahen...."

He cried again, hiding his whole face on that narrow shoulder.

Samar, Mahendra heard someone whisper, "thank you brother has taken care of mother... Don't cry anymore bang, mother is lucky to have children understanding kayak brother"

"Abangs... Happy Birthday to you"

Mahendra cried even more as the voice clearly entered his ears. He could even hear that voice very clearly among the noise of the rain. Mahendra closed his eyes, as the solid shadow slowly dissipated his warm embrace, Mahendra cold again, could he ask for it back, could he get that warm embrace again? Mahendra is very cold now.

Mahendra still rested and then let his body shake with the cold right under the rain and next to his mother's grave. He closed his eyes, growling down there and continued to say sorry words that were only words that Mahendra was able to get out now.

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Mahendra opened his eyes slowly staring at the ceiling of his room, his head was getting dizzy, his body was getting colder. He woke up and then circulated his gaze to the corner of his room, still dim. It seems that bi Mina did deliberately not open the horden in her room so that Mahendra could rest well.

He remembered last night that he had come home soaked. The coldness did not disappear even though the sunlight was right up there. Mahendra shifted his room horden until the sunlight wanted to enter into the sidelines of his room, it's okay if it can't warm up, at least this room does not look too gloomy.

He had indeed lost his mother but this all turned out not to be the end of everything, thought this world would end just like that but in fact Mahendra still met tomorrow. He then smiled bitterly, it turned out that with the rain alone was not enough to end life.

The door of Mahendra's room opened showing Keshwari entering his room carrying a tray of porridge and a glass of milk.

"Burannya Do not forget to eat well Mas, the medicine also do not forget to drink." Keshwari orders while putting the tray on the nightstand.

Mahendra smiled minimally, "Thank you Kesh"

Keshwari nodded, "that's it, I came out first Mas"

"Kesh," call Mahendra when Keshwari will be out of his room.

"Yes?"

"Nathan, how?" Mahendra asked hesitantly, he seemed to be worried about his sister's situation. It was nothing, he was just wondering if he was still crying or not.

Keshwari smiled at Mahendra's question, which was still worrying about Nathan's situation. "He was fine, Mas, was in his room again resting"

Mahendra nodded in understanding, let's say that this man is trying not to care about what Nathan did after his mother's departure. But in fact Mahendra is Mahendra, he will still be the person who is most worried about everything that he has been taking care of for a long time.

Nathan is one of them, maybe the boy has started to grow up but not with his heart. According to him, Nathan remains a child who every night needs to bring milk so that he can sleep in his sleep.

Not only Mahendra was injured, Nathan was also injured. Mahendra can't avoid that.

Like now Mahendra's heart becomes increasingly crowded when peeking at Nathan's room which is in front of his room. The boy slept curled up and turned his back, so Mahendra did not know whether the child was really asleep or was hiding his cries again. Mahendra's back became very small, and the vibration was still clearly visible.

For a very long time Mahendra just stared at Nathan's back with a feeling of disappointment, anger, tightness and worry as if becoming one. Mahendra closed the door slowly until Nathan's small back vanished into his sight.

Mahendra walked to the living room and found Sam's uncle talking to him. Mahendra joined in.

"Will it heal?" Ask Pakle Tejo shortly after seeing the whereabouts of Mahendra who was already sitting in front of him.

"Down sir" Mahendra replied with a slight smile.

Uncle Sam then became worried when he saw Mahendra who still looks pale. "It's still a pain to rest again, Ma"

Mahendra smiled as if to say that now he was okay.

"Mahen, your mother said something before she died". Suddenly Uncle Sam opened his voice after he sipped his coffee. Mahendra who had lowered his head slowly looked at uncle Sam.

"Nathan" said Mahendra.

Uncle Sam then smiled at Mahendra, but very short until he spoke again. "You know, Nathan has stomach acid?"

Mahendra nodded. He has known this since he lived with Nathan. As a child, the child was very difficult to eat. Until Nathan is diagnosed with acid reflux, this is the reason why Mahendra always delivers milk to Nathan's room every night. Just to check that his sister wasn't drinking any more coffee. The boy was also very stubborn, he was more concerned with his schoolwork than his health.

But it still feels very crowded and disappointed when he saw Nathan.

"That's one of the reasons your mother still wants to stay in that house, if you're still asking why your mother wouldn't want to move with us here, it's because of Nathan. Nathan is also part of your happy mother" Uncle Sam explained. "Stop blaming yourself".

Mahendra nodded again, "at least Mahen has tried to carry out the mother's orders, even though Mahen does not know this will run or not."

"Unclearance, disappointment is definitely there. And it feels useless if your uncle advises you, let time later that will answer all your disappointments"

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"From tomorrow, you have to move to London. I've taken care of the ticket, just left" said the middle-aged man who now stands on the side of the dining table while putting all the files on his son's move.

Nathan was clearly in front of the refrigerator just turned his head and looked at his father who was upright in his alcohol drink.

"Nathan said goodbye to Mahen" Nathan said.

"No need, after all Mahendra no longer cares about you. You belong entirely to Dad, Nat"

Nathan's a bit of a snitch, "Dad, Nathan's tired. I never once asked Nathan. Nathan asked for something simple"

"Nathan just wants to say the same saying to Mahen" Nathan's pinta, now he feels tired.

"Don't lure Dad, Nathan". His father sighed as he put the remaining glass of alcohol before he looked at Nathan who had been staring at him.

"You know what the consequences are if you argue with Dad?"

"Dad not tired, live like this?" Instead of answering, Nathan asked his father. "Udah the most real, Nathan died just follow mother".

Without guessing, Nathan's words had succeeded in making the father hot. The middle-aged man looked annoyed, then slowly walked over to his son with a bitter smile. This kid doesn't know how to thank me.

"Would you like to see your mother?" Asked the man in a soft tone but was able to make Nathan's hair stand up.

Nathan walked backwards as his father began to approach him by grabbing a decorated vase of flowers on the table and then throwing it at Nathan. The boy was clearly immediately stepped up to see his father who suddenly threw him with a vase. Nathan pressed his back against the kitchen pantry.

"Here, he said he was going to die?" The father's orders seemed to signal to his son to approach. Nathan quickly shook his head, really he did not want to die this way.

Her father was really scary.

Prankk's...

The man again pelt Nathan the glass, making the child close his eyes tightly as his father continued to throw him with the glass, Nathan glimpsed the shadow of the mother who came cupping his body, the woman let her back hit by the throw, Nathan's eyes became rounded when he saw the father hastily remove his belt and then walk up to him. His eyes closed again and his body curled up, this time Nathan was required to die.

One lash Nathan got right on his back, his body trembling feeling the growing pain. The wound last time was not completely dry, now he must get a lash wound on his back.

"Dad, sick" Nathan growled complaining of the feeling he was currently feeling.

"You must be in the giniin first so you can obey Daddy!!!" The man returned to his lash, so loud that Nathan groaned how painful his back was this time

Nathan cried withstanding the pain and numbness of his back. He now just wants to resign, because indeed he will always end up like this. Nor did he expect anyone to help him.

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Mahendra walked in haste after Keshwari's car was parked in the courtyard of his old house. Big, still looks the same as before.

The man ran a little until Keshwari was overwhelmed to equalize Mahendra's pace.

Then how surprised Mahendra after he managed to get into his own house. This scene is really familiar, he once found the same scenery, the scenery that makes Mahendra's blood immediately boil.

Keshwari was also no less surprised because he had just seen the first thing that Nathan might often tell now dearly in front of him, he was just in the first place, Keshwari shut his mouth trying not to scream when he saw Nathan being whipped by his own father.

"Dog!!" Mahendra quickly picked up his father's baseball bat in the corner of the room while swearing, his eyes had turned red, his jaw hardened he walked up to the two people in the kitchen with emotion.

Bugh...

Mahendra hit his father on the back before he whipped back Nathan's frail body curled up. His father immediately fell when he received a very hard blow, he immediately collapsed but then chuckled when he saw Mahendra who was on top of him clutching his collar very strongly.

Bughh

Mahendra again hit his own father's face, he is now really dark eyes, Mahendra is no longer concerned about the status of humans who are now being beaten. Mahendra continued to throw punches as if he was going to kill the money man who had killed his mother, his eyes darkened until he finally realized. Mahendra breathed a sigh of relief then looked up at his father who was still lying below him.

"Death should be paid for by death, but that's not my way, I still value the mother who keeps nagging me to kill you!" Said Mahendra lirh but full of emphasis.

"When the Dog, the Dog!"

Mahendra took off his grip on his father's collar until the man moaned before he was completely unconscious.

Mahendra turned to Nathan who was still curled up in pain, he approached his sister and hugged her very tightly.

Keshwari who had been pensive to see how Mahendra felt when beating Om Abdi so brutally. He also just watched Mahendra who is used to being cheerful and colorful it becomes very scary when he is really angry.

The girl realized then rushed a small run to Mahendra who was calming Nathan.

"Mas, Nathan was taken to his room first. Biar Keshwari. "

Mahendra nodded, then carried Nathan to the boy's room.

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Good night sunday.

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Sorry, too dark, right? Doesn't match the Mahendra you guys imagined at the beginning?. But it is like that, Mahendra does have a lot of colors, but do not forget that it also has a dark color.

He also wanted to come out like a rainbow. But when he managed to become a rainbow, he was never asked where it came from.

In this chapter it is very clear that it is not only Mahendra who is injured, because there is still Nathan who is much more injured.