JANUARY AND MAHENDRA

19. About Mahendra.

Earlier I wanted to apologize, this chapter about Mahendra will be a long chapter. It has exceeded 5,000 words to write this chapter. Please do not get bored..

And once again, happy birthday Mahendra. September 28, 1998. Actually it's too late. But that's okay, it won't lessen my admiration for this one human. Remember that the universe once accepted you with a chest of air just because it wanted to see you live properly.

You must remember how the scarf rained on the roof of the hospital the day you were born. So don't forget the people who always accept you for who you are.

And don't forget, that there are still people who need to be forgiven and there are still people who need to be happy.

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Happy Reading, thanks for the support.🤍

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Two years are almost gone, Mahendra will be reunited with her again in September. The month in which he was born, in the midst of heavy rain accompanied by melodious twangs on the roof of the hospital so shahdu. Should've. Mahendra should have realized that his birth was well recognized by the universe.

Even if not recognized by the universe, Mahendra will always thank his mother. There is no reason to refuse to be born from the womb of the Mother, even if there will be a new life Mahendra really wants to be reborn as a child Mother.

Some say that Mahendra's birth was a catastrophe, a catastrophe for his own father. Everything becomes unlucky because of the arrival of Mahendra who was born in the world.

Mahendra did not mind if he was not considered a child by him. Mahendra did not want biological recognition by his father at all.

Mahendra would rather be born without a father at all than be born next to a father who does not admit it at all.

Or need this father does not need to be in a relationship with his mother, if in the end he himself is the one who hurt soft man like his mother.

Iya Mahen was born before her parents were actually married. A very unreasonable reason to accept the mother is when the man blatantly insulted her mother, accusing her of having an affair when clearly her father was the only man in her life.

Clearly the words from the man were very heartbreaking. At the age of Mahendra who was still two months, and obviously the state of the mother has not recovered. His father forced the mother to give him a lineage that was truly his flesh and blood.

In August on August 13, 1999 Nathan was present prematurely, unable to be denied by the state of the mother who has not fully recovered he had to be forced to conceive again. Nathanael Abdi Putra, born not even 9 months makes him have to be intensively treated in the ICU with strict care by several nurses who handle it.

Little Mahen who has not even one year has acted funny as if giving encouragement to his mother.

"When Mas Mahen from yesterday cried and continued to cry" said bi Mina, a baby sitter who cared for Mahendra at that time.

"After meeting the mother immediately cheerful" he continued politely.

Mother who was carrying Mahen also chuckled, "kangen kayaknya mother yah".

Her baby sister also became salute with her employer, very strong to face her husband who had completely lost morals.

Shortly afterwards came a female nurse in the room of Mother, as usual to take ASI from Mother.

Actually if only her husband allowed her to give ASI directly would not make it drag this. It should be every hour of pumping ***********. Though Mahen and Nathan can both share to just suckle together.

Her husband must have known Mahendra was in this room. Mommy can only sigh heavily, just want to protest he can not. Her condition was still limp after giving birth to Nathan.

"Already ma'am, let my Mahen mas is just a fat one" said the baby sister then took over holding a small Mahen.

Mahen changed his face to be grim, he really missed the Mother, he still wanted to enjoy her Mother's ASI but he had to give up that he also had to share with his sister.

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Really if it wasn't for the Mother, Mahendra was very unwilling to set foot in this house.

Mahendra is indeed an initiative to leave this house after he graduated from High School. This man chose to study in Jogja instead of avoiding all his problems. But this time Mahendra can not run away from his obligations as a child, he still has a mother that he must take care of.

Prannkk....

The sound of glass shards was heard very clearly entering Mahendra's ear. His return even made him feel this crowd again.

"FEMALE DASAARR*****DON'T KNOW IT'S PROFITABLE!!!"

"I KNOW, YOU'RE STILL IN TOUCH WITH THAT GUY!!! HAVE YOU CHEATED BEHIND MY BACK? HUH!"

Suddenly it made Mahen rushed towards the source of the sound and sure enough the mother was being snapped all out by the Father.

Swears and dings of all things become an accompaniment to the anger of the Father. Before finally the hand of the father raised as if ready to hit the mother but first held by Mahendra.

Mahen's eyes turned watery red that was held in his dilated eye patch. His jaw immediately hardened, the grip on his father's hand was getting stronger.

"DARE YOU BE WITH ME!!!" furious the Father looked at the same Mahen glaring. The look in his eyes was blocked, but then the man chuckled small as if petty.

"Hh, MOTHERFUCKER!!!" Press Mahen, then throw his hand strong to make the father look staggered.

In the corner of the room Nathan could only stand still, from what he had done, the boy could only stay still. His legs trembled like a mute, he was eager to break both of them but his body felt stifled. He even just watched with watery eyes as well when he saw his mother snapped and hit by his father. That wall Nathan can't break, let's say Nathan's a coward.

"BASIC BASTARD CHILD!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN BORN INTO THIS WORLD"

Nathan walked back to the wall, again afraid of the voice of the Father who almost dominated the room.

If only Nathan could be like Mahendra, dare to take risks. Can admit to himself that he is no longer a child, he wants to be free too.

Today Nathan admitted that Mahendra is very creepy, Mahendra does have a dark side that even Nathan just witnessed for real. It's even scarier than his father.

In the past if Nathan was in trouble, Mahen was ready to stand on the front row. He was ready to get angry or hit by the father and ended up with a spread of ointment by the mother. But this time Nathan witnessed firsthand how Mahendra beat his father to helplessness.

A year is too long to pass Nathan, this man has absolutely no idea what he has to do every time he sees his mother get angry or hit. Like before, he still likes to hide in his room and close his ears tightly. It's no excuse, it's just that if Nathan curbs the father, it would be a bad thing for his mother.

Nathan could only cry and hold his anger alone at that moment. When he can really mature at least to just protect his mother.

"YOU ARE USELESS!!!" Grit the Father on the sidelines of his stupidity.

Mahen knew very well that his father was completely consumed by alcohol. And the boy doesn't care anymore, he doesn't care who he just hit, he doesn't care anymore if he's stamped as an ungodly child. Wouldn't that be perfect, a combination of an illegitimate child and an ungodly child? Both sound better in Mahendra's ears.

"Why huh? Want to ask for duwit? Your duwit's over?"

"Mahendra, just try you like my son Nathan. Hahaha, I'm definitely not this broken!!!" He continued with laughter that exploded, no matter which part was funny.

The man was still trying to stand up even though his body had already started to squash and lost focus.

Mahen joined his lips, whispering and laughs laughingly heard the words of the father who at a time drunk like this he still likes to compare himself with Nathan.

"You're an illegitimate child, unlike my flesh-blood Nathan!!! You are not my son!!!"

"Hh, I don't need any recognition from rich fucking humans either!!!" Just about Mahen will throw one more punch, the mother first held Mahen's body to make him stop. The mother hugged Mahendra's body which had heated up from behind.

Nathan was in disarray he ventured to separate the father with Mahendra.

"Udah Bang, mother is not papa" whispered the mother who still holds the body of her child. His words sounded soothing, but it was not the speech Mahendra wanted. He was tired of hearing the mother's words pretending she was okay.

"Nathan, you take Dad to his room" ordered the mother who immediately got a nod from Nathan.

Without thinking for a long time, Mahen immediately grabbed the body of his mother who somehow became very small in his arms. He hugged the frail body of the mother tightly.  The mother is still fed, right?.

Mahen took her body into the room and put her to bed. Mahen got up looking for a p3k box that was always available in this room.

"Again, how's the lecture?" Ask the mother.

Instead of answering, Mahen fell down and cried. Seeing her beautiful hand was a lot of wounds, old wounds that had not dried up and new wounds whose blood was still flowing.

Her mother's palms became rough, her skin dry and flaking. How could? Mahendra felt very guilty for leaving his mother and facing all this on his own. 

Mahendra was very sorry, it turned out that his initiative created a lot of injuries for his mother. Mahendra should never leave the mother alone.

"Kok mother's son crying? Ih, it's so bad time anyway" mother chuckled then grabbed Mahen's cheek that was flooded with tears. Yes how not, Mahendra is very hurt to see his mother in torment like this.

"Bun sick?" Mahendra asked without looking into her eyes.

The mother shook her head and smiled, "No, it doesn't hurt anymore to see you here. Why didn't you say you wanted to come back here? If Ngabarin can be picked up with Nathan."

Mahendra's tears flowed back, which was true that his mother could still smile like this. The corner of your lips just bruised like that how could he not feel pain?. Mahen alone who saw it was very sick, indeed his heart was very slashed to see the person he loved the most hurt like this.

"Bun, sorryin Mahen" Mahen murmured on the sidelines of his sobbing. Mahen's hand is still busy treating the mother's hand that may be affected by the glass fragments earlier.

The mother simply smiled and broke her son's mane.

"But very handsome mother's child, do not cry if later the handsome is missing" said the mother, her hand turned to rub the cheek of her son.

What a smile this mother is so painful to just be seen by Mahendra.

Not a smile like this that Mahendra expected, he came home from Jogja just wanted to see the cheerful face of his mother. But again what Mahendra gets is pain, pain and anger.

His face is more and more embedded scars, his body is getting thinner. How not to be sad?.

"Mother come with me. We live together. We return to Jogja" said Mahen with tears that do not want to dry.

The mother just shook her head, obviously it was a rejection just like the last time she said goodbye to college in Jogja. Mahen could only sigh while holding the tightness in his chest.

She was too obedient, not afraid that she had a responsibility to take care of her husband. But if her husband was just a bastard like her, would his mother still have an obligation to settle down?.

Mahen forgot something, his mother still has an obligation to look after Nathan. Mahen was amazed, Nathan was an adult obviously the boy could take care of himself.

Soon her mother fell asleep, very calm without any burden. Behind her scarred face, her mother still looked very beautiful. Mahendra pulled the blanket and covered the body of the mother, he passed out of the room and found Nathan who was standing in front of the door.

"Jagain mother, I want to go first" said Mahen without looking at Nathan at all. "Too until there's nothing on your mother, you're the first person I'm going to mistake"

"I'm sorry bang, I'm a bad boy"

"Hhh, Lo will be useful to your father" the grunts of a Mahen passed making Nathan become downcast.

Nathan is now confused himself, he is eager to hold his brother. But he knew very well, no matter how hard a Nathan held him, Mahendra stuck to his stance. He would never want to live in this house again.

Now Nathan could only stare at Mahen's back which slowly disappeared from his sight.

"Still bang" Nathan murmured with tears already flowing.

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True said Mahendra, the mother should just go with Mahen at that time. The first time Mahen lifted his foot from this house. Wouldn't it be easier if they could coexist?. Mother no longer asked Nathan about Mahen's situation. And of course you will stay safe with Mahendra.

If this is the case, Nathan is increasingly tormented by thoughts that plague him every night. Thinking about the things why he was born in this family? God may have sent it to be the mother's protector, but in fact Nathan even added to the burden of the mother.

Just like the usual days, wake up every night. Nathan can't get sleepy because of the effects of the americano coffee that just went down.

Every now and then this man would chuckle when he suddenly thought of something. The times when Nathan can still hear Mahendra's babble every night.

"Nathan!! Don't drink coffee!!"

"Nathan, don't take a shower tonight!!! It will be arthritic!!!"

"Lo is a cold, don't drink ice teller!!! Ac is also required if you want to sleep"

"Nathan, why are you so cute? To your knees, very funny. Uh, but still my saucy ding! Haha"

"Out of food, it's new!"

"Don't use my antique bike!!"

"Nathan, for duwit dong. But don't tell me Dad yes, hehe"

"Don't hurt Nat! I'm the one who got to scold Dad."

"That's my color pants!"

"Nat, make indomie dong"

"Pinjem guitar dong Nat, my guitar on Daddy's banging"

"Nat, if tired of rest"

"Nat, if you want to sleep read prayer first"

"Milk, don't forget to drink!"

"Nathan, I LOVE YOU. I'm disgusted, but I LOVE YOUUU"

Indeed, at this time Nathan really misses Mahendra's voice, he collages about his past. True Mahen is indeed a bitch for sibling size, but this man is still very special in his life. From the simple things that Nathan might not get, he can find it in Mahendra. They never had a big fight, just that Mahendra was a little sensitive if it was related to the mother. Mahendra is a human who may be the first as a mother's protector.

He opened his desk drawer, took a bottle containing sleeping pills that somehow left only 4 tablets when he just bought it one week ago. Is Nathan too wasteful to take this drug? How else, he could not if he had to consume 1 tablet. 5 tablets alone he still could not fall asleep.

The clock on the desk showed at 3 am. Nathan sighed tiredly looking at his recently completed project task.

"All right now, tomorrow is a break" he murmured with a smile. Nathan smiles a lot, but he hates this smile. He is very lucky Mahendra is not there beside him, if Mahendra witnesses Nathan who is still concerned with his duties than his health has been made sure Nathan is not allowed to ride Mahen's antique motorcycle.

His antiknya motor is a Mahendra legend. Although now Nathan can buy the latest car, but he still can not buy a motorcycle like Mahendra's. Mahendra was very lucky to get the bike on his birthday as a gift from his mother.

Not because Nathan couldn't afford it but Again because of his father's ban, "why buy a rich butut bike that way, you're wearing a car, Nathan!"

"You have to be a famous photographer! Let me boast about Dad. Not rich Mahen who usually just makes it hard."

"Later in the afternoon private lessons, Dad ready his private teacher."

"Inget well Nathan, you're Dad's only son, don't take Mahen!!"

"You don't be ashamed of me!"

"Mahen isn't Dad's son, you're Dad's son!"

Is that what Dad hates Mahendra? But far from all that, indirectly, his father has made Nathan as his investment material.

If you can complain, Nathan's been doing it all day. And if allowed to rest then Nathan will never waste his rest time stuff one second.

But what this boy did would only end with the phrase, "yes Father" in a resigned tone and forced smile.

Nathan held onto his chest that was pounding even more, a pounding that felt very painful began to crack out. He could only grimace and slightly scrape his clothes. He then quickly grabbed the medicine that was in his nightstand drawer and drank it quickly. Calm it is not a sleeping pill, just a painkiller.

"Nat," the sound of the door knocking was heard mixed with the soft voice of the mother.

"So a bund" Nathan replied as he tidied up his books of duty, occasionally he still grimaced at the crispy squint, hiding back the medicine bottle he had just taken.

The mother sighed heavily looking at her son who was always awake.

Nathan smiled very sweetly making the bundapun smile.

"If you're tired of resting, Nat!" Mother said as she placed a glass containing white milk on Nathan's study table.

"Yes mother, it's just kelar" said Nathan accompanied by a grin.

The mother was finally anxious herself, then damaged the jet black hair belonging to her son.

Nathan is like that, who always makes his mother squash just by looking at his typical grin.

My mother failed to nag. How can you nag Nathan if Nathan keeps putting on an adorable face like this?.

"You're well, mommy's gurgling!"

"The mother's child is gemesin" said Nathan still by arranging his study table.

"This is the milk do not forget to drink well Nat, the last mother check your room her milk is still intact" complained mother, the article this morning saw a glass that is still full of milk last night.

"Yes mother" Nathan responded gently with a smile etched on his lips.

Once again the mother was anxious to see the youngest child, her hands outstretched rubbing gently on Nathan's cheeks.

"Bye, break! It continues tomorrow again" Mother passed out of her son's room after her message in a nod response by Nathan.

His heart warms, at least there is still a mother who every night checks his condition.

If Mahendra used to be the one who delivered milk every night for him, this time his mother swiftly did it to just fill the void. But isn't this upside down? Nathan should be there for you but why does Nathan feel empty?.

This boy then spread his eyes across the room. Wide-area? Sure oes. But why does this feel lonely when Nathan has added another piano and computer in his room but why even make this room more quiet. The guitar in the corner of his room was long untouched, no longer heard the sound of his quote. Someone who will usually be noisy and glusaran in his bed was no longer visible shadow.

"Bang!!, you can't be fooled anyway? I'm doing my job!!!" Nathan complains when he hears Mahen singing with a keyless guitar voice, well he plays it with pleasure.

"Hold me now, touch me now, I dont want live without you~~~"

"Bang!!" A riled face appeared on Nathan's face.

"Jreenngg,,, Nothing gonna changes my love for you~~" Mahen continued the show without poking at the call of her sister.

"YouU OughtA knOw bye KnOw hOw much I LOVE YOUUHH~~"

The culprit only shouts while his hand is raised symbolizing 2 fingers.

"Lo sound false vows!!" Nathan said that was frustrated to hear Mahen's voice mixed with his bed was a mess.

"Mending, lo cancel the pensi deh bang! I'm not sure if it'll work out smoothly if you'll perform"

"Don't that Nat, we don't know the result if we haven't tried" Mahen murmured with a confident look.

"Yes anyhow you're serious about why the hell bang? If you want it to be like this, the effect will continue to be dubious"

"His son brought you what song Nat? Do you have any input?"

"What songs are important you memorize the lyrics" said Nathan then turned to continue working on the pending task earlier.

Not long after, the sound of guitar passages began to be regular and pitched. Mahendra started singing.

"Yeah

You are my fire

The one desire

Believe when I say

I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart

Can't reach to your heart

When you say

That I want it that way

Tell me why

Ain't nothing' but a heartache

Tell me why

Ain't nothing' but a mistake

Tell me why

I never wanna hear you say

I want it that way"

And sure enough the song I want it that way from Mahendra's favorite band either since when Nathan started singing accompanied by a guitar quote that he is currently playing. He was just finishing an indoor concert that Mahendra had never completed.

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"CHATAN!!!" Shouted the middle-aged man who had just returned home from the Office, the woman who was in the kitchen alone until the shortest heard a heavy domineering voice.

Still in full office clothes the man again shouted, "NAT!".

"Where's Nathan?" Asked the man to the woman who had just walked up to him from the kitchen.

"Dikamar" said the mother, "why the hell Well, calm down first. Nathan's changing his clothes"

The boy who was looking for the father finally came out of the room with a smile. The boy approached his parents.

Platkk!!!

Nathan was cut short when suddenly the father slapped him very hard. She was also very surprised by her husband's treatment.

"You truant?" Ask the middle-aged man. Nathan fell silent. She looked at her husband and son in turn.

"Where are you today, huh?"

Nathan looked down still holding the red cheek.

"Nathan's Father's airshare!" Dad's snapping, Nathan's shaking.

With doubt Nathan replied, "Nathan's not going anywhere Well, Nathan's not truant".

"Don't lie to Nat's father"

Nathan shook his head. "No, Nathan didn't lie"

"Mahendra take you where?" Ask the father, but again Nathan fell silent.

Understanding the meaning of Nathan's silence, the father then clucked.

"Pinter yah now has lied Dad, has started to be a bad boy like Mahendra?"

"You should be given the punishment to be obedient again with Dad."

The father then forced Nathan's hand, obviously the boy tried to refuse but if it turns out the power of the Father is much stronger than him. Nathan's gonna end up being beaten by his father again.

Mother who had been bad with her husband's attitude also helped Nathan to restrain her husband so as not to punish Nathan.

"Mas, calm down. This can be discussed carefully" Mother began to frantically try to release the grip of her husband's hand that attracted Nathan. But easily crushed by her husband to be thrown to the floor.

"Bund!" Shouted Nathan, he was already shaking staring at the nanar the mother who tried to get up again grabbed Nathan.

"YOU DON'T HAVE TO INTERFERE!!!" But to the man, his voice was very domineering. He walked up to a baseball bat not far from his reach.

Nathan glared when he saw his father's movements, would his father beat him with an iron rod?. He began to roll back as his father began to walk closer. The boy closed his eyes tightly as if ready to receive punishment from the father.

Instead of feeling sick when Nathan knew correctly that his father had hit so hard, Nathan instead got a warm embrace from the woman he called his mother.

His mother protected Nathan from the rigors of the iron rod. Nathan did not dare to open his eyes when the mother's embrace began to weaken, the father was no longer beating him. The man threw the glass on the table until it broke.

Nathan screeched, his mother's voice no longer heard, the boy ventured to open his eyes despite the fact that he was very afraid

"Bund?" Call Nathan so softly the moment he opened his eyes, the mother was already motionless. Mother's face is still hidden behind Nathan's shoulders.

"Mother!" Calling him once again, he did not even care anymore with his father who was crazy to throw objects in the room.

Nathan raised the mother's hidden head, her hands shaking as she cupped her slightly bruised cheeks. "Bund"

The child was in the fog, the mother would not move. He thought of scary things. He stiffened to see the eyes of the mother who did not open.

"Bund, wake up bund! Mother, do not make Nathan afraid of bund" Nathan slightly swayed the mother's body hoping the woman was moved, but it seemed nil. Nathan's body was shaking, he didn't know what to do, he didn't know.

Nathan's heart trembled again, when he realized the mother's back head let out fresh blood flowing until it hit Nathan's hand.

The boy circled the whole room hoping to find the father, but Nathan's eyes did not catch the figure at all. Her father went somewhere.

From the direction of the main door Nathan instead found Mahendra standing with a backpack that slowly slumped from his shoulder. Mahendra ran towards him in panic. His eyes immediately reddened when he saw that the situation in front of him was very messy.

"B-bang" Nathan softened his lips still quivering with his sagging body.

"DOG!"he said without even glancing at Nathan who had been staring at him with fear. Then with a quick movement Mahendra took over the body of the mother from Nathan's embrace. This time he was so wrong to leave Nathan.

Without thinking, Mahendra took the woman's body out of the house without caring for Nathan who was still full of regret and guilt.

Nathan should be like Mahendra, Nathan should bring his mother as a form of handling and first aid, not even pensive to think about unnecessary things, not even sitting confused like a fool. Nathan should have taken his mother to the hospital just like Mahendra is doing right now.

Nathan must not just sit idly by like this, staring at Mahendra's back that was getting away, the boy immediately got up and ran after Mahendra.

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It has been about 3 hours Mahendra walked back and forth in front of the operating room feeling uneasy. He could not calm down, his nails were almost separated due to his own bite.

On the other hand, Nathan could only sit down and stare at the fingertips of his hand he was playing with, nor could he calm down. Where can Nathan calm down, if his mother is now struggling alone in the room.

"Mas Mahen, eat first mas" said a beautiful woman who had just arrived while carrying food supplies.

Mahendra turned his head, finding Keshwari who was already sitting next to Nathan. "Lo first, I'm tipping mama. Go to the toilet first". Mahendra said to Keshwari without even glancing at Nathan.

"Nat, eat first. You haven't eaten yet" said Keshwari gently,

Nathan shook his head weakly, he had no appetite at all. He just wants to know that his mother is okay.

"Nat, aunt Wira will not be a reason. He was lucky to have children who always loved him. You also do not get sick, so that later can mengejagain aunt Wira again." Keshwari then sighed, he also actually felt very concerned for this cousin of his. He also knows how strong Nathan is to face his father who is very hard.

Nathan looked down again, his eyes heating up again to hear Keshwari's words. He played back his injured fingertip.

Seeing that, Keshwari then cupped Nathan's hand to stop Nathan's movement who wanted to hurt himself.

"Nangis aja Nat, you also have the right to cry really".

In the end collapsed also Nathan's defense, he was crying but still stuck with a sense of tightness that might be difficult to remove. The feeling of regret has been mixed with guilt, because at any time he will never be a useful child.

Keshwari clutched his cousin's vibrating body, gently rubbing his wide back. The rhythm of his cries was irregular because of his whimpering, his cries never came off.

Behind the room, right around the corner of the hallway Mahendra battered with his bated cries as well. Her guilt grew in her heart, if only she did not leave the mother for one second maybe she would always be safe with him. Maybe the pain in his heart is nothing compared to the physical and inner pain that his mother felt during her life.

Mahendra got up after she calmed herself down to not cry anymore then walked back to the operating room. Shortly after, the doctor came out of the room, which made Nathan and Keshwari stand up to the doctor who had just come out.

"Where's the doc, my mother's condition?" Mahendra asked directly with a worried look.

"The operation was successful, it's just that the situation was still too weak. I just need to wait for the results of the check in his cranium. Most likely the patient suffered damage to the skull due to a blow so hard"

Nathan's heart was pounding again when the doctor told him that his bubble had damage to his head. He remembered very well that the head of his mother was bleeding a lot at that time.

Mahendra followed the doctor who told him to follow him to his room. Mahendra listened to a lot of explanations from doctors about the results of his mother's surgery. Instead of waiting for the results of the examination of the cranium that has been described earlier.

"As I said earlier, the operation was successful but returned to the patient's condition. I hope the same thing does not happen again, the patient must rest completely. His skull had broken, the nerves in his head might not be able to walk normally anymore. If this transplant doesn't work then our expectations are likely very small."

Very little hope, Mahendra became even more afraid.

"When can you do that docking, Doc?" Ask Mahendra.

"Frank,"

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Mommy can finally be moved into the VIP room, a special room ordered by Mahendra. This kid just doesn't want to see his tormented mother anymore.

Mahendra then grabbed the orange fruit that was on the nightstand. Keshwari's grapefruit this morning, the woman was quite helpful to him. Moreover, Keshwari is the son of his brother who does live in Jogja.

And Mahendra also felt very lucky because Keshwari entered the Faculty of medicine so he could ask a little about medical problems in Keshwari.

"Bun?" Call Mahendra, his hands are still busy peeling the Oranges in his hands.

"Later if the mother is healed, Mahen wants to take the mother out of the house. No matter if you don't want to, Mahen wants to make it" Mahendra then feeds his mother with oranges that he has made sure there are no seeds in it.

The mother just chuckled at Mahendra's being so protective, "do you have to have a boyfriend?"

Mahendra frowned, feeling that this bundle was very disconnected.

"When did you have a boyfriend?"

"What a bundle, don't really connect"

"Mothers want to see occasionally you pay attention to your boyfriend, recognize to mother. Bosen time every day see yourself continue"

"Mahen mah easily if nyari boyfriend bun, many like Mahendra"

"Times?" Temptation of mother.

Feeling belittled by his own mother, Mahendra is restoring his hair. "Mother don't want to have a son like this?"

The mother chuckled, then outstretched to tidy up Mahendra's long hair. "Yes yes, the mother's son is handsome all" his hands down turned stroking his son's cheeks.

"Mother is lucky to have a child who cares like you. My mother is not worried anymore"

Mahendra then smiled looking at his mother who was able to smile back. His heart warms, although in fact it can not eliminate the taste of his tightness. Mahendra was guilty, because from the beginning he was the one who left his mother alone in the house. Turns out putting your mother in Nathan was the biggest mistake. The boy really disappointed him.

The gondrong man gave medicine to the mother, tomorrow he will perform surgery. On the day of his birth. Mahendra had to change his happy day for his mother's healing. He just hopes tomorrow is his lucky day, his mother can be healthy again. You can see her smiling happily without feeling any more pain. He will now live only for my mother.

"Nathan where?" Ask the mother in between the sidelines Mahendra put a blanket on the body of his mother.

Mahendra obviously disliked it because the mother was still asking Nathan who obviously made him almost dead.

"There's outside" said Mahendra.

The mother pouted seeing the change in her son's tone. "Abang, it can't be. Can you call Nathan for mom?"

Mahendra did not agree to his mother's request, he was now just silent as he walked lazily to the outside of the room where only Nathan sat down down to play his finger alone. The boy was occasionally seen to endure his sleepiness with a head that was buzzing.

Nathan regained his senses and immediately stepped up when he heard the door open, he looked up and saw Mahendra walking out towards him.

"In the call of mother" said Mahendra still with a sharp tone, he did not want to look at Nathan at all. It's okay Nathan also does not question or question why Mahendra treated him like that because it is very clear that the man was very disappointed in Nathan.

Without saying anything, Nathan immediately moved and then walked into the mother's room followed by Mahendra behind him.

Mahendra chose to sit on the soffa while playing his phone.

Nathan walked up to his mother who was ready to fall asleep. "Bund"

The mother smiled, but Nathan could not smile at all when he saw the mother lying weakly in the hospital like this. Moreover, with the head of the mother filled with bandages.

"Today take care of your mother here well, Nat" pinta bundanya while reaching for her son's hand. Nathan clearly nodded. Then then shifted the chair that was not far from his reach, Nathan sat beside the bed still with his mother's hand holding it.

"Mother, Nathan, I'm sorry" said Nathan, full of regret, he stroked his mother's hand and then he kissed her for a long time.

Her mother only smiled warmly but her eyes were closed. The other hand outstretched stroked Nathan's head, very comfortable Nathan felt.

"Nat, don't get sick anymore" exclaimed the mother, Nathan nodded quickly.

After about 5 minutes of silence, Nathan only looked at the face of the mother who was asleep. His hands refused to let go.

Nathan grabs the AC remote to bring down the room temperature as he feels his mother's hand in the cold. The mother fell asleep very quietly, Nathan smiled warmly.

But in the next second Nathan realized something. Her hand hesitantly stretched out and she placed it right in front of her mother's nose. Nathan's heart beat when he didn't feel his mother's breath at all.

His hand moved touching the pulse that was on his neck with a tremble. No, not like this. Please, Nathan is so scared.

"B-bang" called Nathan with trembling lips and his eyes began to heat up, his blood flow seemed to stop. Mahendra looked up to see Nathan's face was very clear. He then turned to look at Mother.

Mahendra put down his phone then walked quickly to both.

"Mother, bang" Nathan said once again, he increasingly tightened the grip of the mother's hand that was no longer holding it.

"No, mommy's just sleeping. Now you're mending home" Mahendra now pulls the blanket back with a much more vibrating hand.

"B-bang!" Nathan's eyes were now watery, staring at Mahendra wryly. Mahendra shook his head quickly, he returned Nathan's gaze sharply.

"Lo didn't hear what I said? Go home!" Mahendra's eyes were heating up, his heart was already very sick. He just slipped then looked at the mother who was still asleep calmly when Mahendra was screaming. He looked out at the calm face, no more regular breaths. Everything is calm, but not with the heart and heart of Mahendra who is now confused, pounding with fear.

While waiting for tomorrow, Mahendra can see the smile of his mother again. "Home home, Nat" said Mahendra, his tears have now come out by themselves.

Nathan shook his head, his tears were already unstoppable. Nathan cried "Mother is home"

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"September was beautiful before I came at the wrong time. It's true, that everything about me is a catastrophe."

Mahendra Mahawira Hareshananda,

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"I've been hiding for too long, even when I came out I was still confused about what I would do"

Nathanael Abdi Putra,