It Turns out There's Love

29 - ALWAYS OPEN APOLOGY ROOM

"Zafira, I've apologized to you, I've been solemn and unintentionally done so. Why are you still thinking that way to me?" Fariz tried to convince me that what he was doing was not deliberate.

Zafira did not answer. He chose to be silent, his mouth lazy to move to answer Fariz's words. Only his eyes continued to stare at Fariz with the glare of his eyes still leaving a sense of annoyance and heartache.

"Okay, maybe everything you say is true. I am evil. I am a rough and tempramental man. I know, I'm not a good man. I can never make you feel comfortable around me. Maybe it's for that reason that you can never fall in love with me and would rather love Ronald than learn to love me. Maybe for that reason it is also what makes you always reject my love and oppose the arranged marriage that our parents have agreed to," said Fariz Iirih bowed between the breezes that hit his tangled face.

Zafira. Eyes widened. Fariz's speech was like an arrow bow that shot out deeply, right on the target penetrating from the surface of the skin to the recesses of the heart. The girl's chest suddenly became ill. He did not expect that his words made Fariz draw the wrong conclusion, thinking of himself as a tempramental man due to the sentence that Zafira had just started.

The girl's eye bead examined Fariz's increasingly downcast face. The girl's heart was sad too. He regretted that he had issued an inappropriate sentence when the man's mood was not good. His words must have made Fariz blame himself for the incident in the room and felt he was a rude and tempramental man.

"Bu-not that I mean. I'm sorry Fariz, I mispronounced. I was still carried away with heartache until I said a word that did not deserve to be heard and did not match reality. To me, you are a very kind and caring man. You have always treated me gently, never once to hurt my heart. But the incident in the room shocked me and felt that you had turned into a rude man. I still had a hard time accepting it to the point of making me utter a sentence I shouldn't have said. I'm sorry..," a moment of regret appeared on the girl's face looking at the man in front of her who was standing unmoved.

Fariz closed his eyes and then massaged his forehead with his fingertips. It could not be hidden from that face how heavy the burden he was now facing was. The heaviest burden in his life is having to let go of Zafira for another man.

If there is a choice in his life, Fariz would rather see Zafira not married for the rest of his life than to let go of the much-loved girl living with another man. And with certainty, Fariz would do the same, choosing not to marry any girl.

Seeing Fariz just standing still massaging his forehead, the girl spoke again, continuing a sentence that the man might understand.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to accuse you of being a no-no, I just let go. The truth is, you are the nicest man in the world just like papa, Zafran and.., and.., Ronald," said Zafira hesitantly finishing the last word, afraid of hurting the man in front of her.

"Nouth"

Sure enough, Fariz's heart throbbed in pain hearing the name of Ronald who participated called Zafira. That pain hurt her heart so much.

I want Fariz to shut Zafira's mouth so as not to mention let alone pair Ronald's name between Zafran, Arga and himself. Because Ronald does not deserve to be said to be a good man as has been flattered and adored Zafira. But the truth is, Fariz was so sure that Zafira's lover was a wolf in sheep's clothing. Zafira had been blinded by Ronald's theatrical love until Zafira was fooled by the play so sweetly created by the two-faced man.

Fariz took a deep breath trying to be heartened to accept all the thoughts of Zafira about Ronald who he considered good.

"No need to apologize. It is natural that you feel hurt and disappointed by my attitude that you have never met in your life both from Zafran and from Arga. You are so loved by your whole family. But my attitude must have made you sad. I should be the one apologizing for causing you shock and for throwing away the rice you had so hard-earned for me. I'm really sorry for that. Are you still willing to forgive me?," a sincere apology came out from the thick-browed man's lips.

Zafira's eyes fixed on Fariz and nodded. His little heart said that Fariz was exactly like his twin brother, Zafran and the papa, Arga, very affectionate and always apologized every time he made a mistake.

"Yes, I've forgiven you," Zafira flashed a faint smile on her lips.

If you remember that, a great fear increasingly ravaged Fariz's life and sadness felt increasingly hard to grip his heart.

Zafira nodded and kept painting a smile on those paled-looking lips.

"Forget all. I won't remember it anymore. Assume it never happened. I have forgiven you.., And will always forgive you..," said the girl sincerely from the bottom of her heart.

After their meeting and talks tonight, Zafira has decided to forget Fariz's rude attitude that left her disappointed, crying and hurt.

He will not remember the incident again and will assume it is just the wind then who just stopped for a moment to blow dust grains into his face and immediately disappear again blown by the wind.

The girl knew that the nature of the friend was not like that. Ten years is not a short time for him to know the nature and character of Fariz, because that is whatever Fariz does to him, even though Fariz has made him sad and cry though, he said, zafira will always forgive him and always will.

Zafira's words immediately made Fariz amazed. How Fariz could stop loving the girl if Zafira's words were always able to make her heart calm and peaceful. Every word that came from Zafira's lips calmed Fariz's troubled heart. Every sentence Zafira spoke was like water that could flush the heat in his heart and cool his chest cavity.

That is one of the advantages of Zafira that makes Fariz can not stop loving the girl and increasingly confined by a love that never finds a edge to dock.

"You're very kind. Thank you for always giving me an apology space..," said Fariz sharpened both beads on the face pale Zafira but still radiate beauty that is able to make Fariz's heart more tied and unable to escape from the girl.

Zafira nodded and replied.

"My apology room will always be open and will never be closed to you, Fariz. And I hope you do the same for me, too" said Zafira swallowing the saliva, the girl's throat beginning to choke as she wanted to continue more serious talks with the man.

Fragmented, Zafira tried to carry on a sentence that felt so difficult for him to say.

"And.., and it should be.., I'm the one who apologized to you, Fariz.., because.., for hurting your heart with the plan..," Zafira sighed for a moment while watching Fariz's expressionless face, then the girl resumed her sentence.

"With my wedding plans and Ronald. I.., I'm sorry..," said the girl back in a voice so quietly full of caution. He did not want his words to make Fariz more hurt and hurt.

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