Is God's Choice?

38. Poetry of the Heart

🌼🌼Tangisaan In Heart 🌼🌼

🌼I want to silence on nature today

The atmosphere awakens the sea of my heart

My blood flowed fast

As if I could not stand the anger in my heart

My feelings are like being torn apart

I feel it ...

Pediferous imprint ...

About the soul ...

I want to pour out my tears

Screaming at the silent nature that sees me

The wind slapped my feeling so sliced

I don't understand any of this

God, why should I be like this ?

God, why is all this happening to me?

I never knew your plan, Robb ...

I'm grounding

I surrender

And I'll hang all this to you

Guide me and my heart Yes Robb .... 🌼🌼*

Slowly Kia kept her brown diary, as an expression of the heart she experienced. Only a poem that only he could understand. He wiped the tears that kept flooding his cheeks even though he was a little weak he still tried to get up and leave the chair that had supported his weight.

Slowly he turned to his soft mattress, while taking photos that he had printed with the idol who was calm in nature there.

"Sir, ... Why did you leave me so quickly? Don't you know, my heart is as fragile as paper that has been burned and blown away, my body so weak as boneless? I know you don't want me like this, but how am I not like this when our hopes and dreams are gone?. He said as he gently stroked the photo framed wood occasionally he put the photo in his chest.

Gts ... Gts ... Gts ....

Suarq knocked on the door in front of his room.

"Dec, can I come in? Razi asked who was already in the doorway carrying a tray containing a bowl of soup and a plate of rice, hoping that his sister would eat today.

"Sir, it's been almost a week you keep giving yourself in the room, aren't you tired, huh? Look at your face getting thinner, aa don't want you constantly rich gini, you're already dzolim with your body, dek!" Razi said as he put a greeting containing lunch dishes for Kia, who had been a week without appetite.

"Let Kia be like this, a! Kia better rest in the room alone, than Kia outside who continues to remember the existence of Kak Prama, who once filled the contents of the room in this house. Hicks ... Hicks ... The answer that feels sad when remembering the memories of Prama who once ate together at the dining table, always burping when in the living room with his family. Prama's shadow continued to dance in his memory when he saw the rooms of the house that Prama had visited.

" Yes hard then" now you're eating, yeah! Tell Razi while inserting as much as rice that has been mixed with chicken soup that approaches Kia's mouth.

With a slight bobble Kia's head seemed to refuse a bribe from Razi.

"Something's okay, deck!"

Forced Razi who did not want his sister to drop if not forced to eat.

Slightly lying his body Kia refused back the orders of the older brother who loved his sister very much.

"He didn't want to, a!"

"Yes already if you do not want to eat also do not blame aa, if next Monday you have to come aa, aa, to go to the dormitory of aa friends who are in area x so you can forget the memories with Prama!" Aa don't want to deck, look at you like this as if you no longer have a passion for life. Gertak Razi who slightly raised the intonation of his voice that made Kia a little shocked and immediately rose from the body that was a little more attached to his soft mattress. Razi slightly ruffled his coarse hair.

Kia's cry broke out hearing Razi's slightly muffled voice in his eardrum. He held Razi's hand beside his right.

"When she doesn't want to stay there, Kia wants to eat as long as she doesn't bring Kia to the place, let Kia bury Kia's mass with Prama's sister slowly, a! Don't take Kia there, Kia doesn't want to be away from mom, Rahma and dad. Her crying that while giving understanding to her only brother.

" Oh yeah, now eat? Aa do not want to see you rich gini every day, Prama also must be sad if you see your rich gini continue, deck! God hates his despairing servant and weeps too much for what is not ours. Persuade Razi who is now meniciumi the head of his sister while holding his sister in a warm embrace.

Ms. Aisyah heard Razi's slightly loud flares which made her see her daughter's state in the room. Followed by Razi who turned to the existence of Aisyah maam.

"Already Razi, do not be too hard on your sister, as she is sad, we do not make her even more sad, by forcing her to go to the dormitory, even if forced later Kia'nya not at home, he said, we wait for her to be ready or maybe another option to the grandmother's house in area x, there is also not far from ta'lim activities that will make her mood improve. Tandas bu Aisyah while pulling Razi a little away from Kia who had started to want to eat alone even though only a few spoons entered her mouth.

" Eat a lot, baby! let's have energy later we try to walk, yes, where are you going, son? Ask Bu Aisyah while sitting on the side of Kia's bed.

Kia answered only with a ring of Keoala which Razi did little to tease Ayesha and Kia.

"Razi pamit ya ma'am, want to try to give this proposal to campus x, hopefully Razi can jado lecturer there. Said Razi who had kissed the hand of Aisyah and did not forget to kiss the tip of his sister's head.

"Often read the Qur'an yes, deck! let you not be mostly dumbfounded and the Qur'an stepped forward! The bottom left two women looking at his departure.

"You know baby, aa you've done ta'aruf to your temen house Dance. Insha Allah 2 months away from her wedding. Say Aisyah's mom who has put the plate that still has rice left on her plate on the table.

" Certainly, ma?"

Eventually they will unite, ma'am, unlike Kia. His slightly weakened speech when recalling all the unfortunate events that had happened to him.

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