I Want What I Don't Want

Fires of the Fires

'What are you doing, Rhea? You shouldn't be like this. Remember, now Heaven has a boyfriend, and you know it. This is not true if you leave it like this, Rhea, Rhea's sane mind is trying to realize that what she is doing is wrong. But on the other hand, his heart was so happy and even wanted to get more of this.

"Rhea, let's go there, too" Sean asked, pointing to the children who were gathered waiting for Riyan and Feri who were trying to start the firewood.

Rhea refocused after hearing Sean's invitation and looked at Sean's place. It was true that they had all gathered there, there was Intan who he had been looking for earlier. Not to forget Gilang was also already there.

"Mm. but..." Rhea was worried about the invitation, because actually she still wanted to hold hands with the sky longer.

"It's okay, if you still want to be here," after saying that, Sean stood up without giving Rhea a chance to think again.

Knowing that Sean was about to stand up, Rhea immediately pulled his hand to escape the grasp of Heaven's hand. "I'm coming, too" Rhea also hurriedly stood up spontaneously following Sean.

But Sean walked quickly leaving Rhea behind him. He did not want Rhea to know how the expression he put on now. He was very angry, not because of jealousy, just annoyed with the behavior of the two of them. Well, there's jealousy, too. But not as big as his current anger.

How not, obviously what they just did was wrong. Not once or twice did Sean learn of the deeds they had secretly done in hindsight, and this was the umpteenth time. It was always Heaven trying to get close to Rhea if there was a chance.

He was angry because Heaven was not firm with his attitude. If she did like Rhea, she should have ended her relationship with Intan immediately. Sean had already reprimanded him, and Sky only replied that he was not feeling good to decide on someone.

'Then, would he be happy if he continued to hurt Rhea? Not giving clarity and hanging it with a relationship that is clearly wrong and detrimental to Rhea.'

'Rhea too. Actually he was too plain or stupid. He just wants to be treated unfairly like that. Yes, love is blinding.'

"Bright..." Sean breathed slowly. He could not blame Rhea, as he himself felt it too. He likes Rhea and will do things that will make Rhea happy. Perhaps such thoughts were also in Rhea's heart.

'Why him? The road was very fast, like intentionally leaving me. Never mind, it's just a road close to here, I can be alone.' Rhea walked over without caring about Sean anymore and did not follow him. He chooses to approach Emma instead of following Sean who is now squatting between Riyan and Feri.

The sky that came after was also intending to squat, but it was not so because Intan welcomed him by grabbing the arm of Heaven and struggling spoiled there.

Although she did not want to see it, Rhea could still see it from the tail of her eyes. 'Already, already. Let's refocus and ignore them, Rhea's inner self while shaking her head trying to be unaffected with the two of them.

"Is lighting a campfire difficult?" ask Emma. Because as far as Rhea knew, from earlier they still could not light the bonfire.

"No, sis. Maybe because it's a little damp, so yeah."

"Oh." Rhea is not good at small talk, so she does not know what to talk about.

Rhea crouched down to her knees again because of the cold that she could not bear even though she had crossed her hands in front of her chest while standing next to Emma.

But not long after Rhea was surprised when a fairly thick cloth fell from the top and hit her head until it covered her vision.

Rhea pulled the cloth and looked up to find out where it came from. 'Miss out? How could he be here? That's right, Emma's next to me.'

Rhea then circulated the view looking for the figure of Emma who turned out to be closer to the firewood and was shooting it with a cellphone. Probably made for status on his social media account.

Actually Gilang from earlier was indeed standing not far from him, he was standing next to Emma as well. It's just that because of Emma's obstruction, Rhea can't see it clearly. His attention was also distracted with Heaven and Diamond so that he did not pay too much attention to his surroundings.

"Wear it," said Gilang.

"Huh? What's?" Rhea turned back to Gilang and stood up to hear Gilang's words that were similar to the mutterings.

"Wear that," Gilang repeated while pointing at what was in Rhea's hands.

Following the direction Gilang pointed, it made Rhea realize again about the cloth that had fallen on her head earlier. He forgot about it because he was surprised by the existence of Gilang who was suddenly next to him.

"This what?" asked Rhea while stretching the cloth which turned out to be a sweater. "It... I can't wear it. If I wear it, then what about you? Now the weather is very cold," refused Rhea while handing back the sweater.

"no need. You just put it on," after saying that, Gilang left Rhea alone, giving no chance for Rhea to refuse again.

Not wanting to make a fuss just because of the sweater problem, Rhea also hung the sweater to his shoulders and did not wear it. He felt awkward wearing it.

He and Gilang only met this afternoon and they have not become familiar until they can share a sweater like this. 'Don't be familiar, but he doesn't seem to like me. I don't know what the intention is to give me the sweater.'

"Finally, the flame too. Yan, add the firewood slowly," Sean instructed Riyan who was near the pile of firewood they got from the results of looking around.

The fire slowly began to grow and provide warmth around him. They began to gather around the campfire to dissipate the cold that enveloped them.

They can only squat or stand because the ground is still wet due to the rain earlier. They all fell silent while looking at the only brightest illumination there.

Rhea stuck her hands closer to the campfire, hoping that the numbness in her fingers from the cold could disappear as quickly as possible.

"Be careful. Don't get too close, danger." Sean held onto Rhea's wrist, stopping her from sticking her hand closer towards the campfire.