I Want What I Don't Want

Bite My Neck

Rhea held onto Sean's wrist which was rubbing his lips. He looked straight at Sean and made Sean feel immersed into his sparkling black eyes.

"Aww!", Sean cried out a little in pain as Rhea bit her thumb. And he immediately pulled his hand and wagged it.

"Why did you bite? Still hungry? Nih, bite my neck all together" said Sean approaching as he pulled his collar revealing his pure white neck.

"Here!" Rhea unexpectedly pulled Sean's collar with both hands, so their faces were so close that they were only five centimeters away.

Sean was stunned not to blink, he did not expect that Rhea would pull him.

Chequek.

The two of them turned their heads towards the door when they heard the sound of someone opening the door, which turned out to be the Sky.

"Sky. How did the doctor say? Can I go home now?", asked Rhea, still clutching Sean's collar.

The sky did not answer, he just looked towards them.

"Let go, stupid.", Sean pulled both of Rhea's hands away to take off his grip. 'Basic insensitive!', inner Sean.

Rhea just frowned at Sean's sudden attitude.

"So, how's Lang?", asked Sean trying to shake off his awkwardness.

"Doctor said, come home tomorrow morning", Sky replied as he began to walk towards them.

"Tomorrow? I want to go home today. I want to go to college tomorrow to take care of my college leave", said Rhea slowly.

"Don't force yourself. Follow what the doctor says." The sky stroked Rhea's head lovingly as if purposely showing her to Sean about his ownership of Rhea.

"Now you sleep." The sky fixed the location of Rhea's blanket. "Sean, you must be tired. You go home, I'll keep Rhea here tonight.

"OKs. Rhea, I'm going home first. Don't miss, yeah", said Sean patting Rhea's shoulder slowly.

Before leaving, he took a package of bakmie garbage to dispose of in a trash can outside the room. With a heavy heart, he set foot to go home.

"Then, I go to sleep first, Sky.", Rhea came back clumsy after Sean left. He was not used to dealing with heaven.

"Yes. Go to sleep", the sky kissed Rhea's forehead and sat on the bedside chair and held Rhea's hand.

Rhea felt increasingly wrong and wanted to take off Heaven's hand, but could not, because Heaven grasped his hand tightly.

Perhaps due to the influence of the drug, Rhea ended up sleepy and asleep.

***

Around ten p.m., Rhea woke up and found that the Sky was not in the room.

He got out of bed and drank a glass of water that was available on the nightstand.

He then got out of his sleep and went out of the room. He wants to breathe fresh air.

Holding the infusion pole, he walked slowly and sat on the bench waiting in front of the room.

The very quiet atmosphere made Rhea feel a little comfortable. He closed his eyes feeling the calm around him.

He also thought about how he would meet his needs because he had not got a job. The savings are still enough for daily needs, but not enough for college costs even though they have received scholarships.

He had to go on college leave to work daily. Although he got monthly money from his parents, but he did not use it at all.

He saved the money to prepare for his parents' day.

'Now he has to find a job where?', Rhea sighed softly.

Rhea opened her eyes as she felt a chill on her forehead.

"What's wrong? Why sigh? Is anyone sick?", asked Sky who had just sat beside him and pressed his palm to check Rhea's body temperature.

"I just want to get some fresh air" replied Rhea while confirming her sitting.

"What is that?", point Rhea towards the plastic package that the Sky brought. The tantalizing smell from there, made Rhea's stomach feel hungry.

"You.", without further ado Rhea directly took one piece and ate it voraciously.

"Nake?"

"Ehm.", Rhea nodded her head.

Seeing her like that, Sky felt Rhea had slightly removed her sense of unease. He wanted to feel familiarity from her just like Rhea did with Sean.

"You didn't eat?", asked Rhea who had finished about four pieces.

"You eat first."

"I'm full" answered Rhea who actually still wants to eat. He did not want to look greedy in front of the Sky.

"Wait.", Sky held onto Rhea's wrist as she was about to wipe her mouth with the back of her hand as usual. "It's a tissue" Sky added, removing the tissue from the plastic package.

The sky gently rubbed Rhea's mouth with a tissue. Rhea became tense and clumsy.

"I can do it myself", Rhea took a tissue from the hand of Heaven and rubbed her own mouth.

"Why did you sigh? Is there anything you think?", asked Sky to shift his disappointed feelings as Rhea again kept her distance.

"I was just thinking of finding a job where.", replied Rhea while opening the lid of the mineral water bottle that Sky had given her.

"If you want, you try working at Cafe Intan. I just met him, he had a chance to talk about his cafe in need of an employee."

"Uhuk, uhuk.", Rhea choked on her drinking water a little.

"Slow down.", while patting slowly on Rhea's back, Sky picked up the mineral bottle from Rhea's hand.

"So, you've met Intan?", asked Rhea to make sure after the cough subsided.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Oh."

The mood was silent again. Rhea fell silent, for some reason she did not like when she knew that Sky had just met Intan.

"Rhea", The sky breaks the silence.

"Hm."

"How's it?"

"What?"

"Work at cafe Intan."

"Yes." Yeah."

"OKAY. I'll call him later."

"Hm."

Silent again. Rhea was in a bad mood. While Heaven does not know why Rhea suddenly became like that.

Yes, the sky is indeed someone who is less sensitive. He did not understand that by discussing Intan, could make Rhea's mood deteriorate.

"Are you tired? Let's go inside. Here it is cold", invite Sky while standing up and extend his hand in front of Rhea to help her stand up.

Rhea just stood up without answering, not even paying attention to Heaven's helping hand. He walked away into the room leaving the sky.

The sky clenched its clenched hands that hung in the air. He thought maybe Rhea was really exhausted. He turned around and walked after Rhea who had gone inside first.

Rhea was already lying on the bed with her back when the sky came in.

The sky approached Rhea, standing in front of her. "Good sleep", the sky lowered its head kissing Rhea's forehead. After that he sat down on the bedside chair.

"Good sleep too." Rhea turned her back to the sky. He was still uncomfortable facing Sky, because given that Sky had left him alone in the hospital and went to see Intan.