I Pursue Your Love, Rector

Heartache again

I feel very very confused at this time, what is really happening, and why also Mr. Rama did not let me to talk about who I really am.

I sat on the sofa again, releasing a heavy breath that had made my chest feel tight. I think my life is getting more complicated now. Not even I can make up with Mr. Rama, uh even add one more problem.

For a few moments I looked at everything that happened today. Why did fate take me on such a difficult road like this. My struggle to pursue the love of Mr. Rama turned out to be very difficult.

Mr. Rama alone has been very difficult for me to conquer, this plus the strange girl. It's getting harder on my life now.

When Mr. Rama entered the room, I was still contemplating my bad luck on the sofa. Mr. Rama looks really upset at me this time. What's more, didn't I make no mistake earlier. I thought in my heart.

"Rania, you're satisfied now, aren't you?" rama said suddenly.

"satisfied? What am I satisfied at this time, why did Mr. Rama even ask about me satisfied," I said as I woke up from sitting.

"You've made my cousin's sister sick today. You are the cause of trouble, yes" said Mr. Rama.

I was surprised what I had to do with his sick cousin's sister. Why does he blame me when his cousin's sister is sick. But wait, that was his cousin's sister turned out. But what does that have to do with me, I'm not talking about anything, am I?

"Sir Rama said it was the same with me, I did not make anything wrong with Mr. Rama."

"Lho, how do I know about that. Why should Mr. Rama blame me for this. Mister Rama should know, I'm the one who was wronged, not Mr. Rama."

"Why so you who say wronged now, are not you who asked to be betrothed to me," said Mr. Rama.

"I never asked my parents to match me with my father. As long as you know, I love you the same father. But I'm not a cheap woman begging for your father's love."

I began to get carried away by the emotions at this time, the intentions of my heart that did not want to be provoked by Mr. Rama. Finally caught up too.

"God knows, I am quite self-aware of who I am and who Mr. Rama is. Our position is very much different, but it's just the position on the campus. Not in the eyes of the public and not in the eyes of God."

"Of course, I don't want to fight with you anymore. From now on, remember who you are and who I am. We shouldn't be married and living together."

Mr. Rama went from before me, he slammed the door of our room as he closed it from the outside. He left me with a thousand wounds in my heart. He even blamed me when his cousin got sick. Didn't he see, I didn't do anything.

Mr. Rama will never love me. No matter what I do, Rama will not see it. I'm losing now, should I give up pursuing her love. Because I can't afford to stay here anymore. Survive with a thousand wounds that just keep coming.

Love will be lost if often hurt, the word may have a point. I have to wait for those words to come true, so that I can hate Mr. Rama forever.