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Along the way there was not a word that Aisha said. He only answered as necessary. Sure enough, Aisya was thinking of herself, who felt contemptible.Sometimes she wiped her tears that she hid. He had even held it many times, but it still flowed just like that. A deep feeling of pain had already spread within him. What to say if the mother knows.

Along the way was Aisya, trying to stay calm. He asked to sit at the back. This avoids suspicion from his colleagues because it is difficult to deny that he is currently very injured.

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Upon arrival at Aisya Airport choose to go home early and get out of the group. The reason is because he will meet his friend who is waiting. Aisya immediately took a taxi to go to the Dormitory and she wanted to vent all her emotions at this time.

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In a Dormitory under the water, Aisya was crying. He lamented his fate. He did not hesitate to curse and vaporize everything in his mind that had been restrained. There is also a deep hatred.

"I have to get him accountable, I'll fight for him" he said, clenching his hands together.

He immediately put on his clothes and got on his bed, feeling still unstable, he picked up the phone on the nightstand.

Do I have to tell mom or Sinta what has happened to me ? Aisya muttered.

"No, I can't possibly share it with Sinta let alone with my mother. They will definitely be disappointed especially mother. I don't want her to think about me. well for now I'm pendam all my own problems." Said Aisya who then returned her phone to the top of her nightstand.

Aisya's phone is deliberately not activated for now, because she is wanting to be alone to calm her mind and mind.

When Aisha laid down her body, she still wept over her, "now I have only God, O Lord, strengthen your servant," he said that was still wrapped in tears that always flowed in the corner of his two eyes.

"Lord, I believe you can help me through all these problems, Your power, able to turn the heart of every human being on this earth" said Aisya.

Aisha began to move then she immediately purified herself and then prayed for forgiveness.

"O Lord, you are forgiving and merciful. Forgive my sins, forgive me." Say Aisya many times.with the rush of tears while prostrating.

Aisya dissolved in her sadness, she cried incessantly, to the point of making her eyes moist.

I must rise up, if I am like this I cannot get what is rightfully mine.I must be strong not only lament, muttered Aisya.

"You cry, you lament that you won't make it all back again, she said bracing herself, " said Aisya who spoke to herself.

However, when remembering the incident, the tears were not able to be weaved. Even the flow of tears will surely flow more rapidly. Dissolving in his sadness made him fall asleep in his sleep.

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Two days after returning from there, Aisya asked for leave. He must immediately finish his business with the person who made it like this.

Aisya tries to activate a mobile phone that she turns off after returning from there. So many messages came in, but he chose to open a message from Dirga.

Tomorrow we meet, I'll take you to your dorm.~Dirga

That was the short message he received. Aisya was actually very fed up with Dirga, but she was the one who had to take responsibility for him. He did not reply to the message.

Aisya tries to contact her mother, she actually wants to share her problems. But that was impossible, he called his mother's no. over the phone.

"Assalamualaikum, son ! how are you doing ? yesterday was your trip well?" ask mom .

Waalaikumsalam hotel,

Thank goodness mom, the service trip was smooth, with a hoarse voice that could not stem her tears.

"Son, are you crying ? what's up ? speak !" exclaimed mother.

"Thong ma'am, Aisya is just kangen with mom," lies Aisya who tries to neutralize the atmosphere.

"It's with you, son !" said mother.

"Mother, how's it going ? I'm sorry I couldn't tell mommy over there !" exclamation Aisya.

"Alhamdulillah, good mother. Nak. It's just that I had a bad feeling a few days ago, but it's because you've contacted me"

"Sorry ma'am, Aisya made me worry." Her tears didn't start falling.

"It's okay, you don't work today ?" ask Mother.

"I'm not going to work anymore, ma'am, take a break after coming here on a long trip." replied I, who was trying to find an excuse.

"You rested a lot, son, as if you were exhausted" mother ordered.

"Waalaikumsalam" said his mother

Aisya wanted to end it immediately, not wanting her mother to know that she was sad.

Aisya wants to put down her phone, but suddenly rings back, she sees a call from her friend Sinta.

"Hallo, Aisya you are arrogant at all not to exchange news during there?", said Sinta who was upset because her friend did not tell her.

"Call, Sinta. Assalamualaikum !" exclamation Aisya.

"I'm sorry to forget, waalaikumsalam," replied Sinta chuckling.

"I'm sorry, I just got to tell you, I forgot I didn't bring a card there" explained Aisya.

"you can use the internet, now a lot of social media," protested Sinta.

"yes, I know. I did not think there. I was there not a vacation. I work maybe I was too busy," said Aisya .

"Until you forget ? It's just not worth it to be contacted. For a moment you were like you were sick, your voice was hoarse ? you've been crying ?" ask Sinta.

Aisya momentarily paused, "not Sinta, I'm just hoarse, maybe I'm just sapped."

"You've been to the Hospital, check it not to be allowed,"Seek Sinta.

you are not as usual Sya, I know you are hiding something from me, Sinta inner

"Yes, Sinta, the plan is up I go to the company clinic," replied Aisya.

"Today you're not working ?" ask Sinta.

"Yes I have a rest today!", exclaimed Aisya.

"Well be well, then I will go to the dorm" said Sinta

"For what ?" ask Aisya

"Look at you, all asking for souvenirs" said Sinta.

"ah this basic you," said Aisya who then thought for a moment.

Don't let Sinta come here, he must want to find out something. I have to give an excuse, Aisya thought.

"Aisya" the voice of the call from there blew his mind.

"Yes, Sinta. M.... Ask me to apologize today in my dormitory there is an agenda, so I have not been able to receive guests, for the souvenirs I just send them yes," asked Aisya.

"Well, even though I want to see you today, want to see no change during your stay" Sinta was a little upset.

"You exist, I have not changed at all still on the same earth. I sent ya souvenirs for you."

"Well, yes, I want to work! Assalamualaikum," cried Sinta.

"Waalaikumsalam," replied Aisha weakly.

I'm sorry Sinta, mother, I can't share my sorrow with you. You will definitely be disappointed with what has happened to me. I was forced to lie to you. But someday you'll find out, not for now, because I'm fighting for it. Mumbled Aisya who had always soaked her cheeks.

Aisya's eyes are so swollen, because she does not stop crying. I can't cry all day like this. I promised myself I shouldn't cry because it wouldn't help, she thought.

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To be continued