I Need Confession

Apologize

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The next morning, Aisya regained consciousness from her stupor, feeling her body in so much pain. But now the bond has been opened and found himself in a state without strands of thread in his body, only a blanket that covers him. Her tears were now soaking her cheeks, she lamented her fate.

He widened his gaze, he found a man sitting at the bedside, he was the one who had forced himself.

"You, you realize, you better take a shower first, I'll wait at the dinner table !" dirga exclaimed coldly and left him.

There was a heightened fear and anger, he wanted to spout all the harsh words towards her. But he chose to hold all of that. Aisya did not speak a word, she only cried lamenting for her fate. The holiness that he had been guarding, was now gone. Aisya like losing direction and tears can not come out anymore. Aisya wanted to be furious, yelling regretful of herself. There was nothing else he could do but get up.

Aisya immediately took a shower and cleaned herself. Now he felt himself dirty and despicable, that was what he had in mind. But he should not be caught up in his problem. He must immediately resolve this matter.

Aisya looked at herself through the mirror, Her condition was indeed very apprehensive, face full of bruises. Aisya came back crying, remembering the incident. He was unable to hold back his tears and continued to blame himself.

Aisya went out and found Dirga who was sitting at the dining table. Aisya ventured out, holding her accountable for her actions.

Aisha stood in front of Dirga, knowing her arrival and Dirga told her to sit in front of him, "For last night, I'm sorry it was out of my control."

Ck, you easily say that, you have no feelings, inner Aisya with a gaze of holding back tears and anger.

Aisya sighed, and tried to calm down, "sorry words can't bring back something you've taken from me."

"I'm sorry, I can't bring back something you've lost."

again the apology that was thrown, I was sick of hearing the angry inner Aisya not even feel the water dripping from the corner of her tears. Actually Aisya did not want to show her sadness, let alone see her helplessness with tears flowing.

"I hope you can be fair to me, you took something precious from me. Then you must give up something valuable for yourself."

"I don't understand what you're saying, can't you just speak frankly ?" ask Dirga.

"You should understand sir, what I want."

Dirga started to raise her head, "What should I do anyway ?"

Aisya sighed and threw it away violently, "My future is ruined, something I've been guarding all this time has been lost, you have to take responsibility for all this."

She scrunched her forehead, "you mean ?"

"You still don't understand also mister !"

"Talk clearly, so that I can understand your wishes" he said flatly.

Aisya just fell silent, she just held back her anger.

Does he pretend not to understand what I mean ? inner Aisya grumbled.

Aisya continued her words, but was cut off, "I'm just asking-"

"Money ? well how much money do you need ?" cut Dirga in peace

Aisya instantly blazing red face restrained her anger, she stood up and kicked her table.

Brawny

"I'm not a prostitute, who sells myself for money !" snapped Aisya clenched her hand with a tear that was already unstoppable again.

Dirga flatly turned towards Aisya, "What should I do anyway ?"

"You have to marry me !" aisya said without realizing her words.

Well how is this, I look like a beggar in front. No, I have to fight for it, because this is my pride ! thought Aisya.

Dirga just smiled wryly, "why, should I marry you ?"

Aisya bluntly "A-You've done a very fatal thing for me and that's the only way that can save my future."

"I'll marry you if you're pregnant" she said flatly.

"You mean ?"

"Dirga glanced sharply, "Is it less clear what I said, Wouldn't it be that if you weren't pregnant, it wouldn't be a problem ? pregnancy that makes you a problem ?"

"Marriage to me is impossible especially with you, I'll give you money, whatever you need."

Again the weapon of money, the inner Aisya.

"For you it may be money everything, but for me honesty is everything. I could have done something that would restore my honor, but still I've lied, and I don't want to do that."

"I can't call myself a virgin but I can't" Aisha said.

"You can tell your husband later, that you're not a virgin because of an accident ? come on, don't make it easy."Said Dirga lightly.

"Are my words unclear ? I don't want any lies." Answer Aisya with a little emphasis.

"Then you look for someone who really loves you, so you can accept your situation" said Dirga

I need your accountability, sir ! Should I beg you ? In fact, you don't seem to feel the slightest bit guilty, inner Aisya.

"Master who corrupted me, why would anyone else have to endure it!, My Lord please, marry me after that you may divorce me.. I just need to acknowledge that I've been in someone else's possession. So I won't find it difficult to explain my situation to my husband later. Please marry me even if it's just one day !" please Aisya while dripping her tears that had been blocked earlier.

Aisya, today looks like a beggar of love, to someone not put their heart on her. He only holds a responsibility for himself who has been injured, but whatever the force, fate seems not to help him. The person he expected to cover up his disgrace did not feel his guilt at all. In fact, it is true that a man can sleep with anyone without having any basis in love they only use lust. But Aisya will continue to try to get it even if only temporarily.

Dirga broke her daydream, "i can't possibly do that !!"

"Lantas, why did you do that to me, if you don't want to take responsibility ?"

"At any rate I did it by accident, or maybe you're setting me up ?" Dirga started defending himself.

plaques...

a slap landed on Dirga's cheek, though,

"I'm not that despicable Mr. Dirga Maheswara !"

"How dare you, slap me!" Dirga held her cheek, with a sharp look, she showed her anger.

Aisya fell silent in fear, her body trembling in light of the events of that night. But a knock on the door blew it all away.

tock.tok..

Dirga approached Aisya, "You shut up, don't let anyone else know about it, go to the room and clean yourself up, I don't want to see you as persecuted, show your usual attitude," he said.

"Well our conversation will continue after returning from here, you get ready because Rama will soon pick us up" continued Dirga.

"No! I want to finish it today as well, Master must marry me ! Enough Master approves of it," concluded Aisya.

"You can hold my word, I'll take care of all this, once we get home from here."

"Alright, I hold your words, Sir !"

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Aisya rushed to her room and immediately packed everything, then a waiter took care of Mr. Dirga's things. The 30-minute hose is all neat just take it. Aisya carried a suitcase and so a waiter brought her suitcase to put in the trunk. There were already Mr. Dirga and Mr. Rama who were talking.

"Rama, maybe in the next few days I don't enter the office first, you handle the company," he said.

That was the last thing they heard. They rushed home and during the trip Aisya did not speak a word, it made Rama very confused. However, he brushed aside all his thoughts, what cares, he thought.

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To be continued