I'M NOT A BASTARD

par 91's

Somehow this wound is still so painful that it feels like this leg is very heavy to step.

''Why still standing there''?.Sean who had just returned from buying flowers was surprised to see me just quietly tampa move a little from my original position.

''Buruan Dek, already this afternoon kasian Mama nungguin us''.I finally forced to step my feet closer to the land of the princess navel.

Haven't had time to step closer to my tears have spilled first, it hurts so much when I remember how the treatment of Mama and her man hinga took the life of a baby who had not seen the world.

''Patience Nak''.Papa patted my shoulder gave me strength.I can only be silent with a cry that I still can not contain.

My feet are moving closer and lower right in my daughter's arms I roar and embrace the now-cramatic grave.Who did it, could it be Papa or maybe Papa''?.

I don't know if my heart is still broken even though years have passed.

''Son let's go home is done''.I raised my face to see Papa who is now standing and will leave.

''Let's go home Dek already afternoon, kasian Mama he must wait''.I just nod obediently and move from my seat.

''Mama came home son''.kukecup my daughter's tombstone gently and affectionately.

''Let's go home already afternoon''.finally we step back into the car.

In the car I just kept quiet there was not a word coming out of the lips of the three of us, we were all busy with our thoughts.

''Tu see Mama standing in front of the fence''.Brother Sean pointed at the main house ape.

Sure enough my mother was standing there with a restless face.

''Pa why did we move here''?.tanyaku who was surprised. why did Papa bring us here''?. to a house full of memories of him and Mama Airy.

''This color is actually the house of your late Grandpa from Mama''.

''So''?.

''Yes this is a relic of both parents Mama you do not belong to Papa''.

''But why can Papa and Mama Airy occupy''?.tanyaku who really do not think with the way my family life is very complicated.

''Color cunning Airy''.

''Ham''.I have been lazy to listen to Papa's explanation when it comes to a woman named Airy.

''Darling''?.has not had time for me to get out of the car Mama has stood there with a smile that never escaped his lips.

''Mama Luna misses this woman', I really miss this woman, so why since I was in college never once Papa invited Mama to my place.I only communicate with this woman through the Vidio Call connection.

''Ck''.only Aluna Mama's son here Sean ngak''?.kulik My brother, the corner of my lips was interested when I saw his face.

We are not one mother but Sean treats me like his own biological brother, even this one man has great respect for Mama and Mama also consider Sean like his own biological son.

I really feel like I have a family now, even though sometimes I still feel in the deepest corner of my heart there is a void, what is it''?.

''Uuuhhh dear son Mama here hug''.Mama stretched out her hands to make my brother also enter into the embrace of Mama.

''Papa also wanted to dong''.we ended up hugging like a telepathic cartoon.

Happy laughter echoes among the four of us, suppose my daughter is still there for sure now she is big and happy living with us, and surely me and Alvin are still together.

"Ah why do I think I'm even there"?.my mind is upset with my own thoughts.

"Woelah has come home to her daughter"?.A neighbor who just came out of an alley immediately greeted us until our embrace was released.

"Yes yes nie nyampek new".

"Wow who's the future ghost"?.The tall thin woman pointed at Sean, the man just looked up to make a sound.

"It's not to this that's my first son".Mama answered lightly the neighbor's question which I think is a bit kepo.

"Ow that, handsome tenan, can dong for my virgin son".

"So Brother there is already a virgin child".I immediately elbowed my brother's arm making him turn and whisper back.

"Yes apes".my reply again whispered until our laughter came off tampa could be detained, making the mother who had been babbling since looked at us in wonder.

"Yes We entered first huh"?.they're tired of it"?.

"Yes next time can my daughter play here"?.

"Yes can dong".

"Eh Brother is as serious as he is"?.I again elbowed my brother's arm who is now looking at me annoyed.and made this head-ticking motion, I just chuckled slowly then stepped inside the house followed by Sean from behind.

"I'm sorry mom"?.

"Eh yes please".

"Tunguin Deck".

"That's why you ran away Kak''?u kan mayan to be invited to walk tonight mingu later".godaku that made him stick my head slowly.

"Sick Brother".

"Let her answer" as she stepped into her room accompanied by a stern look of annoyance, I only greeted her with a piety that was able to make her even more upset.

I don't know what this man is looking for"?.Since never once had he been in a relationship with a woman.

My feet stepped into my old room, still the same as usual but why the smell"?.

"Scent this"?.I muttered as the fragrant male Perfume I knew so strongly smelled deep in my room.

"Is it possible that Alvin's sister comes here often"?.My feet step towards the pillow I used to wear first.

I breathed the aroma in.

"That very fragrant".the fragrance that I miss so much can make my eyes closed to feel all the flavors available.

This body I lay on a mattress that was once shabby now turned neat and also my room is now filled with dolls and various wall hangings.

"Who decorated all this" my spirit asked myself

"Darling how do you like the same room"?.I turned my head back when I heard the voice of Mama who stepped into this room.

"Eh Mama, Who decorates Ma"?.tanyaku while reaching for a photo bingai that there is me who is wearing a gray-white school uniform.

When was this photo taken"?.I never even knew if I had ever been photographed like this.

"There's a secret".

"Ih Mama nyebelin".I pretended to be upset, but in fact I was really curious who was decorating all this''?.

"Udah do not need to think about now shower first, Mahrib's comments again".

"Yes Ma"?.I replied while opening my hijap and I put it on the nightstand beside the bed.

"Luna take a shower, Ma"?.

"Yes dear". answered Mama as she stepped out of the room.

"How come there is a face wash guy anyway"?.again I muttered when I saw there is a special facial cleanser for men.

"Sister Alvin".

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

Please support like vote gift and comment.

Sorry there are so many typos.🙏🙏🙏

Tbc.