I Love You What It Is

Chapter 25's

Cklek..

The queen, who had just exited the bathroom, wearing a bathrobe and hair rolled in a towel, looked at Galih just before walking towards the closet to pick up clothes.

Galih who held the wine in a small bottle of the sofa did not take a second to take his eyes off the Queen. Starting from the Queen who went into the dressing room until the Queen came out again and sat on the bed while leaning on her shoulders, no movement of the Queen was missed by the gaze of Galih.

Galih who was used to sleeping by hugging the Queen, immediately approached the Queen and slept beside the Queen while hugging her. The Queen did not refuse, nor was it free.

For a second, Galih continued to puck his body with the Queen's body, making the Queen sigh and take an adult magazine on the nightstand and open it.

"I miss you". Very mellow. There was no murmur of anger at Galih's tone of voice.

"You know, I suffered a lot without you for a few days. And when I got home you weren't home. It makes me very angry, but also misses you a lot"

"Usually you will vent your anger on me" replied the Queen.

"I told you I miss you so much. I've vented my anger on myself"

"You mean?". This time the Queen looked at the face of Galih who was still immersed beside her.

No answer from Galih, the astonished Queen began to examine what Galih was doing to herself. Maybe he cut the bird? Thought Queen. Ah not possible.

The Queen checked Galih's hand, there was nothing in her left hand.

"This why?" the Queen said while examining Galih's right hand and there was a bandage in the pulse area.

"It's nothing, I only mentioned it once" said Galih casually.

"You're crazy! You could die!". Unknowingly the Queen shouted very loudly with an angry face, as if she cared so much for Galih.

"You're worried about me?" tanya Galih, and now sitting with the Queen's fingers.

The queen who was aware of her behavior immediately turned her face in another direction and stabilized her voice.

"Ehem. ti don't"

Cup..

Galih kissed the Queen's cheek at a glance then hugged her tightly.

"Do you love me?"

The Queen's question baffled Galih, she did not know what feelings she had for the Queen. But Galih was always afraid that the Queen would leave him, and always missed the Queen even if only parted for a moment. Although he often teases other women, but never touched let alone to sleep with other women. The Queen is the only woman who is very close to her heart after the departure of her parents.

"Look at me, do you love me?" The queen spoke again because she felt there was no answer from Galih.

"I don't know" replied Galih innocently.

Oh, my God, why did he turn out so handsome after a week without seeing you. Inner Queen.

For a moment the Queen was stunned by Galih's current look and look at her, just as the Queen held onto her shoulder and asked her to look into the Queen's eyes.

"I.. When I'm with you, I'm satisfied"

"Aish isn't that. I mean, how do you feel?"

"I'm happy, comfortable and don't want to be away from you. You remember I always take you wherever I go if you have no business. It's because I'll miss you and be lonely if I'm not with you. Even though I'm in a crowd I always feel lonely if I'm not with you. Is that what you call love?"

Deg.

It seemed that just this time a Galih spoke so sincerely, The Queen saw sincerity in her eyes. Galih's very innocent speech made the Queen feel that if Galih did love her, she just couldn't treat a woman well. He also could not control his emotions properly.

"I don't think it's love. I consider it a habit, because it's a habit I feel dependent on you"

Jamb...

The statement made the Queen feel dropped suddenly when she was flown into space. Galih's words have a point, too. Maybe just a habit. But it hurts, those words hurt for the Queen. I don't know why, but he doesn't like to hear the last Galih.

"Are you going to leave me when you find your love?"

"Of course"

Sreet...

What feeling is this. Why is it so painful just because of the word 'of course'.. Am I jealous? or is this called a broken heart?

"But I need to understand first, what love is" Galih said.

"After what you've been doing to me all this time, you're still leaving me? You don't intend to marry me?"

Aishh question what kind of queen this is. Why are you talking about marriage.

The Queen was looking forward anxiously to hear Galih's reply, subconsciously the Queen tightened her grip on Galih's shoulder until it almost squeezed.

Galih who noticed the change in the look of the Queen's face only gave a smile with a slight glance at the Queen's arm that tightly grasped her shoulder.

With a slight chuckle, Galih replied "Then what should I do, you think I will marry you? Of course I'll just marry my love"

The Queen took off her grip on Galih's shoulder and unconsciously her tears welled up and dripped down her cheeks instantly hearing Galih's reply so bluntly.

Is that how low I am in your eyes? Until you just think of me as a pseudo-shadow. Before finding the light.

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tbc.