I Hold Asa And Love In Prayer

Self-Esteem

Nuril stood pecking with a nanar gaze. Look at the items that are being dropped from the pick up that just stopped in front of the house. A two-door refrigerator, electric stove, washing machine and various kitchen utensils that were not suitable for him were in his small house.

Not yet he can master himself come another pick up. Seen a set of sofas and spring beds are on top of the pick up. A taste that approached the man's chest. Feeling so small and unappreciated. There was a sense of excitement that seemed to want to explode within him. But he was still trying to hold back the anger that was about to erupt.

The man let his mother-in-law make laying arrangements for the items she was carrying. He saw the wife who was fixated by occasionally staring at him. Nuril sighed deeply, his ego hurt. His pride as a man is being dropped in the abyss.

The man walked out, out the back door. He chose to sit on the edge of the fish pond while sowing fish feed even though his mind was somehow floating around.

While Risda who realized her husband left, walked over to the mother who was arranging the laying of the sofa in the living room.

'' Ma'am, '' said Risda as she grabbed her mother's hand.

'' Why son?, '' asked the mother while looking at her daughter.

'' Can talk for a while, Risda continued staring at mother, for a moment they looked at each other before she finally agreed. Now the son and mother are sitting in Risda's room. Mother sat on the bed, while Risda was rested with her head in the lap of the mother.

'' Sorry mom, why suddenly buy so much furniture?, Why don't you ask Risda first?, asked Risda gently, she didn't want to offend the mother. But she also felt that what her mother did had dropped her husband's pride.

'' I can't bear to see you sleeping on a hard mattress like this, '' said the mother while her hand was kneeling the mattress which is harder than the spring bed that I just bought. But actually the mattress is still very worthy to be occupied.

'' Not to mention you who have to wash manually, your hands will be damaged, continued Mother while reaching for her daughter's hand and gently rubbing.

'' Mother raised you without any flaws. But after getting married, your life looks apprehensive. Your husband has not been able to meet your needs well. I can't have you living in a house this small without any facilities. Even the fridge alone does not exist, continued the mother, Risda does not deny if indeed the furniture in his house is far from luxurious. But for him it was enough.

'' Sorry before mom, but I shouldn't have bought this without saying anything to Risda ma'am. It could be that Risda's husband disagrees with all of this Risda lamented. His heart was made to see the change in the face of the husband.

'' Disagree?, what can he do ?. For months you were married, but in fact your life is like this, said the mother who quite touched the feeling. Risda looked at the mother who looked hardened her face water. The woman gently crept the fingers of the mother.

''Ma'am, Risda has enough with what Risda's husband has. Bang Nuril has provided Risda more than enough. Please ma'am, Risda please respect Risda's husband. Mother seemed to take a long breath. Then gently rub the head of her child covered with a veil.

'' I'm sorry son, I'm too impulsive without thinking. I just don't feel the heart to see you who are used to living with ease. But here you have to work hard for everything, said the mother.

The woman who had begun to show signs of aging was looking at the child's pity.

'' I'm sorry, son, it turns out that mom has misjudged you, it turns out you are more mature than I thought. But the things you bought, please accept. Let's just say it's a wedding gift from mom. Forgive mom son, said Mom with a sincere smile then hugged her daughter affectionately.

'' Forgive Risda too ma'am, if there are words that Risda offends mother, said softly Risda who replied to her mother's head.

'' No '', you are not wrong, '' said the mother while kissing the top of the child's head.

Until everything is done, Nuril has not returned home. The man was still pensive at the edge of the pool. Until a pat on the man's shoulder made him realize from his daydream.

'' Bang ''Bang, '' his wife's soft voice made the man look up at the wife's sweet smiling face to him.

'' Deck ,''

'' I want to say goodbye, I don't want to see my mother first?, '' asked Risda in such a soft tone. Nuril rose from his seat, embracing his wife's shoulders while speaking.

'' Let's meet mom .''

Risda smiled, even though she knew there was disappointment tucked into the heart of the man's husband still being nice. Nuril met her mother-in-law who was sitting on the living room sofa. The woman stood up when she saw the arrival of the son-in-law.

'' Ril, please do not be offended by all the items you give me. It's nothing, it's just a little gift from Mom and Dad for your wedding. I believe you are a responsible man and able to meet the needs of your child. So please accept this mother's gift, don't make it a burden for you. I'm sorry if I don't talk to you guys about this, '' said the gentle mother. Nuril tried to smile despite the obvious forced smile on her lips.

'' Thank you ma'am, that's all that said from the man's lips.

'' Yes, it's noon mom said, '' continued mother while reaching for the bag and attach the rope on the shoulder.

'' Mother did not eat here first?,'' asked Nuril who felt she had not entertained the mother. The woman gently held the shoulder of the son-in-law.

'' Thank you son, Daddy came home this afternoon. Pity that I won't have any lunch friends. You guys go to the house often, said the mother while looking at Nuril who slightly lowered her head. As a form of respect for older people.

'' Inshallah ma'am, if there is free time we come, '' Nuril replied.

Mom said goodbye to go home with the princess and her daughter-in-law to the terrace of the house. A couple saw the departure of the mother who used the car with the family's private driver. Nuril was still embracing his wife's shoulder until the car disappeared at the intersection. Nuril lowered her hand and went in silence. Making Risda feel guilty about her husband.