I Hold Asa And Love In Prayer
About the Heart
Not yet until the tutoring place, Harsa stopped his car at a coffee shop. Risda stared question markingly at the man sitting quietly beside her.
'' Kok here?,'' asked Risda with a sharp look. Harsa turned her head for a moment and pushed the car door.
'' Temenin I had a good coffee,'' Harsa said as he got out of the car. Risda gulped down a rough spit. He felt like he was betraying his husband. Risda remained in the car until Harsa opened the door for her.
'' But Sa, '' said Risda disconnected as Harsa lowered her head with a face that was quite close to her. Risda reflexes rewind her body.
'' Please just a moment, there are those who want me to talk to you, Harsa said with a pleading gaze. Risda inhaled a deep breath then nodded her head.
Harsa re-enforced her body, waiting for Risda to get out of the car. Risda inhaled a deep breath, calming her worried heart.
'' Bismil was bornrahmanirrahim, '' said Risda hoped that everything would be fine. He does not want any slander to happen with him and Harsa. The woman got out of the car, following the steps of Harsa entering a coffee shop that is still quite quiet.
Harsa chose to sit near the entrance. Risda sat down in front of the angry-looking man. Nothing was said of the lips of the two, until a servant came. Harsa ordered coffee and a cup of warm chocolate for Risda. Add brownies and cheese cake as a drinking buddy.
Harsa took a cup of coffee, then drank it. Risda is still confused, she is not used to go alone with a man who is not her mahram, and now she is with a man who has nothing to do with her while she does not ask permission from the husband. Guilt lingered in the woman's heart.
Harsa smiled looking at Risda's tense face.
'' We are in the public place of Ris, I will also say nothing to you, Harsa said with a slanted smile at the corner of her lips.
'' But we shouldn't go both gini Sa, '' said Risda who felt unsettled. Harsa leaned her back on the back of the chair, with a gaze fixed on the agitated-looking Risda.
'' You are afraid of being discovered by your husband?, '' asked Harsa who is now leaning her body with a gaze still fixed on Risda.
'' You love your husband ?,'' continued Harsa who greeted Risda's small laughter.
'' What question is that?, I am married to Bang Nuril, if you ask love. Well, I love her, but apart from love itself, this marriage is a lifelong commitment that I've agreed with her. I don't know, the direction of the conversation you want to start, but I reiterate I am the wife of a man I love and love me, '' Risda said making Harsa smile bitterly.
'' It turns out that you are quite sensitive with my intention,'' Harsa's sentence paused, the man sighed.
'' Alu know, this will sound presumptuous and brazen. But I just want to say what's in my heart. I don't have any intention, I just don't want to mengeselasin because it never revealed to you,''' looks Harsa again sighed, giving the air supply into his lungs that feel tight.
Risda was still listening, though he could not suppress the rumbling in his chest.
'' I like you, ''' Finally the word said with a choked tone. Risda tried to calm down, remaining in silence. Harsa who had not dared to look at the face of the woman in front of him, now ventured to look at that face, when he did not get any response from Risda.
''You are angry?,'' asked Harsa when she found a flat face before her. Risda just shook her head. The woman raised the cup containing her drink. Slowly the woman took a sip of a drink that now only felt warm on her tongue.
'' As you said from the beginning, you only want to reveal what is in your heart, and you already know that it will not change anything ?,'' said Risda calmly after returning the cup on the table. Harsa smiled then nodded.
''I just try to be a good listener, '' said Risda who then again grabbed the cup and drank the contents.
'' We can still be friends, right?, asked Harsa. Risda took a deep breath in exhaling slowly. Then the woman nodded her head.
'' As long as we can limit each other's friendship between men and women, '' said Risda, he knows that it can not be justified the closeness of men and women even in friendship. But it is also impossible that he told Harsa to stay away from him. He's not that hard to say. Enough he can carry himself and limit himself to friends.
'' Thank you, Harsa said, there was relief in the man's heart, after he convinced himself to simply express the feelings he had long been craving for Risda. At first he wanted to express that feeling without having to say his feelings. But there is a part of his heart that seems to tell him to express that feeling, although it will not change anything, but there is a heart that feels relieved.
