I Found Love With You

75. Goodbye

“You watched over her aunt Sadiyah's house in Bandung. Don't let go again. Follow wherever Bi Ita

and Mang Awan left. Add your team number so it does not come off again.”

“Ready, Boss.”

“Do not disappoint me again.”

“Good, Boss.”

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It has been a month since Faiq oversaw Rostita's home but has not seen encouraging results.

For one month Faiq's team oversaw the movements of Rostita and Darmawan but never once did there have been any clues to Sadiyah's whereabouts.

“How, Fai? Already have new leads?”

“No Boss yet. During this month, Miss Rostita and Mr. Darmawan never once went to see Madam Sadiyah. Looks like Madame Sadiyah found out that the Boss will be looking for her whereabouts by watching her uncle and aunt move.”

“Forward only. Don't let your guard down.”

“Ready, Boss.”

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Natasha clamors outside Kagendra's room asking Kagendra to come out. Rudy

arresting Natasha for not entering Kagendra's room.

“Lepasin motherfucker! Who you dare to hold me here.” Natasha thrashed around asking Rudi to let go of her grip.

“You can't enter the room. Mr. Kagendra has ordered us all not to let you meet him.”

“I have to meet with Kagendra. I need to talk to him. Release me!” Natasha still thrashed trying to escape from the clutches of Rudi's hands, her feet tried to step on Rudi's feet but did not succeed.

“Cannot. You better get out of here. Mr. Kagendra is not to be disturbed.” Rudi further tightened the grip of his hand.

Kagendra opened the door to his room.

“Let him in, Rud.”

Reluctantly Rudi let go of his check.

“Do you want to meet me?” kagendra asked coldly without looking towards his interlocutor.

“Why don't you want to see me? It's been over a month that you've been avoiding me. What's my fault?”

“You ask what is your fault? You don't realize what you've done? You have ruined my marriage and made my wife leave and now you are asking what is your fault?” snapped Kagendra annoyed.

“It's not my fault that your wife left you. Even the passing of your wife made me very happy. That's what you want, what we both want. Me and you want your wife to leave so we can be together without having to bother thinking about our love barrier.”

“You're crazy. I am so sorry to have known and loved you. Now, get you out of my sight and never look for me again. Our relationship is quite up here. I will never want to be in touch with a woman like you.”

“Sadarlah Kagendra's. I am the woman you love. I am yours and you are mine.” Natasha still believes that Kagendra still loves her.

“You should have been aware. From the beginning, our relationship was wrong. I was wrong because I wanted to connect with a woman who had left me for her ego. I was wrong for having a false love with you while I already had a wife. I am a fool for being beguiled by persuading you.”

"No.no. I'm not wrong. We're both not wrong. It was the wrong woman. The woman who took you from me."

Kagendra shook his head at Natasha's words. Instead of admitting guilt instead accuses Sadiyah as a female usurper. Kagendra already had absolutely no taste whatsoever towards Natasha. Neither does love hate. He just doesn't want to be in touch anymore and meets Natasha again.

“Goodbye, Sha. I hope we will never see each other again. Even if we are forced to meet because of our work, let's just say we have never known before.”

“I don't want to. I don't want to part from you.” Natasha tried to hug Kagendra, but was unsuccessful because Kagendra avoided her.

“If you leave me, I will die. I'd rather die if I can't be with you.” threatened Natasha with tears.

“Don't be like this, Sha. If I had to be with you, maybe I would die.” Kagendra no longer knows how to deal with Natasha.

“No....no...” Natasha shouted hysterically. He looked for something on Kagendra's desk and found a cutter.

“Sha, you don't get caught.”

“You see...I will die in front of you.” Natasha brought the knife to her wrist.

“Rud....” cried Kagendra calling Rudi.

“Shoppers as all of you.” shouted Natasha.

Rudi swiftly blocked Natasha's hand holding the cutter. Natasha rebelled and managed to break away. He tried to slash his wrist again with the cutter he still held. Kagendra ran over to Natasha to grab the cutter. The two of them fought each other over cutter.

“Aww....” Kagendra's arm was hit by a sabetan cutter held by Natasha.

Natasha is shocked to see the blood seeping on Kagendra's white cameja.

“Darling, I'm sorry. I was not accidentally.” Natasha is approaching Kagendra.

Kagendra codes Rudi with his eyes and Rudi captures the code sent by Kagendra. Rudi quickly approached Natasha and grabbed the cutter she was holding.

Not yet Natasha reacted, Rudi had managed to snatch the cutter from his hands and two guards were ready, neighing Natasha to be unable to move anymore.

Natasha tried to escape the grip of two high security guards.

“Let go of me fucking. Don't touch me with your dirty hands.” Natasha was screaming hysterically.

Not long after, a doctor and nurse contacted by Rudi came in a hurry to enter Kagendra's room. The doctor injects a sedative on Natasha and they take Natasha to the hospital for treatment.

Two days later, Kagendra visits Natasha at the hospital. Kagendra enters Natasha's nursery and sees her sitting leaning back.

Kagendra approached and sat down on the bedside.

“How are you, Sha?”

Natasha's eyes were blank towards the front, she did not react to Kagendra's question.

Kagendra clasped Natasha's left hand.

“I'm sorry, Sha. I'm guilty of making you like this. If only from the beginning we did not establish another love that has been severed maybe you will not suffer as much as now.”

Natasha remained silent as if she had not heard what Kagendra had said.

“Sha, I used to love you so much that I believed that you were the only woman who would inhabit my heart forever. But he comes when my heart hurts too much from missing you. He came to offer genuine love. She's Sadiyah, my wife. Now, he's the only owner of my heart. I love him so much, Sha. It felt like my life didn't mean that he wasn't by my side. I feel like I just want to die if he's never gonna be in my life again.”

Natasha put away Kagendra's hand that was holding her hand.

“I'm really sorry about you, Sha. I am guilty of hurting you. Ii'm sorry. I'll do’a for your happiness. I'm sure you'll find a new love that will make your life happy.”

Natasha lay on Kagendra's back. Tears did not stop dripping from her eyes.

“Goodbye, Sha. May you be happy.”

After bidding farewell, Kagendra came out of Natasha's treatment room feeling that she herself could not translate. There is pity and pity for Natasha's condition, but Kagendra is very confident that she cannot go back to Natasha for whatever reason.

The next day, Natasha's parents come to Indonesia and take Natasha to live with them abroad.

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