I Found Love With You

35. Third Night

At nine o'clock, Sadiyah and Kagendra were ready in their respective positions to rush to sleep. Kagendra turned off the headlights and replaced them with sleeping lights. Before turning off his nightlight too, Kagendra cleared his throat, either to clear his choked throat or to cover up his nervousness.

“Sadiyah...” Kagendra called Sadiyah's name.

“Iya, A.” said Sadiyah who returned to a sitting position after she had been in a lying position.

“Ehm...” Kagendra is back.

Sadiyah was silent waiting for Kagendra to make his point.

“You're sleepy?” ask Kagendra.

“But.” Sadiyah gave a short answer.

They both returned without a sound.

After a moment of silence, Kagendra again cleared his throat.

“Sadiyah...Is there any signs yet?” ask Kagendra doubtfully.

“What signs A?” Sadiyah looked at Kagendra's face in wonder.

Kagendra rubbed his nape roughly the sign he was nervous.

“Ya signs....you know what it means?”

“I don't understand the signs that Aa said.”

“Ehm, sign that you are pregnant.” Kagendra said quickly.

“Eh…..Oh” Sadiyah was surprised to hear Kagendra's words.

“You've checked yet?” ask Kagendra again.

After pondering for a while, Sadiyah immediately regained her shock.

“But A. I'm sure, uh I'm sure I'm not pregnant yet. Last morning, I just finished cleaning.” replied Sadiyah.

“What does it have to do you clean with pregnant?” ask Kagendra confused.

“I mean clean-up it just cleared menstruation. I took a big shower this morning after I finished my menstrual period. So it can be ascertained that I am not pregnant.” explained Sadiyah replied to Kagendra confusion.

“Ohhhh...” Kagendra murmured.

The atmosphere of silence was again felt because of the awkwardness they both felt after Kagendra discussed the problem of pregnancy.

“Why aren't you pregnant? Though we have done it several times.” asked Kagendra.

“How to get pregnant if in the process only use coercion and also forget the most important thing, which is berdo’a before the fertilization process. Fortunately, it does not become pregnant, if you become pregnant, it can be dangerous. Later his son will not be sholeh and sholelah because his parents did not’a first time the manufacturing process.” dumel Sadiyah in his heart.

“Do you remember me in your heart?” accuse Kagendra.

“Eh, what the hell? Don't play dong.” Sadiyah protest was shocked because her heart could be heard by Kagendra who actually could not her husband could hear what was said in his heart. Maybe it was just a coincidence.

“Not accusing, I'm just guessing. You may have cursed in your heart. Ngatain ugly-ugly about me.” said Kagendra has begun to relax and even tease his wife.

“Huh...” Sadiyah was singing her lips a sign of annoyance.

“So you said what?” cecar Kagendra's.

“Makanya if you want soan must do’a first. Let her get pregnant and later her child becomes a sholeh and sholeh child.” Sadiyah revealed what was on her mind.

“Astaghfirulloh…. Aa don't know? So Aa doesn't hapal do’ her? Eh let alone poultice, must do’a before the process alone Aa does not know. How would I be my imam if something like this Aa does not know.” Sadiyah said.

“Do not insinuate me. Your sin if his hobby insinuates the husband continues. I don't not know if I have to’a first. It's just that I have not yet memorized do’anya” said Kagendra ketus.

“Who has a hobby of insinuating a husband?” sadiyah Protest.

Kagendra did not heed Sadiyah's protest, he was busy looking for do’a before doing husband and wife relations from search sites on the internet. After getting do’anya, Kagendra immediately memorized it. Luckily Kagendra's intelligent brain is very instrumental in this so he is able to memorize do’ it in a short time.

“I have already memorized do’anya.” cetus Kagendra suddenly.

“Alhamdulillah deh if it has been memorized.” said Sadiyah while re-positioning her body to get ready for sleep.

“Do not sleep first!”

“You what else is A? I've been sleepy. From now on, keep talking. Tomorrow I have to cook, clean up also make preparations for moving house.” Sadiyah protest was upset because Kagendra forbade her to go to bed immediately.

“I want to ask for my rights tonight” said Kagendra firmly.

“Eh....” sounded a tone of anxiety and fear in Sadiyah's voice.

“Sorry...” finally one sacred word came out of Kagendra's mouth. Kagendra, who rarely says sorry, has defeated his ego. An apology that he really wanted to say to Sadiyah was finally spoken also tonight.

“Sorry why?” ask Sadiyah in wonder.

“Sorry that two nights, I forced my will on you. Sorry if I hurt you.” said Kagendra sincerely.

Sadiyah remained silent.

“Tonight I will not force you. I'll ask permission first. I want you to sincerely do it.” hope Kagendra.

Sadiyah was still speechless, unable to take out a word.

“If you don't want to I won't force. From now on I promise that I will never force again if you are not willing.” Kagendra expressed regret for the abusive behavior he had given Sadiyah.

Sadiyah was still silent, thinking and wondering if Kagendra was sincere and honest. He looked at Kagendra's face and sought sincerity from Kagendra's eyes. Sadiyah saw that this time Kagendra was really sincere with her and she could feel that Kagendra was indeed regretting the abusive deeds done before.

“Bby?” kagendra Pinta.

Sadiyah nodded her head faintly.

Kagendra did not see the movement of Sadiyah's head and asked again.

“Can not?” ask Kagendra a little impatient and anxious if tonight Sadiyah will reject him.

“Ya.” replied Sadiyah lirih who can still be heard by Kagendra.

Kagendra was grateful and cheered in his heart. Finally tonight he will get his due without any element of coercion.

Starting by reading the do’a that had been memorized earlier, Kagendra began to kiss Sadiyah's face. His hands began to guerrilla unbuttoning Sadiyah's pajamas.

“Tomorrow do not wear pajamas that many buttons like this. Just use a negligee that is easy to open.” pinta Kagendra.

Sadiyah's face was getting red. Luckily, only the sleeping lights were lit so that her already reddened face like a boiled crab was not clearly visible to her husband.

Finally, this evening Sadiyah was able to enjoy what she should have enjoyed in the previous nights. They satisfied each other many times until dawn.

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