Hiya!! Foot

Episode 31

I try to forget the Feet, try hard, until I can't forget it, the more I try, the stronger the Feet in my mind.

The passage of time, over time so accustomed without it, maybe I just occasionally still monitor through his social media. The fact as a lover like me, yes, that's all I can do.

The exam is coming up soon, I am trying hard to learn. I would love to get the best results. In reality, my exam results were mediocre but I was very happy. There is a different sensation, I am very happy to get such value.

After the exam, I searched for a lecture place, at that time I had participated in SNMPTN but was less fortunate, the first time it was filtered had escaped, but when filtered again, I did not escape. It's ok, no problem, even the rada nyesek sihh.

I was immediately stressed to think of college, especially I was not used to looking for knowledge in a distant place, just imagine, where my Junior High School is very close from home, slipped also nyampe, and so on, My High School can also be reached on foot. I never went to school far away, always looking for the nearest one from home because my mother was always panicking, always thinking if her son went to school in a distant place.

On that day, I was playing with my friends, I wanted to register STAN, hopefully graduate. Register together, leave together, test together, all done together, until finally everything together is not accepted into STAN, funny kann.

Then after that my friend said that he wanted to study at one of the campuses that were far away to me. After my friend and I visited the college, Iren and I finally settled into the college, the others searched. Iren and I also chose the same faculty although different majors.

Pio's brother also dived here, and incidentally, Kaki once said that he wanted to study here. Then I can meet him here dong. That was also my reason for entering this campus, in order to meet Kaki again.

After 2 semesters, I did not meet Kaki. I was surprised, even though it was not a building, it must have at least seen his face. This is what I never saw at all. Finally I monitor his social media again, btw Kaki has rarely played Pasbue, he often play Tuit. I always get news about Legs through Tuit. It's so good because there's a Tuit, I can spy on people.

I read one by one the news about him, until I found out that Kaki did not go to college at my place. He has lied. I who have already studied here must undergo until the end.

I accepted all that, I also kept trying to open my heart, but not because the Feet caused my heart to close even though he was also the reason for my closing heart, the main reason I closed my heart was because I wanted to keep my heart from a relationship without status, a relationship that was not legally known. After all, playing heart is not easy, must be good at keeping, especially in an age like this.

I'm very cold with men, but I'm still normal, I just want to keep my distance from him. In college, I was only close to a few people and all women, I was a model of such a person, who was friends with few people but could last for thousands of years. Lebay wkwk, but really, I'm the loyal type.

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I hurried to the front of the mosque so that he could not meet me among the sea of people. When I ran away, his friend told Pio that if anyone saw him, the proof was that his friend Brother Pio pointed at me when I wanted to escape.

I live the campus world with a heavy heart, many things that stress me and others, let alone my shadow when I am about to enter the world of college, I see college people must be adults. The reality is not at all, his name is also a boy who just graduated from High School.

During my time in High School and Junior High School, I rarely got sick until my permission not to go to school, anyway my absence was always present, no permission, sick, alpa. There never was. When my Junior High friends were flooded, I always went to school. My area has never been flooded, only access to the streets must be flooded, so it can not go anywhere, my house happens to be very close to Junior High School, so I am always present, so I am always present, just like when I was in High School.

While in college, the beginning of college I was still rarely sick, but over time, I often got sick, until every semester I was always sick, but, and doctors always say I'm a typhoid or a DHF symptom.

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At this time, I am very happy to reminisce, especially when looking at old-time chats. At that time I saw my conversation with Feet, and when I read it, I was very sick, because in the message was very showing my stupidity, I was very chasing him, very visible. I became self-conscious, if in fact he did not like me for a long time. I accept all this reality.

Then when I saw another chat, I laughed back and forth when I read my chatan with my best friend. Very amusing. Besides that I also read my chatan with brother Pio. I read chatan from the beginning as I read other chats.

I just understood why he ended the conversation, or didn't answer the last chat I sent. I know he no longer sends messages to women, because he is also keeping his distance from women, until finally he has the right woman, so he can chat with her.

When entering the fasting month, I saw his story on social media, the point is he was happy because he could be trusted by people in his home environment to become a priest. I see he's very happy. But for some reason, I said pretentious or something. Until finally, when I saw her chat again, I just understood why she was so happy about it, it was her dream all along, and it had already materialized. That's grand. Congratulations, brother.

I also think about it, think about my ideals, others have come forward to make themselves a shining star, but why am I still the same as before. No light, no stars. Everything was crashing, quiet, silent, and dark.