Half The Missing Wings

9. I secretly love you

When Tanya was about to go to campus, she got a message from the young man of her dreams, Satria, this girl was happy and upset with the message sent by her best friend.

Tanya opened her phone. “ Tan, will you meet me today? I want to tell you something. “ Fill in the message.

Tanya is still in doubt with the message sent by Satria, she has not yet avenged the message from the young servant, she is still in a dilemma if she remembers the love that once existed in her heart, indeed, even now Tanya still keeps her love, but unlike the old days that are too prominent, now she is able to hold it.

He ignored the message, then went to the campus with his mind fixed on the contents of the message Satria sent, while there Satria, was waiting for a reply from Tanya to restless.

“Tan, why didn't you reply to my message? Come on dong reply! I just want to be honest with my feelings, I want to take you ta'aruf. “ He said in his heart.

It turns out that since he was in High School Satria had started to love Tanya, when Tanya had been wearing a hijab, at that time love also began to grow in the heart of this young man. Love cannot be determined, sometimes faster than expected, sometimes slow, that is how love.

This hijab girl sat in the cafeteria alone, she kept looking at the message Satria sent, she wanted to reply, but confused how to answer, in the end Retno came, then Retno took Tanya's mobile phone, and then Retno took Tanya, he read the message and replied to it.

“Iya I want to see you, but where? “ Stools Retno.

“Retno!! why did you order the message? “ Tanya is nervous even upset.

“Sorry abisnya you long time anyway, but just answer yes, what is difficult to know! “

Inevitably Tanya had to meet Satria, because Satria had already answered her message again.

“At last you replied to my message as well." she said inwardly.

"We met at the usual place. “ Replies from Satria.

Satria is happy, finally the message is answered too, although it is not really Tanya who replies, Tanya arrived at the usual place they met.

“Assalamu’alaikum, sorry yes Satria I'm late. “ He said hello, to Satria who was sitting.

“Wa'alaikumsalam, yes it's okay, I also just got to kok. “

Both of them began to get nervous, Satria worried if his invitation was rejected Tanya, but with the courage of Satria he, directly to the core of his intention.

“Tan, since three years ago, since you wore the hijab, since then my heart has been amazed at you. “

“What does Satria mean? I don't understand!“ Tanya still did not understand what Satria meant.

“I mean! why did I ask you to meet? because I want to say, Tanya.. will you run ta'aruf with me?" Daringly Satria said it.

“Ta'aruf! Are you sure of all your intentions? “ Question.

“God willing, I believe in my words, I dare to take responsibility with all my words, if you please, then I will come directly to your house to ask you to your parents and to God. “ He said firmly.

“But, we're still in college together, we still haven't graduated, to be honest for now I'm not ready for you to apply . “ Tanya is still in doubt.

“If you are still in doubt, with my good intentions, you can still think again, please istikharah, which is best for you. “

Satria was ready, whatever decision Tanya gave, she would accept it with sincerity, because she could not force Tanya to accept the invitation.

Satria leaves without any answer, but Satria only gets honesty about her feelings from Tanya, when the girl runs out of the cafe, then stops her steps.

“Satria wait!! “call him.

He looked and turned his body, listening to everything the hijab girl said.

“Sat, I want to be honest about something. “ They both stand in front of the cafe, incidentally the cafe is close to the park.

“What do you want to be honest about? “ Ask Satria.

“I want to be honest about my feelings. “ Answer Ask.

“Have you ever had the same feeling I had Tan? “

“Iya Sat, I did love you, when we were in High School, even now I still love you, but I am still not sure, with the feelings I have today, she said, am I really in love with you? Or just like it! I still don't know Sat, I ever wanted you to be my priest, I always wished you could love me. “ As Tanya said this, she kept bowing her face.

“And now that God has answered your prayer, I can love you because of God Tan, for the most painful thing in love, when we are unable to express love itself. “ Said Satria while approaching Tanya with a distance that is not too close, with a gaze full of distance.

“Iya Sat, I know God has granted it all, but now my feelings are changing, sometimes I think of you, sometimes I forget you too, if my feelings are like that I fear that I will break your heart, and I do not want anyone to get hurt between us. “

Satria remains determined to persevere with her love for Tanya, she is sure that someday the love will return to Tanya's heart.

“Whatever happens later, I'm ready Tan, even though you broke my heart, it's not your fault, but it's my fault that I love you too much, until I've made my God jealous. “

Satria immediately left, Tanya was still standing until the sky was cloudy, unknowingly the rain fell and Tanya was still thinking about her words earlier, even though the rain was all soaked .

“Sat, please forgive me, I don't want to if someday I will make you hurt, with my changing feelings, he said, if that happens I will never be able to forgive myself for hurting a good person like you. “ While walking under heavy rain.

The red luxury car stopped right near Tanya, and the driver came down with an umbrella, and he was a young man named Bara.

“You do not need to cry in the rain, even though the rain can hide your tears, but not with God, God will still know your tears, maybe you can fool the world, he said, with all your feelings, but not with the one who created you. “

Then Tanya looked at the young man who had already protected her from the rain, she was very surprised to see him, she felt strange since when this young man could become someone wise.

“Bara, you are doing here, and since when have you become wise like this. “

“Since I have known God who has created angels like you. “Teach.

“Already, just lower the umbrella. “ Tanya feel uncomfortable.

“Alright, I'll get off this umbrella, after you get in the car. “ Bara invites Tanya to go home together.

“Sorry Bar, I can't go home together. “ She doesn't want to be in one car alone with a man.

“Why? You're afraid we're both alone, calm me in the car there's still someone, if indeed you don't believe please just check. “

After Tanya, looking into the car, it turns out that Bara went not alone, she went with Bi Inah Bara's maid, finally, Tanya wanted to go home with Bara, because there was Bi Inah. While in the car, Bi Inah told me about Bara.

“Non, whose name is it? “ Bi Inah asks name Tanya.

Suddenly Bi Inah, immediately said something to Tanya, as if she knew Tanya a long time ago, when she had just met.

“It turns out that his name is Non Tanya, which Mr. Bara often tells, said Mr. Bara there is a beautiful girl hijab in his campus, she is a sweet girl, well, bebel is also fierce, keep saying Mr Bara he's very me...! “

Bara cut off Bi Inah's talk which continued to roil.

“Auntie, stop it, pity my friend, he must be feeling angry. “ He said with reason, he was afraid his secret would be exposed.

“It's okay Bi, go ahead, what did Aunt say? me.. That means! “

Bara was getting more agitated, fortunately the Tanya House was already ahead, so she could stop him.

“Tan, just let us get to your house. “

Tanya arrived at home, she was already wet, she was very grateful to Bara who had delivered her home. Mr. Adam who saw his daughter wet, immediately made warm water and gave a towel.

“Yaampun.. Where have you been? Until the rain of kayak gini, why don't you just ask to pick me up with Dad? “

“Sorry Well, just asked there need a little, then Ask to test. “Javabnya.

“Already, now you drink the warm water, before Mother scolds you. “

Bu Kinan will always be angry if his son is rained, he does not want his daughter to be sick because of the cold, since childhood Tanya never play rain water, because if only a little he was exposed to rain water, because, instantly the flu keeps getting sick, this girl can't take too long with cold water.

Still Mother knows, Mother hunted out of the room, Father was right I was immediately angry Mother, while Father even laughed at me.

“YaAllah Ask, why are you wet like this? Mother has told you, if it rains you have to immediately find a place to shade, try to see now you are cold. “

“Iya Bun, sorry, earlier I could not find a shady place all open, I was forced to rain, anyways fun kok Bun raining and proof Tanya is okay! “ Said her girl with spoiled.

Mr. Adam, smiling and eating peanuts when his daughter was angry, said.

“Truly Bun, just get angry Ask us now do not comply. “

“Dad, don't stove-stove Mother dong! I'm the same Tanya. “ He was upset, and finally Tanya prank his father back by hugging him in a wet shirt.

“Tanya!! dad's clothes are wet. “

“Biarin, there Bun stay Daddy who was angry Dad's clothes were also wet in addition Dad had mocked me, so double Bun was angry.In fact we and the family were mocking each other, to laugh non-stop, by pretending to act.

“Already Bun, stop my stomach hurts from laughing, and my clothes from wet to dry again. “

“AstagfiraAllah, Mother until you forget that you abis keujalanan, yaudah sanah quickly change clothes and keep resting. “ Mother told Tanya to rest.

“Everything is clean, Maghrib prayer and isya has been carried out, just sleep deh.”Say Ask.

Tanya was still confused about Satria's invitation, should she accept it? Or even reject it, this girl is in a dilemma if she refuses, meaning she herself has already

lying to her feelings, while the love was still there for Satria, if she accepted it, she was afraid that it might one day hurt her tender heart.

One way out of the problem of love Tanya and Satria, only God has it, Tanya follows the advice given by Satria, to pray istikharah in the middle of the night.

“Yes Allah, you are the owner of my heart and heart, you are the one who created us, indeed I ask for your guidance from my every problem, eternal love only in your possession Yarrob, I beg you, I beg you, give me a partner who will never diminish my love for you, and give a partner who is able to please us, if indeed he is my soul mate then bring me closer, please, but if he is not my soul mate then take me away from him, and turn him away from me. Aamiin.“

After praying Istikharah Tanya went back to sleep, then dreamed of a young man wearing white clothes, his face radiant, his posture like a person Tanya knows, namely Satria. Could this be a hint from God for both of them!

Tanya wakes up very early, then tells about her dream to Bu Kinan, and about Satria's invitation to her, Bu Kinan even gives advice, even he agrees, because Bu Kinan already knows Satria how!

“Son, Mother will not force you to accept it, but Mother is sure if it is a guide from God, Satria is a good child, polite, her morals are also good. “ Say.

“But, Bun, I'm still not ready to apply. “

“Nak, Satriakan ngajakin you ta'aruf first, not to propose yet, if you have just followed the storyline, the problem in the future let God regulate. “ Her words make Tanya calm.

Tanya, told Satria to come to her house, if indeed she really seriously wanted to invite ta'aruf, then she should talk about it directly to her parents. Mr. Adam had not agreed, because they were still students, still students, but Satria was able to melt the heart of his father Tanya.

This afternoon after returning home from campus, Satria proved it to Tanya, if indeed she was serious to him, Satria wanted to be more familiar with Tanya, if indeed they were compatible with each other, if indeed they were compatible, so after the two have been graduated, Satria will take this to a more serious level, namely the bond in marriage. Satria came with her mother, and immediately talked about their arrival.

“Our arrival here , want to invite Princess Om named Tanya, to undergo ta'aruf , does Om allow it? “

“Om, will allow after you graduate college, Om do not want your college interrupted.“ He said it was surprising.

“InsyaAllah, our lecture will continue to run without any interference, until we graduate later , even until we serve. “ Said Satria.

“InsyaAllah I'm sure Om, if indeed we match each other, I will tie princess Om in marriage, even if Om approves. “

“Alright, if indeed you are sure, Om will bless you with one condition, you two must keep a distance and must pass first, after graduation InsyaAllah Om will bless you in marriage. “

Restu has been found, Tanya happy and hope that if the decision is good for the future, if indeed we are destined to be together, God willing, God will unite us in His Ridho.

Kasa or Irwan he did not know, about Satria's invitation to Tanya, they will tell after all can take the time to meet. Bara who secretly loves Tanya, expressing her feelings through messages, not directly, at that time Tanya had ta'aruf with Satria, this girl rejected Bara's feelings subtly.

“Since we met on the ospek show, I've fallen in love with you, I tried to get close to you, like I approached other women, but the truth is you're different from the girl I've ever approached, you're a good girl, you're a girl who always keeps your honor, you said, always keeping my heart at ease, making me realize, if I ever did the wrong way to approach a woman, even you have made me turn into a much closer Bara. If you want to! I want to make you my lover. “ In his long message.

“I'm sorry, I can't be your lover, God willing, God will send a much better girl, than me, your color is good person also Bara.” The reply.

Bara sincerely with Tanya's rejection, now that he is a young man who is not angry anymore, he still smiles when he meets the girl he loves, until Bara finally finds out, he has a, if Tanya already has her own future husband .

“Now I understand, why did he reject me? She already has her future husband. “ Bara had heard this news, when he heard Tanya's talk over the phone.

Tanya wanted to invite Kasa and Irwan to meet, but, they could not, because of the busy schedule, finally, this good news was told by phone, Satria called Irwan , Irwan , tanya called Kasa.

“What!! You guys are doing ta'aruf. “ Although different phone, but, the answer given them compact.

The two are very surprised, as well as happy Irwan and Kasa, hoping they can get married soon, they think, Tanya, Satria is a matching couple, Equally complement each other's shortcomings. However, Tanya or Satria, they still have not thought about the level of marriage because they want to finish college, which is only a few years away.