Habits

Starts

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This Friday, Hana started with breakfast with Mama and Kak Evan. I'm on my last day of service and I'll be home by noon.

Mama's porridge is very warm when it enters the mouth, and when it lands on the stomach. Hana liked how the porridge smoke billowed and hit her face. It feels like your love is also evaporating there.

Sometimes Mama and Sis Evan throw jokes and temptations at Hana. The girl was confused.

Is that Mama's son Hana or Evan's sister? Why the brains of Mama and Evan 11/12? Especially in the business of cornering Hana.

An incoming call on Kak Evan's phone made their laughter subside.

"I'll excuse you for a second, please,"

After Mama and Hana compactly nodded, the wide-shouldered man disappeared behind the kitchen wall. Looks like his business needs to be discussed seriously so Evan answered the call in the guest room.

"Hana, yesterday Zoha called you, why not pick up?"

Hana's lips curl up tightly. He nodded at Mom's question. What answer should he give?

"Kok, Mama know?"

"She said Mama wants to see you. Someone wants to be talked about, he said. Mama says you're the same as Haris eating chicken noodles, in the shop at the front of the school."

"Keep, what's he saying?"

"He wants your nyamperin,"

"Who? I didn't see him,"

"Where's haris? You went home with Evan, didn't you yesterday?"

"Oh, Nelfon's mother. There's business, too,"

Hana's brain twists time. Yesterday afternoon, while she and Haris were eating chicken noodles, Evan called Hana. Then-then

"Ma, what time's Arkan on your phone?"

"Around 5 and a half,"

At that time Haris had gone home and left Hana with Kak Evan there. They were talking for a while before they finally decided to go to the cafe.

"I was there with Evan, Ma. No one's seen him,"

"Oh, huh? Ask Zoha what it takes. Who knows what's important,"

"No way,"

The girl leaned her body limp in the chair and lowered her head.

"Well, why Hana?"

"I'm not used to it yet, Ma. We're not so close, either,"

Mama's patience, Hana will always praise her at any time. And the warm smile he presented never failed to make Hana feel guilty.

"Yaudah, but don't override him, huh, Hana? Anyway, he'll still be a priest to you,"

"Yes, dear Mama." Hana grabbed Mama's body from the side.

"Ma, can I ask you a favor?"

"By atuh, neng Hana. What can't be that, ask for money."

"OHH MAMAA! I'M SERIOUS!"

"Ouch, pretty-beautiful cuddling. Why the hell, Mama's son who sholehah?"

A little hesitant to submit his request. But Hana also has the right to express her wishes, right?

"About me, same Arkan. Our marriage, the reason for marriage, status, everything, please don't get spurned, Ma? I want only our extended family to know. I also don't want to keep my friends with him and anyone knows about marriage,"

"What's the day, son?"

"I also hope and ask for help, Haris the same Evan Brother not to know yes, Ma? Haris doesn't know yet,"

Mama took a smooth breath. Staring warmly at the beautiful face of the princess. Mama's eyes actually warmed up, seeing how Hana grew was happiness for her.

Hearing the words that Hana said more and more days make himself realize, that Hana is no longer a little girl. Hana has grown up to be a very good girl.

"I'll tell you and point everything out, if the time is right, Ma. Now it's not like I'm not ready, but I don't think the time is right."

"You're growing up well, baby. I'm sorry Mama gave up and released you like this. Mama wants the best for you. Like Mom and Dad said at the time. It's the last and best option. Mama is sad you do not argue and even accept it. Mama doesn't know you're sincere or burdened, but your gaze exudes the same trust the heavy decision from us. Mama is grateful, Hana. I'm grateful you're Mama's little daughter,"

Hana failed to hold back her tears. And as Mama clutched Hana's tiny body, the girl's cry broke.

"The more Hana grows up, the more affection Mama and Daddy also get bigger."

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"Where did you find this place?"

"You likey?"

Hana nodded in spirit. "BANGETTE!"

"Good, anyway,"

Hana closed her eyes. It breathed air and filled his lungs. His mouth did not cease to utter words of admiration and prayer.

"Eat first, Hana."

Hana's steps are getting faster in order to balance herself beside Kak Evan. The man's long legs overwhelmed Hana.

They immediately chose a table at the hotel restaurant. Hana proposes to choose a table near the balcony. He was still fascinated by the beauty of the view.

"You know?"

"No, sis. I haven't been told yet,"

"Take it first,"

"Hehe, yes yes."

"So don't want to go crazy" Hana frowned.

"Silver is not afraid. How is your brother's life if you're far from you?"

"HAHAHAHAHA,"

Some tourists there stared cynically at the table Hana and Kak Evan. Hana immediately stood up and bowed apologetically, then straightened her seat back to look at Kak Evan.

"I'm serious, Hana."

I-you.

Evan's brother will use the call while he's in a very serious conversation.

The man showed a stern look of eyes that managed to lock onto Hana's gaze and movements. The girl's body froze.

"I've never been this serious as a girl,"

His tongue is getting stiffer. Hana could guess what would happen if the topic raised like this. The direction of the conversation is clear.

Actually Hana was afraid to return the deadly gaze of Brother Evan. But the girl did not want to waste time staring at the face of Kak Evan. If the gaze could kill, maybe now Hana's body was mutilated.

"The more I see you, the crazier I get. A few girls took me, and I thought, I could turn away from you. I was desperately fighting everyone but I was actually dead. Died because they lost. You made me lose, Hana. You're always be the winner,"

"Me too, Brother. I'm getting crazy every second. The more tormented we become when we realize we can't be together,"

Hana's eyes are heating up. All of those words he could only speak through his mind.

Shit, why is his mouth frozen?

"I think i'm insane for liking the same patient himself. He's still in school. School boy, is I the same? Funny. I feel like a teenager again with this feeling,"

Brother Evan laughed smirkily before continuing his sentence.

"It looks so weak in front of you. Shame to look stupid in front of you. In front of the people we love,"

"I'm more embarrassed, brother. I'm ashamed that I can't be as easy as Brother to get rid of everything,"

"I hate it, Hana. I'm such a chicken. I hate myself for not being able to reveal everything from the beginning. I hate myself for always hoping that you also feel the same. Then we'll get married, you'll always be a friend and part of me, and we live happily ever after.

I hate that it can only be in my thoughts and fantasies, Hana. I hate it because I can't make it happen,"

"I hate it too, brother. I hate the fact that I laugh at me who can't be happy with my choices,"

Not the sad ending that Hana prayed for. But he didn't want Evan to feel pain when he learned the truth from his side. Enough Hana. Enough of all her buried happiness. Hana please, Brother Evan-

"You want to come with Brother?"

Hana's blood rippled rapidly all over her body. His heart is beating. He hated having to answer no. Hate so much that Hana hoped she would never hear this question.

"After you graduate, I'll pick you up. We're going to Aussie. He also wanted to be a doctor in a downtown hospital. We can start a new life,"

The man's hand trembled slightly as he poured the tea into a beautiful classic cup. Hana could feel the tremors of the hand that was a heavy thing.

"Hana, I love you,"

As far as Evan spoke, that sentence made Hana sick the most, and happy at the same time. He hated because he felt adrift in the midst of various connected events in his life.

Hana failed to interpret Kak Evan's gaze. And the man managed to bring the girl deep into her labyrinth. Let him choose the path and destination he will choose.

"I love you, Arana Hana."

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