Habits

Enough

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Hana slammed her phone slowly into her lap. What's up now? To Arkan's?

"Cave house?"

The man smiled in satisfaction without turning his attention to the streets.

Want it feels like Hana is resting because according to him, some days his brain has been used too hard.

"Do you want the cave to know not to be too surprised? Shame, maybe if you startle in front of the cave bonyok,"

"What? The cave is sleepy,"

"We'll marry.. Tomorrow,"

"You're so mad,"

"No. Seriously, Arana."

Reflexes, Hana was sculpting while staring at Arkan. The guy raised both his eyebrows up and down as if actually saying those things seriously.

"Can't be. The cave's not ready, crazy. Must be backtracked, really. The cave just turned back-"

"Because your dearest Evan's sister doesn't exist"

"Damn it,"

"Ehm, sorry. That is, the cave replaced him. Your parents want to rush the cave to be your life companion,"

Laughter at the end of her sentence made Hana sigh heavily.

"Maybe your parents think, you will be lonely because of the loss of Evan's sister. And let me try to help you,"

"Wake up when you get there,"

Damnit.

His favorite gray hat is not in the bag. Looks like it was left at the hotel yesterday.

By staring at the towering building, and the cars that passed like leaving him, successfully made Hana's mind slightly relaxed.

"As your wish,"

"And,"

Without diverting her attention from the streets, Hana turned a blind eye. Then say to Arkan who is waiting for the next sentence,

"You're not the same as him,

Never."

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"Whoi,"

The gentle shocks on both of her shoulders made Hana squirm. The first view he saw was the face of Arkan.

"Portuguese,"

The girl brushed off the two hands of Arkan who were still holding his shoulders seconds after he woke up. After making a little face and drinking a few sips of water, he got out of the car. Following Arkan who was waiting for him while leaning in the front of the car.

"Not to be tense. Your face is ugly,"

"Bod,"

Arkan chuckled and preceded Hana's steps towards the main door.

Honestly, Hana is tense. Several times he saw the appearance and his face in the mirror, his cellphone, or the car rearview mirror earlier.

"Assynolt,"

"Wa'alaikumsalam, Hannah."

Immediately, Hana slammed into Mama and Dad's arms, then showed her a row of teeth.

"Kok I'm not welcome, Ma?"

"You're a rich girl,"

The guy chuckles and sits on the sofa next to Hana with his parents.

"What a long time in front? What was that first?"

"Huh?"

A questionable look and Hana-linked eyebrows showed Arkan. The guy hinted at 'sleeping' through his hands.

"Ah, that's auntie-"

"Mama. Call Mama, baby."

Mama Arkan's face was so bright and radiant as Hana raised a voice. The girl actually wanted to chuckle because she seemed very enthusiastic about hearing him speak.

"Abis-out"

"Hana asked to be bribed siomay earlier,"

Please, Arkan.

Please let Hana's life calm down for a moment. Because of the words of the man - who according to him no make sense -, now the parents are smiling shyly while looking at them alternately. The girl just smiled awkwardly. Then while looking at Arkan, he cast a murderous gaze.

"Because Hana's here, just talked about, huh? Let him rest immediately. Must be tired,"

While upholding her sitting position, Hana hoped this was all just a dream.

In fact, he did not want a dream like this. Wouldn't it be better to dream about Evan?

"I've been told Arkan, Ma."

"Oh, huh? What do you think, Hana?"

"Ehm,"

It was highly unlikely that Hana replied that she still needed time.

Tomorrow, Hana.

Tomorrow.

Less than 24 hours.

He nodded and squeezed his fingers. His mind was tired of continuing to work. As a delicate hand gently grasped her hand, Hana raised her face. Look at the face of my mother who is shining with hope. Also Dad's happy face.

There was no intention to disappoint his parents. He wants to continue to be a source of happiness for Mom and Dad. Finally,

"L-yes, Tan-uh, Mama."

Hana relented. He believed in both his parents and God-given destiny. It's impossible for a parent to give a bad thing to their child, right?

'Surely this is all the best of God, Mama and Dad,'

"Thank God,"

"But is everything ready?"

"Udah, son. The wedding is ready. Invitations and catering have been arranged. The building has its location. And for the concept, you can say the same Arkan now wants to be rich. Same with wedding dress. Is there anything less?"

"Can you talk about it while you're talking about something else, Ma."

"OK,"

Mama Arkan's smile was very sincere. Hana really felt bad for Arkan's parents because they had been so kind. Even their meeting with Hana has not been 5x but they seem to believe in Hana.

During the conversation discussing the concept and some considerations, Hana avoids Arkan's gaze. Suddenly he felt unwell and his heart was restless.

"I'm sorry to go back, yeah."

"Yes, kid. Careful,"

"Ih, Mama. People to the back of the doang,"

Hana chuckled and shook her head. Same with his parents and Arkan's parents.

How did Arkan respond? Don't know.

There's nothing Hana does but keep avoiding eye contact. Even now, as he passed by the guy, he could catch from the corner of his eye that Arkan was watching him. But he doesn't care.

Up in the backyard of Arkan's house, after confirming the state that her voice would not be heard deep, Hana cried but her sobbing was held back.

"Why should I, Lord?"

Hana's chest returned sick and tight. Like last night at the hotel with Evan's sister. But this time, though,

"You're sick, anyway?"

Hana repeatedly pressed and hit her chest hard. Breathe in, and exhale. But his condition did not improve.

"Here,"

The foreigner felt very strange. Warm, but it makes Hana freeze.

Arkan hugged her, sinking Hana's face into her chest. Until Hana can hear the guy's heartbeat. In fact, Arkan also rubbed his back gently for the girl to feel better.

The originally choked cry of Hana, slowly came loose. His stuff that was initially held in his throat, now he voices. Occasionally he hits Arkan's back and chest while chanting the original words.

"Lu who, anyway?! Why are you in the cave life?! Got wrong what cave until God fate rich gini?!"

"Don't look just from your side. See it from another,"

Who exactly is that guy?

Why does her embrace make Hana feel like she's finding her place back?

Honestly, it feels very comfortable.

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The wooden chair beside the swimming pool they were sitting in felt harder than when Hana was sitting here the first time. At that time, the first meeting was about marriage. That long Saturday.

The reflection of the moonlight tonight is very bright. Really bright. I don't know why the sky is happy with what is happening on earth. With what Hana is experiencing.

Hannah hoped it would rain so she could pray. And to let Hana know that the universe feels the magic.

"Don't be in diemin. The cave is tired of making it,"

"Gua didn't tell you to make it,"

Arkan breathed. Then hiss,

'Patience, that's a future wife.'

"Looks drinking. Beside from who made it, you should appreciate it,"

A few tears still welled up at the bottom of Hana's eyes made her eyes sparkle. Arkan was surprised when the girl looked at him with a puffy face, but her beauty did not fade with all the tears that erased her sadness.

Hana feels bad. While crying, he scolded Arkan, banging on the boy's chest and back.

And now, that guy was being nice to her. He was given a blanket to cover his clothes off shoulder, then made a cup of hot chocolate.

Honestly, Hannah was grateful and confused.

Thankful there are still good people. Thankful that person is Arkan.

And confused. Why was Arkan being nice to him? Does that guy just feel sorry for his story?

Hana told me a little about how much she wanted to make her parents happy. And since he was the only child, it was certain that all responsibility was left to him.

Hana always obeyed her parents no matter what they wanted.

Because besides him, who else?

So Hana was used to keeping her own complaints. There was no one he could make a place to lean. Maybe Evan's sister, or Haris. But he had never felt as relieved as he was now.

Now then?

Without Hana noticing, she could feel an empty space in her heart. All the weight was gone from both shoulders. He felt lighter and did not feel claustrophobic.

"I told you, before. Don't look at everything from one side. Look at the other side,"

"Every human's scars are different,"

"And everything will pass. Wounds must be treated. And no one wants to get hurt anymore. So, do you want to recover from your scars?"

The look that Arkan gave off was less obvious in Hana's eyes. A little blurry until it made the girl frown. The moonlight is very bright.

Until Hana realizes that she was crying when Arkan's face was clear again, blurry again, clear again, and so on. Her tears suddenly fell. The guy seems to have successfully transferred his graduation and caused Hana to warm up.

"Can it?"

"Hm?"

"About your father.."

Arkan's face looked surprised. However, two seconds later he returned neutralizing the expression. He looked at the face of Hana who was still hoping that she was also willing to tell the girl grievances.

"I have to see from another side, right? Let me see it from yours,"

And Arkan lost.

With Hana's gaze, in the way the girl asked for it, with her heart also tired for too long keeping all by itself.

"They separated, after Dad recovered from his illness. The cave also does not know the cause, probably because it was a child. If now investigated, maybe it turned out to be simple and plastered clearly in front of the cave."

"Cave of guess-"

"Yes, I know."

Arkan chuckles. He already knew that Hana probably thought her father was dead. Because of the story about the heart doctor at the cafe earlier.

"Sorry,"

The guy nodded while turning his eyes to the swimming pool.

"Emang everyone you tell, why is that too?"

Hana's question makes Arkan seem to think. "No,"

"What do you think?"

"No. No one has ever grottoed a story. Besides Haris who knows the story,"

Hana gasps. So only he knows?

Arkan shifted his attention to Hana. The girl turned out to be more attractive to look at than the reflection of moonlight in the pool water.

"Everything will open one by one when you get into the cave life. Want to run according to the groove, or like spoilers?"

"Don't say anymore,"

Finally, Hana reached for a glass of hot chocolate that had already turned warm. It's almost cold.

"Enough for today. See you tomorrow,"

The direction of Arkan's eyes moved, watching Hana's footsteps move away. He has lost to destiny.

Facing Hana was a new route that he roamed. It seems, the advice from the father will be very useful for Arkan and his future.

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