Guarding the Heart

To the house of Vely and Reno

At Amanda's

The woman seemed unable to sleep well. Sinta's words were still ringing in her ears. Amanda flipped her body in agitation. Farhan was disturbed by his sleep with the movement of Amanda who was beside him.

"You why? How, his sleep is so restless?" farhan asked, squinting his eyes at Amanda.

"Mas, I feel guilty about Mba Dinda" Amanda said.

"You're sorry" Farhan replied.

"Mba Dinda still has permission not to go to school" Amanda murmured.

"Why didn't Dinda go to school?" Farhan kepo. Finally, he listened to Amanda. If his eyes were still heavy to respond to his wife's words, Farhan now opened his eyes.

"Said Mba Sinta, Mba Dinda miscarried" replied Amanda slowly.

"Manda, it's not because of yesterday's problems, is it? Farhan.

Amanda mute. Farhan changed his position, who was sleeping now sitting next to Amanda.

"Your blind jealousy is already harming others" Farhan accused as he looked at Amanda. His wife's guilty face.

"Which woman is not jealous, sees her husband in the photo alone with another woman. So naturally, if I am jealous" said Amanda did not accept, she also changed her position. Amanda sat down to her husband.

"But, use common sense" Farhan pressed his index finger against Amanda's forehead.

"The woman you see, you know. She is not a woman who does not understand religion. You know for yourself that Adinda is an activist at the campus mosque. So easily you accuse Adinda who is not-no" continued Farhan.

Amanda pursed her lips. She knew she had made a mistake, especially until she miscarried.

"Udah, let's go to sleep" Farhan asked while lying down again.

Amanda catches up with Farhan to sleep. If Adinda is back in school again, she will meet Adinda to apologize.

***

The next morning

Dimas saw Adinda tidying her headscarf in front of the mirror.

"Are you sure you want a job today?" tanya Dimas is serious.

"Yes. I'm healthy, really" replied Adinda turned her body to Dimas.

Dimas just smiled. He could not forbid the intention of Adinda who wanted to enter work. Dimas was ready with his work clothes. He'll pick up Adinda when he works.

"Come, breakfast. Mama's been waiting at the dinner table" Dimas asked. Adinda who was ready to go to work, accompanied Dimas's wide steps out of the room.

Adinda has helped her in-laws make breakfast after the end of the morning prayers. Her mother-in-law was waiting at the dinner table for breakfast.

"Let's have breakfast first, then you go to work" asked Mama Dimas.

She took her seat in front of her mother-in-law. While Dimas pulled a chair next to Adinda.

"Why don't you just stay in our house, Ma?. So Mama did not go back and forth to the grandfather's house" Dimas said between them breakfast.

"The brother who does not want. He would rather live there. A place where grandparents spend their old age together.

"So, who's looking after grandpa now, Ma?" Adinda did not want to lose to ask anyway.

"Mama's Sister. His house is not far from grandfather's house" replied his mother-in-law.

She just remembered that her father-in-law had a sister. It was his sister who helped grandfather at home. After breakfast, Adinda and Dimas leave for work.

"Be careful, yes" said his father-in-law, waving at Dimas and Adinda who were already inside Outlander.

Adinda sat down casually beside Dimas who was already behind the wheel.

"I haven't been in this expensive car for a long time" Adinda said to Dimas. Dimas rarely uses it when going to work.

"This car is specifically to deliver Her Majesty the Queen" Dimas said with a curved lip angle.

Adinda then laughed and pinched Dimas's arm because she was embarrassed.

Dimas was happy to hear his wife's laughter again.

Arriving at the school gate, Dimas stopped his car. Students who come to school are almost no more because seven minutes later the bell will ring.

Before Adinda went down, Dimas put his body closer in front of Adinda. The handsome man wants to open the Adinda safety belt. After successfully opening it, Dimas turned his face before Adinda until their faces were very close. For a moment their eyes met and glued to each other. Adinda can feel the slow breathing of Dimas. Slowly Dimas fused his lips to the lips of the woman he loved so much. The sister who had been trapped in the romantic atmosphere just closed her eyes until Dimas finished his action.

Dimas pulled away while smiling wrongly. He couldn't help himself earlier. The sister also seemed to be still glued to her seat.

"Next call me if you want to go home" Dimas said. Dinda flinched a bit.

"Dt ... Dinda" scold Dimas.

"Eh ... what?" Dinda only realized when she heard Dimas' voice calling her.

"If you come home later, call me" Dimas repeated. Adinda nodded.

"I'm going in first. Assalamualaikum" Adinda and then out of Outlander owned by Dimas.

"Waalaikumsalam" replied Dimas then started his car and then left the location.

She walked through the school gate holding her cheek with both hands. Warm. His heart was still pounding as a result of receiving a warm kiss from Dimas in the car.

The veiled woman smiled as she shook her head to disperse her daydreams about Dimas earlier.

"Din, are you healthy? How come, has it come?" sapa Sinta welcomed Adinda who had just stepped into the teacher's room.

"Alhamdulillah. I'm bored at home, Sin" Adinda replied as she returned Sinta's embrace.

"Sorry, Din. I didn't see you in the hospital or at your house. My son is also less healthy" said Sinta sadly.

"What's wrong, Sin" replied Adinda smiling.

"Sst, that's Dinda already in" whispered Bu Nina to see Adinda and Sinta chatting.

"So, the truth is that Dinda miscarried. Poor thing, yes" Bu Kiki replied with a sad look on her face.

Bu Kenken who was there noticed as well. His lips smiled cynically without anyone knowing.

Amanda who sat behind her desk smiled at Adinda but when the senior saw her, she did not return Amanda's smile at all. Amanda's smile faded, she lowered her head with a disappointed heart.

"Does Mba Adinda blame me?" Inner Amanda.

"We are very sad, Din" said Bu Kiki to Adinda.

"Thank you, Miss Kiki" Adinda smiled back.

"Still young too. Kan, can try again" Bu Nina joked with a small laugh.

"Bu Nina, you can" Adinda said with a big smile.

***

"Din, didn't you see Amanda's face when you entered the office?" sinta asked quietly as they sat in the school cafeteria.

"Yes, I see. I'm so sorry to see his face" Adinda replied, putting chicken noodles in his mouth.

"If it wasn't for her, you wouldn't be stressed and lose your baby" Sinta said.

"It's a strong one indeed. Dimas and I became a cold war because of the photo" Adinda smiled.

"Sst, Din. Amanda tuh's. I think we want our nyamperin, deh" whispered Sinta saw Amanda walking towards their desk.

"Mba Dinda, can talk for a while" said Amanda ventured.

"Talk" said Adinda Cuek. He didn't have to ask Sinta to leave, did he.

Amanda glanced at Sinta, actually she only wanted to talk to Adinda. But Sinta flinched from her seat.

"Mba, I want to apologize for yesterday's incident" said Amanda regretfully sitting in front of Adinda.

"I'm not as despicable as you think, Manda. I'm sorry, I haven't forgotten all that. This heartache, accused of fellow Muslim sisters as hypocrites" said Adinda looking at Amanda with teary eyes.

Yes, are not Muslims brothers. Moreover, they used to be both activists at the campus mosque.

She moved out of her seat leaving the dining table in the cafeteria. Sinta also followed the steps of Adinda. Amanda felt tightness in the chest when she saw Adinda leave without forgiving her. A clear thread seeped in the corner of Amanda's eyes.