Grandma's Choice (Mad Doctor )

The voice of Salma

You know what it's like in a duakan, "it hurts "they say. I don't know if I've ever felt it.

But do you also know what it's like to be second, "It hurts "sometimes I feel that, maybe it hurts just as much as those in two. Though I only became the second after his first marriage ran aground on the basis of slander and disbelief.

I never snatched Salim mas from his family, he was present in my life as a Hero whom God sent for me to be the light upon the darkness of the life I lived, he was like my guardian angel, the answer to my prayers.

I really love him, he knows my past but he never brought up or was disgusted with me, he loves me loving our daughter with all his heart, the perfect husband and father figure, he said, that's my picture for her, she's perfect in my eyes. However, I always forget that I am only the second for him, the second wife, his second life.

It feels like at night I accidentally heard the delirium of mas Salim calling his ex-wife.

And more painful when he tells of his ex-wife and her children with sparkling faces. It was clear that he still loved the woman, and missed his children.

At times like this I once felt like running from mas Salim, but I realized that I was no longer a mami-night woman who could just run away from the striped-nose men. now that I'm a wife, I can't just leave my husband.

Is it not sinful for a wife to leave the house without her permission, what else if I have to leave my husband for a clear reason.

Jealousy ... It's not clear why, I thought before. However, I again thought it was not natural and it was natural that a woman had jealousy.

What am I who is just an ordinary woman, while an Aisyah sayyidah who is nicknamed Srikandi solihah, an intelligent figure and worship expert, has even been guaranteed to enter his paradise by Allah. The daughter of the Prophet's friend and the Prophet's wife was also a jealous person.

So few stories I've heard from an ustadz at the class that I attended a few weeks ago.

Ah, it seems that I have to be a lot of grateful, because I am still lucky compared to the women who have to resist jealousy to the honey.

After all from his attitude mas Salim looked to love me and our daughter Nadia, well, didn't we have a daughter to strengthen this relationship.

Then for what else I hawatri, Mas Salim is the man in charge I believe he Takan just left me. Hasn't he spoiled me so much that he never hurt me even if he just said rudely to me and our son, he loved us as much as the people he loved the most.

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But ... Since reuniting with his children, Salim changed slightly, he was more often silent, as if repeating past memories. Even the delusions often reappear in his speech.

Oh, I love you so much with Maryam, that it seems so hard for you to really escape their shadows.

Whether we who have lived for decades with you cannot be a substitute for your past. I don't know what kind of woman Maryam was so that my husband remembered her.

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