Grace of Love

This Time I'm Not Going to Shake

"Han...is that good, baby?" Hanna's still stuck in Uncle Ivar's arms. Body fat.

"Enak.cuma. Hanna seemed to be exhausted." Replied without looking, lazy to move his body.

"What is in school, baby?" Tanya Ayman was curious.

"So sports activities, there's a classmate Hanna's birthday."

"They're turning on Han's loud music?" Nindi.

"No, just the music. There were fireworks too, Hanna forgot her name. But his voice was very similar to the sound of a gunshot." Hanna shudder. Apparently this is the trigger piker Ivar and others.

"Hanna's shaking, son?" Edwin was no less worried.

"No, Hanna was no longer afraid. It's just a very loud voice, so very disturbing. Hanna doesn't like it"

Apparently not, they were staring at each other. Trying to pry without making Hanna feel in interrogation. Hanna was so scared that she was in pain from her excessive worry and fear.

"There's.....Is there anything Hanna feels, or is it that makes Hanna sad, or is it just Han?" Even the question of Nindi.

"What aunty, Hanna doesn't understand." The answer is plainly confused. The others begin to realize Hanna is feeling uncomfortable.

"Forget it Han, Auntie was confused as well. Haha...." Hanna shook her head. Funny to ask but confused.

"Hanna's friends are good with Hanna? Uncle would be sad if there was anything bad about Hanna." Hanna shakes. “Really? They don't bother Hanna, do they?”

"Well, just Hanna confused by what Lula and friends say." Hanna raised her head staring one by one at everyone's faces. "Forget it, it doesn't matter at all." Downplayed his intentions. Hanna came down from Ivar's lap. But his uncle refused to let go.

"Uncle still misses Han, just give it a minute." Ivar is treating his longing these few days not to meet Hanna.

"If the pain says yes dear, Uncle, Aunt and Opah will always be there for Hanna, the slightest pain dear." Nindi knew Hanna was hiding something from her.

"Hmmmmm..today Hanna is ok, no pain. Hanna's fine Aunt."

Convince Nindi not to worry. Hanna was aware of their question because of her condition which suddenly hurt after school. Hanna was so happy to be noticed by everyone.

Lately the attention for him is reduced, everyone is busy with work and forgets that he is waiting for them to come home every time.

Plus Hanna had to look cloudy on her beloved face at all times. The worry is increasingly stacked up to make pain that does not know why, but damage his lifestyle a little messy.

Hanna even recently fought with Lula another close friend for disagreeing with her. Hanna chose to be alone and wanted to know why she became like this. It seemed that her attention was reduced, and now Hanna was already convinced by the reason.

“Don't be too busy? Hanna needs to be loved like this.” Hanna broke the silence. “Hanna was also very sad to see Aunt alone lately, Hanna was not strong enough to see Uncle.” His voice is a little heavy.

“What all of us are so far as that Han, Uncle didn't even knowingly do it Son, sorry ya Han, Uncle promised more attention. Hanna must be scared yeah?”

Nodding, his eyes glazed. “Fearless if you have to be alone with Aunt Nindi alone, Hanna already loves you all.” Very funny Princess to fear, Ivar annoyed at himself who is not sensitive to the state of his home.

“Which may be Hanna alone, Uncle will always take care of you. Sorry well lately busy once dear.” Hanna was tight as if asking Ivar to keep his word.

"Don't be afraid baby, Opah will take care of Hanna too." Ayman just smiled, his son is already a big boy. He could already be angry and convey his grief.

"Now Hanna, Adek Jason to the room well. Play for a while, Uncle wants to talk to the others." Hannya took Jason with her, followed by her two nannies.

"Ivar talked to Nindi Pah before, Mas." Paused. "Ivar will return to the union." Edwin. Ayman just stared in disbelief at what he had just heard.

"Ivar can't if only Pah is silent, Ivar please allow Ivar back. Nindi will get used to it for a long time." Her stubbornness was unwilling to listen to the rejection.

"Not think about Nindi's condition that just gave birth, she needs your figure Var." Edwin took a long breath. His son is very hard if he already has a desire.

"Ivar is round, nothing can change Ivar's resolve. Including Nindi." It's a matter of course, but Ivar wants Nindi to sacrifice a little more.

“Papah doesn't know what to say anymore, Papah just can't if Nindi doesn't give permission. Papah knows Nindi knows what's best for you. Papah wishes Ivar did not continue this one Son, Papah is also heavy.”

“If Mas is up to Ivar, it's just better thought out carefully. Take care of them while Ivar can still, do not regret like Mas now Var.” Imbuhnya.

Nindi who was listening with her very broken heart was already speechless. Her tears were already dry, not to mention after this. His heart was accustomed. He was just afraid of another terrible thing that could have happened.

But her husband was already like this before meeting her, maybe once again succumbing will not make this burden even heavier.

"Sorry Honey." Ivar knows he is guilty, but Ivar does not want his steps to slow down and miss the opportunity to catch the perpetrator who has made his family so destructive.

"Give Baby Nin, Mas who accompanied Baby for a moment." Nindi who was already limp let go of her hand and handed it to Ayman. Edwin also went to make room for them to talk further.

The discussion was over, although it was useless because Ivar made his own decisions without thinking about the voices of others. Her eyes were fixed on her husband's eyeballs. Ivar dodged, not strong enough to stare at the pain of his beloved eyes.

"Abang, is it sure it should come back?" Ivar did not answer. Chest hurts. "If that's sure enough to have to leave my will, Papah and Mas Ayman. Go, get back where you want to be." Very soft to make Ivar's heart more slashed.

"Nindi won't be difficult step brother.

"It's a little chatty." Ivar hugged her tightly, her license was in place. But not signed completely, he still did not fully approve. "Think of nothing but our happiness. Brother's gonna promise to stay good." Nindi gave up insisting.

The circumstances of asking her to remain a backup for Ivar, became her strength in order to remain confident in her beliefs.

The Flass Back

Nindi is seen breastfeeding Baby , her face grimaces occasionally withstanding the pain.

"Sick baby?" Nindi shook her head, she was enjoying her new role.

"What's wrong, so agitated his face. Brother ok, right?" Tanya Nindi was worried.

"Don't think about it, Don't think about it." Ivar pretended to be busy with his laptop.

"Let's just say Brother, Nindi knows very well Brother is having a mind. Don't be afraid to talk Bang. Nindi's been a good listener."

Ivar sat a little closer from his place. "But Brother will not waver whatever Nindi will say." Frowning, why the initial words were already so painful.

"Then don't talk, Nindi doesn't want to know either." Very upset, but his tone was still full of tenderness.

Ivar sat back a little away, pausing his intention to talk because Nindi seemed to be in a bad mood.

"Here is the big brother so that the wind in his stomach will come out." Nindi happily handed it over. Ivar was already in school as a new parent before the birth of his son. He is adept at carrying right now.

Nindi broke down her accusation which was very tired, seeing both of them full of haru. Baby is very strong so far with a variety of problems that hit him. Very strong he. Nindi sank with her mind until she fell asleep.

His face is peaceful.

Two hours later Nindi wakes up, finding Ivar still busy with his work.

"Remember...."Nindi rests herself on Ivar's back. "What did you want to talk about?" Guilty of sleeping comfortably without guilt.

“Why wake up? If you are still tired Nindi just rest Nin.” The one he spoke to was busy smelling his pleasant aroma. Ivar smiled, his heart was not good because what he was going to say was still stuck.

“Sorry well Bang, Nindi overslept when she wanted to talk about important things right. Sorry well.” Still don't want to let go of his hug.

“No problem, Brother can talk now.” Nindi was a little curious but also scared.

“Yes already, speak Brother. Hopefully what Nindi fears will not happen.”

"Can you talk? Nindi ready to hear it?" Nindi nodded confidently.

With a breath of asking Ivar steadily spoke. "Abang will return to the unity." It was as if his earth was spinning above Nindi's head. Turned away once in a while.

"What the hell...joking yeah?" Nindi tried to neutralize her shock. Nindi held back Ivar's body that was about to turn towards her. His eyes had gotten wet quickly, his grief response had been very easy lately.

"As for Nin, you have to know who and why. Why are they so evil that they hurt Mamah and Edel." Nindi sobbed behind Ivar.

"Nindi doesn't want to." Answer's raspy.

“Abang Please.”

“Do not joke Brother...” Nindi refused Ivar's insertion. “Why Brother is so stubborn. Can't just stop this time. I lost a lot. I don't want any more. “ Nindi pissed.

"Abang has said there is no rejection. Brother is determined and Nindi can't stand in your way." Although Ivar was not strong to see Nindi's sadness, he was determined not to waver. Nindi would be able to accept if it had happened.

"Evil...Very bad brother. Nindi won't give her permission." Nindi wiped her tears, her son cried. Nindi stood up from her place and immediately walked out of the room.

Nindi joined the others who were gathering in the living room.

"Babies.....Hay...." Hanna is busy teasing Baby who is asleep back in Nindi's arms.

"Nindi's crying?" Ayman's whisper that saw the tip of Nindi's eyes wet. And surely the answer was no, Ayman could already guess they were arguing. Because not long Ivar also came out with a face no less tangled.

"No, just a little glitter." Wiping without rest.

Ivar, who found the living room full of words, chose to embrace Hanna who had not noticed for days.

Nindi tries to keep her heart from crying in front of the children.

They should always see her happy, especially Hanna who already understood her mood. Now even Jason can cry if he cries.

They would be happy if Nindi was also happy, they had to grow up happy. Although incomplete, their happiness should not be diminished. They should be perfectly happy, like the sun that never forgets to shine on its axis. Glow with confidence without hesitation. Nindi wanted to keep them intact like that.

Her heart ached, wanting to scream but unable to because the children looked at her lovingly. Nindi tried to temper her anger.