Grace of Love

It's Not Nindi I Know

Since returning home from vacation, Nindi often shut herself up and many daydreams make Ivar worried about his health. Dian will only leave the room during meal and work time, the rest is silent in the room.

Several times Ivar tried to find an answer and only made himself more stressed with the answer Nindi gave. As if Ivar did not know his beloved woman, his attitude changed like others Ivar did not know.

“Nin, when not to eat? Otherwise taste try to force Nin, pity our baby.” Persuade Ivar after all his seduction was rejected outright by Nindi.

“Abang...bisakan Nindi is not threatened continuously with her presence!” Point it at her distended stomach with those pesky eyes that Ivar had never seen before.

“NINDI!” Ivar yelled with emotion. Ivar ends up leaving the room for fear of hurting Nindi.

Actually Ivar was very unbearable with the condition of Nindi like this, all worried fear Nindi depression without them knowing the cause that occurred. Ivar tried to find out to some of his friends at the office but there was no answer. They are the same as Ivar, confused by Nindi who lately daydreamed a lot and did not focus on her task.

Ivar today took Hanna for a walk, her little girl asked a lot why Nindi never met her. Why did Nindi seem to hate him so much and reluctant to look at his face.

“Uncle, I want to eat pop corn.” Ivar nodded in agreement and walked Hanna to the pop corn stand.

“What do you think Han? Many choices it feels dear.”

“Caramel only Uncle.” Ivar order pop corn caramel on request.

“Hanna how's the school? When will Hanna get back in Nak?” Ivar asked, forgetting when Hanna went back to school.

“Senin Uncle....Ehh.means 3 more days Uncle.” Enjoy pop corn caramel.

“After this we pick up Auntie ya Han.” Ivar knows Hanna's feelings from Edel's stories that often get a lot of questions. Hanna was very saddened by Nindi who no longer paid attention to her.

Ivar has arrived at the office lobby, waiting for Nindi to come down.

“Uncle...” Seemed a little doubtful. “What Aunt no love Hanna?” Ivar stared at his little girl's eyes.

“Why talk like that Han?” Ivar grabbed Hanna's hand. Kiss it gently.

“What's it like to have Baby Boy?” Delivering his friends' thoughts about Nindi's change in attitude to him.

“Hanna why talk like that baby?” Shrugging his shoulders confused. “Tante Nindi couldn't possibly not love Hanna. Maybe because she's pregnant, so Auntie can't control her emotions Han.” Obviously trying to use language that Hanna could easily understand.

“But Hanna doesn't like.” Hugging Ivar felt sad.

“Uncle also don't like.” Mimicking Hanna's funny talking style. Ivar doesn't want Hanna to go through his feelings. Ivar was also confused by Nindi's attitude lately.

Bruckkk....

“Sorry release.” Nindi said as she closed the car door quite loudly. Sit in the back seat.

“Nin, we eat first. Brother deliberately has not eaten so we can eat three.” He wanted to melt the atmosphere. Who knows how it works.

“Nindi Throwing his breath rough. “Actually full, but yes already.” Wasting his face did not dare to look at Ivar's face.

Hanna who was sitting next to Ivar looked at her smiling Uncle's face at him. Ivar stroked the top of Hanna's head gently before driving forward.

No matter what Nindi was thinking at the moment, she really did not greet Hanna who was sitting in front of her at the moment. Even Hanna's innocent face was no longer Nindi's look, she looked away as if Hanna was not her precious little girl. Not a gem that she had guarded wholeheartedly all this time, Ivar was at a loss for words because she could not answer Nindi's very strange attitude towards Hanna.

“What message do you want Han?” Ivar relented, doing what Nindi usually did to Hanna while eating out.

After ordering them to enjoy the food quietly, there was only the sound of the clanking of spoons and plates that were connected. Ivar is claustrophobic at the circumstances he never once imagined would happen to his family.

It doesn't make Ivar's sense that Nindi's attitude changes because of her pregnancy hormones, she never sees Nindi even shying away from Hanna the way she does right now. Hanna who did not know how to just resign and did not ask Nindi, of course she was disappointed and sad. Nindi is the only treasure she has.

“Awww...” Shouted Hanna who spilled food about her skirt. Staring at Nindi.

“Why Han? here Uncle help.” Ivar mediates seeing no response from Nindi, but he finds out that Hanna is only looking for Nindi's attention who does not want to look at her at all.

“Hanna accidentally spilled it Uncle.” Ivar painstakingly sweeps food using tissue.

“No papa Han, his name was also unintentionally.”

“I go to the toilet for a while.” Nindi just left while Ivar has not returned his words.

“Tante really doesn't like me anymore Uncle.” Tears escaped her pretty eyes.

“Uncle also do not understand Han, Uncle please Hanna wait Auntie yes dear. Aunt Nindi definitely won't be able to go all the way from Hanna.” Ivar wiped Hanna's tears.

“Iya Uncle, said Omah and Opah Aunty just tired. Hanna will be independent so as not to bother Aunt again, so Auntie loves Hanna.” A smile just rises even though the tears are still pouring, so soft of Hanna's heart when it comes to her favorite woman.

“Hanna very understanding, thank you dear.” Ivar's hug made Hanna calm down a bit.

After eating them back home, Ellie is seen playing with Jason. Jason's crisp laughter echoed filling the air.

“You're home?” Nindi went straight upstairs after greeting Ellie and Jason. Ivar took Hanna to her room.

Usually Nindi who always takes Hanna to the room after returning home.

“Uncle stay, Hanna can be alone.”

“Do not want Uncle accompany?” Hanna shook her head with a smile. Ivar was proud to see Hanna this loud, he was still too small to understand the situation that was going on. Nindi managed to educate her to be a smart and mature girl.

“Omah..” Ivar hugged his mother warmly. “Ivar Tipped Hanna well, Ivar want to go above fear Nindi need help Ivar.”

“What is his mood still the same?” Ivar nodded, his face shrouded in sadness. “Mamah was really curious what made Nindi so reluctant about Hanna. We know how Nindi kept Hanna all this time.” Ellie and the rest of the family were very sad to see Nindi being cold to Hanna.

“Ivar will try to persuade Nindi Mah, Ivar also really can't stand it. Nindi must know very well how Hanna feels right now. Nindi may not have noticed it.”

“You are right Son, they hurt each other if it is like this too protracted.” Ivar then leaves Ellie who is still accompanying Jason to play.

Ivar opened the door of the room looking for Nindi's whereabouts, invisible, there was only the sound of water gurgling from inside the bathroom. Ivar broke down his tired body, as if Ivar had heard a crying sound from the bathroom. Ivar sharpened his hearing walking closer to the bathroom door.

Tok....

“Nin...” There's no answer. “Nindi alright?” His heart seemed to want to jump, Ivar was very afraid Nindi in the bathroom did nothing. Ivar brushed off all his bad thoughts. “Honey...please open the door.”.

Ivar runs off in search of a spare key, Ivar is annoyed to kick the nightstand that does not show a spare key anywhere. Ivar knocked on the bathroom door again.

“Nin....Brother please open the door.” Still quiet. “Abang no mess ya Nin.” Ivar's getting frustrated. “Ni...”.

The creaking of the door made Ivar very relieved, and Nindi looked out of the bathroom covering her face with her palm still wet. Nindi's habit of never showing her face while crying. His body was wrapped in a towel.

Ivar clenched Nindi tightly, a great relief that saw Nindi well standing before his eyes.

“I can't...” Sobbing and speaking indistinctly, Ivar had no idea what Nindi meant.

Maybe this has something to do with Hanna, Ivar takes Nindi to sit on the edge of the bed. Still hugging her tightly without asking anything. Nindi's cry completely broke, Ivar repeatedly felt the pain of seeing Nindi cry like this in her embrace. It was as if suffering was reluctant to leave Nindi, and she was helpless.

“Abang help Nindi dress yes dear, later in the wind.” Nindi agreed as a cold graze pierced her skin.

Tonight Ivar really just hugged Nindi until Nindi fell asleep without wanting to know anything that made Nindi so devastated. The question and curiosity will only make Nindi again tingle, Ivar was no longer able to see Nindi crying.

Remembering how Hanna's longing for Nindi made Ivar want to pull Nindi and take her to hug Hanna. But seeing Nindi's condition so weak also makes Ivar can not force Nindi to talk about what he is feeling now.

Ivar's confused. Feeling powerless by the circumstances that befall Nindi at this time, making her feel weak can not protect the happiness of those whom she loves very much.

Trings.....

Ivar blinked at the incoming message on Nindi's handpone. Let it be because it was already midnight and there was no intention to see who was sending Nindi messages on these nights.

Kinggg...

The incoming message lined up until Nindi slightly disturbed and changed her sleeping position. The curious Ivar grabbed Nindi's phone. Trying to figure out who sent Nindi the message.

Ivar and Nindi both know their cell phone ciphers, nothing is hidden until Ivar himself never checks the contents of Nindi's phone and vice versa. They trust each other.

Message 1: Nindi....When can I take Hanna.

Message 2: I want to avenge all of my past actions in Nin. Justjust please.

Message 3: Nindi, I know Nindi loves Hanna very much, but please give Mom a chance to take care of Hanna Nin. I want to make amends for Nin's mother.

Message 4: Nindi......Mother was very tormented Nin.

Ivar claustrophobicly stared at the peaceful face of Nindi who was grandly asleep. It turned out that what Ivar was thinking was not true, maybe this is all that made Nindi so tormented lately. Nindi never wants to burden others with her problems.

But his way of surviving alone when he could ask his family for help he never did.

Nindi used to force herself to solve all kinds of problems by herself. Ivar kissed with the face of Nindi, Ivar did not think there was a heavy burden that he felt.

Perhaps it was her past that made Nindi never able to share her problems with others. He was forced by circumstances to get used to solving all sorts of problems by himself.

Ivar feels he doesn't know Nindi yet, he's far from Ivar's reach at the moment. Nindi still had many wounds alone.