
“Non Cana. It's Aunty.”
Get up from the bed. Walk straight to the door.
“Aunt why find Kana night-night?”
“Den Zii, Non ...”
Hearing my brother's name called. I panicked amazingly. Worried that something might happen to her.
“Kak Zii? Brother Zii why, Bi ..?”
“Den Zii turns out to be lying the same Non Kana.”
Both eyebrows raised. Not understanding the words of ART.
“Mending Aunty in first, yes. We're talking inside. Let's have better talking.”
Lead this middle-aged woman into my room. Sit on the left side of the bed.
Look straight at the woman.
“Try now Aunt story. What does Auntie mean by saying that Sister Zii lied?”
“Tadi, fitting Bibi to the supermarket, make buy extra vegetables. Aunty accidentally saw Den Zii and he was not alone. She's like that bule-bule chick, Non. They are kayaking a couple who are kasmaran.”
Very surprised, but as much as I can control this feeling so as not to be emotional.
“Bi-bi sure that the one Aunt saw was my brother?”
“Yakin, Non. Totally sure. Seriously. Auntie didn't lie. Non Kana himself knows that Auntie never dared to lie with Non.”
My heart aches to find this harsh reality. I just called him this morning. However, was it because Brother Zii thought I was messing with Dien that he betrayed me?
Is that how he was to me? Is it that easy to change his promises?
“Non ...., sorry Auntie, yes. Because Aunt Non Kana is so sad like this.”
I'm shaking.
“Aibi don't have to apologize. Aunty not wrong.”
Try to smile as much as possible.
“Thank you for telling Kana the truth.”
Aunty nodded and after that, she immediately came out. Go to sleep.
Look at the door of the room that has been closed. I can only be quiet. Feels tired. Be ill.
I really didn't expect that the events of the past would happen again. I'm the heartbroken one. Be hurt. Again and again.
Between me being stupid or that guy being an asshole.
Gravely. I could only cry in silence. What has changed, in fact I am still a weak girl who has a crying hobby. How shiny.
Hugging knees, dipping head. Letting yourself cry at will. Let me return tonight to remember the pain of heartbreak. Let it. I've also been like this before. Doesn't it feel like that? I should be fine now.
Drt. .., drt ....
My attention was distracted by my HP shakes that suddenly sounded. With no interest, I got out of bed. Picking up the phone I've been charging on the table.
A message from Papa came in. I'll open.
[Na, you haven't slept yet, have you? Help Papa find the car keys, son. Papa forgot to put it where. Papa's in the backyard. Looks like it fell around here earlier. Papa wait!]
“I'm heartbroken, Pa. Cook to be told to find the lost car keys?” my raca's not clear.
However, I will still help the man. Maybe by helping find Papa's car keys, my sadness will be reduced.
Put my wine back on the table. Glancing at the clock on the wall. It's ten o'clock in the night apparently.
“Papa night-night like this looking for car keys?”
I started to suspect. Like something weird. After all, if Papa actually lost the car keys, why should I be the one who is not good at finding small items that he asked for help? Though in this house there is still Pak Satpam, his driver Papa himself who is much better at looking for something.
“Is there something, yes?” ask me to myself.
Curious. I came out right after grabbing the veil. Know that the air outside is very cold, but I only wear a pretty thin nightgown. I'm lazy to have to wear a jacket or something. Let it. No problem if the body has a fever. Let everything be more complete. Not just heartache, but physical pain as well.
***
“Sini, Na ..” Papa said when he saw I was out.
“Papa why look for night-night keys? It's cold in here. What will Papa be sick? Ask others to look for it. Papa let's go inside!”
Hearing my scolding that was like Mom-Emak's fumbling, Papa chuckled. He approached me.
“Indeed you deserve to be Mom, Na.”
“So Mom? Mean Papa?”
Papa didn't answer my words. He led me away from the backyard.
“Well, where are you taking Kana? Not that he said he wanted to be helped find a key in the backyard, why now even go where?”
“Let's also you know yourself, Na. Uda, yeah. You are still.”
“Ih ..., can't be so, Pa.”
Removing the hand held by the man. I'm getting away from her.
“Papa lebahin first!”
“Papa want to swim, come!”
“Swimming? Nights like this? Serious papa, don't joke.”
“Papa seriously, Honey. Come!”
Not approaching. I'm even sharpening.
“Nmobile. Go by yourself. Kana. Want to sleep.”
Turned. Steering a step into the house.
Piqued. Really upset. Papa could have joked these nights. Obviously I was heartbroken, even invited to joke. Not funny at all.
Cobalt. Piqued. Be angry. Crying.
“Na ..”.
Feeling my hand touch Papa. My reflexes stopped. But I also did not turn my body.
“Na ..”.
“Moreover the hell, Pa? If you want to swim, swim alone. Don't take Kana. Kana. Kana's going to sleep. Don't joke around, huh. Kana was upset for a long time. Kana's heartbroken again. Be ill. This chest tightness. Don't stir up Kana's emotions anymore. Kana tired. Kana is tired of being hurt. Upset, ih ...”
Quiet, silent after I put out the dust in this head. Papa was no longer holding this hand.
“Udah! Don't bother Kana just yet, Pa. Can you want to restiraha—“
The deg!
This body is hugged from behind. But that's not what shocked me.
“You're even sweeter when you're angry. Brother happy to see it.”
Well, that. Her voice.
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