FIZAH (Female Kolong Garbage)
PART 48 "Return"
*Hafizah Palace
What are the consequences when he falls? Must dare to hurt. I'm no longer the innocent girl I was two years ago. Chemical compounds called pheromones are produced naturally by my body, prompting my social response to become stronger. The compound immediately evaporated when I inhaled the perfume Mr. Nizam wore. Where it never happened before when I was with the men under the trash. Maybe because I just realized, surprised that the one who sent me the letter was the man who helped me and Ratna that night. I wonder because to me this is amazing. However, when I was awakened by something else, my feelings changed quickly after seeing him come with a woman named Mbak Rubia. A woman who looks so different from me. Who then praised me by saying I was a beautiful girl. It's freaky.
I don't really believe in hearing Rubia say she and Mr. Nizam are just friends. Little or much, the feelings of one of them must have been seeping from time to time. The more pheromones evaporate, the more they can fall in love. Either only Rubia or Mr. Nizam. Or, they even secretly fall in love without knowledge. So that the confession that appears is only a relationship of friends.
So how could Mr Nizam have sent me a letter in September, when I was in love? Where the letter shows the beauty of those who read it. Having seen his passion several times in past meetings and today, there is little possibility of a man like him lying about love. The way he respects women like my mother, it shows a manners and loving. Any woman may be treated the same. Including his feelings for me in the letter. My mom also said she probably liked me.
Once again I asked Rubia, "Does Mr. Nizam like Mommy Rubia?" Just leave it alone because I want to know for sure.
Mbak Rubia chuckles. "I don't understand, Fizah. Why indeed? Hmm?" Her clear eyes lit up.
This is where I can't answer. There's no way about the letter I told him too. I shouldn't have asked that either. I'm ashamed of myself.
Mr. Nizam and Mbak are back. Ma gave the money to my mother. Instantly, he said it from my mother's mouth. Meanwhile, Mr. Nizam put a tumbu whose contents are only half. My mom looks so happy. Once I looked closely at those eyes when he lowered his head, he shifted the chair right in front of me. And, why is my heart beating so unusually?
The baby flew the rest of Mr. Nizam's perfume scent. I inhaled it slowly. But I don't know what kind of scent it is. I don't think it's a perfume that's sold as expensive as the one worn by men in suits under the trash. Does Mr Nizam really like me? Or, it turns out that love only happened for a few moments, then now his heart has found another dock? Maybe I should ask him.
*Nizami's Ibban
Me, Fizah, and Mommy Rubia go home first. Bu Mini told us not to wait and we better rest at home for a while. Fizah was left in the market. Later can be taken home his sister or Mini Bu himself. Now, he is being piggybacked by Rubia towards his home. They drove ahead of me.
Not very long. Twenty minutes later he arrived at his yard.
Fizah get down first. He opened the unlocked door, then let me and Rubia come in.
"The house is very shady, yes, here" muttered Rubia.
"I've been here many times."
"Pantes. So Bu Mini already considers njenengan like his own child."
We sit.
"Rabella?" call Fizah from the door of the room that is closed.
He's in. A moment later he came out with a woman who once claimed to be named Rinai. To be honest, I still need to dig up a clearer answer as to why the two of them should keep their real names a secret.
Fizah and Ratna approached.
"He sick?" ask Rubia.
"He's limp."
"If you're weak, why don't you take a break? No need to be asked out because there is us" he said again.
They both sit.
"Who are you?" ratna asked Rubia.
"I'm Rubia."
"Nizam's girlfriend?"
"Ehmm.no."
I don't know why Ratna suddenly had a problem with that.
Suddenly there was an incoming call. Rubia's mom took her cell phone. He asked permission to lift.
"Why didn't you use your real name back then?"
They both turned tense.
"Because you are strangers" replied Fizah representing.
"But I already know you, Fizah. I had doubts about your name. I've heard stories about you from your mother a lot. How personal you are and your physical."
"The agent already knows that it's me?"
"Sir Ibban, I'm so sorry. I have to go home first, yeah. Mom and Dad have a show. I have to come. It's okay, right?"
"OKAY. I'll go home by myself. Careful, Ma'am."
"okay." He also left without greeting.
I looked back at Fizah. Right enough. She is the woman who makes me confess that Allah is All-Turning. So I had to send him the letter three times without any reply.
"Back to your question. I just suspect you're the guy I once knew. But, when you keep claiming to be named Zahra, yeah. But I just realized. Before the meeting that night, I seemed to have met you. That shirt you're wearing."
Two glanced down.
"You're wearing that shirt."
He looks confused. Then, the look on Ratna's face became frightened. He got up leaving me and Fizah alone in the living room.
"No. It seems like it's the wrong person." He answered slowly.
"I'm surprised it turns out you're the one named Fizah."
"Shocked because?"
"You're with Mini Mom. In fact, I have been here often. I look forward to this meeting. What's your problem? Where did you come from those nights? You emerged from the direction that the women in my village were forbidden to cross. Where do you work? Then, why didn't the letter I sent you reply?" I had to ask questions.
I'm happy to finally be reunited with the woman I missed the last two months. However, I felt a little awkward. As I asked him, the name withheld, the appearance of those nights, then the meeting I had not remembered where it was.
"I'm sorry if I ask too many questions. But, can you, right, explain it?"
Fizah became more confused. However, he held back the look on his face while still daring to look me deeply in the eye.
She grabbed something from her skirt.
"Here I return the letter, sir. The wrong person gave this letter to me. It would be a big mistake to consider me an amazing girl like the contents of the letter.
"Why returned?"
"The wrong people. Njenengan no longer need to look forward to any meeting with me. Sorry earlier. It is better not to come here anymore. Thanks for the offer to my two brothers."
