EXTRORDINARIES

62. Minds

You know what you're really afraid of, that's what's going to happen. And all this happens because of the mind. It all starts with the mind. So as much as I can think of things that make sense and make me happy, but I can't. Arriving at home I kept thinking about Gavin's matchmaking.

I love her, I love her, I love her voice, I love her hairstyle, I love her stiff and cranky demeanor, I love her who always smiles sweetly even once, I like him who takes what I love him. I like Gavin but why can't I have him. I now regret why I asked only to be Gavin's friend was enough, because now I can't have him.

I'd better get some sleep tonight and stop hurting my heart because of my own thoughts.

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In the morning I had met Gavin, today he was as usual, leaving when the bell rang five minutes ago and there was Ba'a with him. I was just observing from two meters away, now that I was waiting for Debi and Anggra who were buying food in the copsis, I sat down with Ersa. Today I wear glasses because my contact lens has expired and I forgot to buy, I have a minus high enough that is three point fifty. It actually seems like I don't wear anything but I don't think I'd recognize the person who greeted me if I didn't use a vision aid. When Gavin saw me, he laughed, but he turned the other way so he wouldn't look at me, like he was laughing because I was wearing glasses.

"Eh Sa, I look geeky huh?"

Ersa who was busy playing hape, saw me. "No, you're good to wear glasses because your glasses are big so your cheeks look thin."

"Yes too." Gavin who has now walked far enough still slightly turned his head back to me.

I used to say 'Until when do I see your back continue Vin? I want to see you from the front, not from the back' now if I ask to meet him yes stay to meet, if in the past when I still like it for sure when I miss just seeing the last online WhatsApp number. Time will go on and if I hadn't started it then I would be staring at that back from afar.

"Eh Sa, you think that if my hair, I'm not good color?"

"It's good that it's green." I looked straight at the source of the voice.

"Dewash!!!" You remember Awang, right?

He sat right next to me. "Hey Ersa." Sweepings.

"Loh, you know him?"

"We used to be an Junior Middle School." Answer Ersa.

The crew crossed and his head turned to me. "Hey Ru, you don't have your hair done so, hold it until the graduation announcement, right this abis we pass."

"Yes I'm just looking for a topic to discuss with Ersa, because Ersa is busy playing hape, guenya in cuekin."

The crew pushed Ersa's arm. "Hu, Ersa bucin, I think you've been talking to me."[]

Td :29 February 2020