EXTRORDINARIES

47. It means nothing

I kept smiling at him, actually not too surprised me because I already thought this day would come. "The answer must be now?" My toot.

"Yes, obligatory."

"That's very hard." I then turned my attention to the concert that was right in front of my eyes. I thought hard, on the other hand I like Gavin, just like him. But on the other side also Ba'a what do I take? I made him keep hoping for me. I reject it outright now.

"Ba'a." Call me.

"Yes, what?"

"Lo know I never did anything with Gavin?" I don't know why my mouth suddenly said something like that. It was supposed to be both of our secrets but maybe now it's public.

"Why ever?" Ask.

I'm nervous about facing this situation. "For some people it doesn't matter, but for me it's different."

"Well, what the hell are you talking about?"

"Have you ever kissed before?" My mouth really can't be conditioned, how can a girl ask a guy such a question.

He did not immediately reply just thinking for a moment. "Once, same as my ex."

"How many times?"

He thought for a moment. "Three."

"How was that first kiss?" My toot.

"Well that's it, my first kiss, Gavin's your friend, the one I like." Said directly.

At first he was ordinary but after digesting well what I said he was immediately shocked. "HUHHH?" shut up for a moment and he said it again. "HUH? REALLY DO? Where are you guys doing me? When's? How can?" Inclined his.

I finally told it. "In the school barn, he already kissed me first when I said that I would feel you, he was angry when I said that, Gavin kept saying gini 'can you stop liking me?' He's mad at me keep yingium."

His expression immediately changed. "I think I need to talk to Gavin." He stood up and invited me home.

"But Ba'a, he said it was okay if I was just as good, but the thing is I like him."

"What am I to say? What do I mean next to you now?" He was serious, there was no smile on his face.

I stood following him. I can't answer it.

"Jawab Ru, Lo must take equal responsibility for my feelings. Lo it realize I have not made me comfortable, continue to make me really like the same Lo, Lo, you keep paying attention to me and now it's all meaningless that's the same Gavin who kissed Lo?"

"Gue would have liked the same Gavin for a long time, now I facepin the same feelings as kayak gini, I was also confused."

"Lo can't like me? Ribet know? I'm going!!!" He left me.

I tried not to cry, I realized now I was wrong, I had made Ba'a expect more and more. I hurt her. I sat down again and mourned my mistake. I cried, it hurt so much when I saw Ba'a go away. I was bad with him. I'm selfish, if I think I'm gonna lose Ba'a and that's the risk.

Sometimes saying 'Yes' is a relief answer for someone and for ourselves in order not to lose that person. But we ourselves have to be able to tolerate whether with the word 'Yes' we really want it. []

Td :14 February 2020