Doctor Naura

Chapter 19 The Eye

I left a pair of eyes staring at me sharply. I want to rush into my room. Yet just now I was about to close the door suddenly one sole of a foot held him back. Bang Zamy pushed the door while I tried to throw him out.

"Go away.., Naura wants to be alone." I pushed bang Zamy out, but his strength was much stronger than mine. Bang Zamy entered, he stared at the burning room AC, then closed the door. He long went silent without a word looking at me who was crying.

"Why? Why is Naura crying?" Bang Zamy sat me on the edge of the bed, he followed me. We're face-to-face. Both of his hands were ruffled with palms clinging to both thighs.

"Any still angry?" I tried to look at him. His face was more lithe and more mature. He seriously looked at me, his eyes not even blinking for a long time.

"No. Not angry. Whatever else Naura wants to do to brother, do as you please." Bang Zamy answered quickly. He kept looking at me, and I didn't dare look at him. Although he said not angry, but from the intonation of his voice I knew that bang Zamy also harbored anger at me.

"Zamiy! Naura!" Mother's voice was heard from outside the room.

"Zamy's in Naura's room." Bang Zamy. Shortly afterwards, the door opened. Mom turned her head towards us.

"Don't make a fuss, son, talk good." I spoke while closing the door. Bang Zamy looked back at me. My tears kept flowing without a sound.

"Why is Naura crying? At the dinner table, you keep talking, now you listen to Naura talk." Bang Zamy spoke coldly. I'm staring.

"Naura is guilty, Naura apologizes to you. Please brother do not let Naura.., Naura can not stand. From yesterday Naura tried to call bang Zamy was off...." I sobbed.

"Why call brother eh?" Bang Zamy is still a judge. This is the first time I've seen him speak to me. I looked at him for a moment.

"You seek bang Zamy, apologize, for Allah's sake Naura regrets...."

"Why should I regret it? Aren't I nothing in Naura's life?" Bang Zamy talk high. I'm getting sobbing.

"Don't regret the deck, just keep treating your brother all you want. I am not your brother, I am not Naura. My brother is always wrong. This brother is a fool, heartless at all. No matter at all. Only the case brother told that Naura was not the biological child of this family to Nina with the aim that she did not expect to marry her brother, Naura without confirmation silenced brother for days, even torturing himself, and even killing himself, just eat lazy. Consider trash my apology brother." Bang Zamy stopped, he raised my chin which slowly lowered his head to hear his words.

"And yesterday you just asked to take you to Naura clinic, that's it, not to join your festive show, brother does not want to stalk wherever you go, no matter where you go, time just want to ride a car to the clinic just the reason you made it up. You know deck? You know even with mom alone, brother thinks more of Naura. But why, until the heart of Naura let brother walk to the clinic to take a car chasing a plane to Bogor. Everything's getting messed up. The director all-out swore over brother. Naura doesn't care about anything like that. Naura still wants to act alone. Always be childish. Grown up a little Naura...." Bang Zamy spoke at length to vent his heart. Her tears are spilling. Not once did I see her cry. This is the first time her sadness is unstoppable because of me.

"I'm sorry Naura bang...." I can only cry.

"Naura...." Bang Zamy held my hand. I didn't answer a bit.

"What makes you hate your brother?" Bang Zamy continued speaking, but I was only able to fall silent.

"Now to be honest, does Naura feel burdened with mother's plan to marry us?" Bang Zamy seriously looked at me. I was surprised to get that question. My eyes immediately dodged the gaze of bang Zamy.

"Did Naura think it was easy for brother?" Bang Zamy continued.

"Sir, if Naura objected to mother's plan, let brother explain it to mother. Brother can convince mother, brother will not tell the real reason if Naura does not like to brother." Bang Zamy spoke again. For a few seconds he was silent. His wet eyes did not look at me.

"Answer of Naura."

"What should Naura answer?" I stammered.

"What about bang Zamy?" I instead of answering, asked a question back. Bang Zamy suddenly turned his eyes away, for a moment he stared at the ceiling of the room. A lizard ran, moving from behind a wall clock to a large picture frame of our four childhood paintings.

"Did you?" Bang Zamy repeated my question to himself.

"Yes. What about your own opinion? Did you agree to marry me? Do you just want to obey mother's request without any feelings to Naura? Are you burdened by my presence like this?" I asked at length. Bang Zamy looked at me inside. He held my head and rubbed my hair under my ears because it was sticky to tears.

"Nauraaa.., even if the only medicine left to save your life there is only your own brother's life, brother is ready and willing to die to take your life." Bang Zamy replied. He still looks at me sharply. His hand then held my hand. I felt my own heartbeat racing faster, yet there was comfort accompanying. I felt the breath of bang Zamy, it seemed to melt the hardness of my heart all this time. It feels good to be near him. It was beautiful looking at his face. It was very quiet that my soul heard the sentence he just said. No, I no longer felt that the vibrations in my heart were the vibrations of a sister's heart to her brother. But more than that, this vibe in the soul is a new chapter of my life's romance. These vibrations in the heart as a manifestation of the sincerity of the heart of a person who longs for the beloved of the heart he loves.

"What does that mean?" I pretended not to understand Bang Zamy's answer, and slowly let go of his handrails.

"You're too honest to fool yourself Bee...." Bang Zamy replied. He was sure I understood the meaning of the sentence he was saying. I'm speechless. My trap didn't hit at all.

"Now you want to hear directly from Naura. Does Naura agree with mom's plan? What Naura is ready to live is not just as Zamy's sister, but more than that. Is Naura the new wife of Zamy?" Bang Zamy asked again. Again he looked at me inside. I was silent for a long time, confused to answer. While the vibration in the chest is increasingly becoming. There was a blissful moment when she said she was ready to be the medicine of my life. I am more than willing to marry him. I should have brought this joy to happy jumps. However, let alone jump, at this moment, moving my eyes to look into his eyes felt heavy. Shame suddenly rippled out unpredictably.

"Can we realize Bee's mother's dream? But not because of the force." Bang Zamy again asked. 'can bang, let's make it happen with the wishes of the mother, let's get married soon.' That's what I said in my heart. But what came out was a long sigh with a stiff face holding back happiness and shame.

"Honestly, my brother has loved you a lot. As we grow and mature together, sometimes it is tucked away if you are not my sister, if you are not the son of father and mother, if you are not part of my family. I love you so much from the past, it feels like it is not just a love for his sister, but a love for a soulful person. And all if the former, now changed already, the real. You're not blood on me, we're not sisters, so there's no reason we can't be in a relationship more than that." Bang Zamy let out his heart. My heart is happy again. Bang Zamy changed his sitting position. He lowered both feet to the floor and started patting his big toe with his palm. Maybe he's been tingling around too long.

"So Naura, how are you feeling now? Do you have the same taste as your brother?" Bang Zamy propped his hands back. I looked at him with all my courage.

"Come on bang.., Naura doesn't know. But for sure. Just one day brother did not give news, it felt like Naura's heart would stop beating made. 24 hours hp brother is not active as if the world of Naura was over. Abang did not know, Naura cried, went back and forth looking for a brother even to the office and clinic many times. Naura endured a deep longing.., brother did not know that Naura sangaaattt. Naura is tormented when she does not meet Bang Zamy, especially if Naura is wrong. Naura felt so empty movement of life without bang Zamy.., Naura wanted and always felt comfortable with bang Zamy...." I'm back sobbing. Bang Zamy heaved a sigh of relief. He spread out both his hands. I immediately rushed into his arms. It's cozy. It was as if all my burdens had gone. I was crying happily. Hugging this brother who loved me so much, I poured out all my longings in his warm embrace. I shed happy tears in her soothing embrace. Kumandang adhan Isya was heard from the mosque Al-Islah, accompanied by the howl of a simple dog. The night goes up, the moon and stars follow the cycle in circulation. Bang Zamy took off his embrace, he ruffled my already disheveled hair.

"Abang going to the mosque first yes.., later we talk to mother." He smiled at me.

"Zamy Bang!" I stopped his steps.

"Why? Brother won't disappear again." He's kidding.

"Hemwzzz.... Why is your wallet in Maya's house?" I can't help my curiosity.

"Ask the Maya. I forgot to." Bang Zamy passed by leaving me. Shortly after, he was in the garage. Slowly the sound of the motor bang Zamy away went towards the mosque. Mom suddenly came in.

"Let's pray son, later we eat fruit in the living room while waiting for your father and Rahman to come home." I stood hugging my mother.

"Why? His face is no longer wrinkled...." Mom pinched my cheek.

"So the cry, the innards lethargic pouting continues. Uh tape your rocking continues, a message from who is." Mother spoke without pause while pointing at my trembling hp from earlier. I'm picking it. Slowly open the whatapp message from an unknown number.

"Sorry doctor. Is doctor Zamy with the doctor? I had a hard time contacting her while my mother always asked. I don't want to take medicine if I haven't seen Dr Zamy he said. Doctors usually go home almost every day. But it's been 3 days we don't know how. Mom's worried. Sorry, doctor ma'am. I'm Nindya." I frowned reading a long piece of writing intact. In my heart I wonder. Since when did bang Zamy get to know the Nindya family. Ah, I'll ask you later. I smiled back at the message.

"Yes mbak Nindy bang Zamynya there is the same Naura, but again to the Isya prayer mosque. I'll call ya later. And don't call Naura doctor ma'am anymore. I'm your sister, just call Naura." My message was sent and read, but there was no reply.