Doctor Naura

Chapter 18 Flavors

Upon his return from aunt Mira's house, after the veil of a great secret is revealed. As per the direction of Mr. Ram who had reported the case to the authorities, the next day we followed a method of identification of trusted individuals, DNA tests. Me, Mr. Ram, Aunt Erlinda, Aunt Sofie, and Nina's doctor completed the entire standard operational examination procedure in accordance with the guidelines of the Scientific Working Group of DNA Analysis Method and the recommendations of the International Society of Forensic Genetics' DNA commission. The next day after the blood sample was taken, we received a report of the results of the DNA test, the results were appropriate, I matched and inherited the DNA of his biological father Mr. Ram with the DNA of Erlinda's mother. Just like me, Nindya is also the biological son of Mira's father and aunt. Doctor Nina is also fix as Aunt Sofie's biological child. While Mr. Bayu does not want to take a series of DNA tests. Because she was convinced without tests that Nina was not her biological child.

"Honestly, son, for some reason since you introduced Nina to the house, indeed, my mother has a vibration in the heart. There is such a beautiful taste flowing in the heart. It feels like the oxygen in your bloodstream increases when you meet you. Beautiful, comfortable just like that. Every time I see you there's a happy bang. But not in the least there's a hunch that you're mama's biological son." Aunt Erlinda hugged me while shedding tears. I cried with sadness. Come along happy after knowing who my parents really are. But deep down, it felt like something was missing too. Like a puzzle, it feels like a missing piece, and I have not found it so my happiness still feels imperfect.

"Naura was grateful to know who Naura's parents really were...." I replied to Aunt Erlinda. I feel the heartbeat of Aunt Erlinda racing more than usual. Aunt Erlinda suddenly took off my arms and held both of my shoulders.

"Naura, you're our only child." Aunt Erlinda began to talk while looking me in the eye.

"Not the only aunt, but two. Aunt two people's son. Don't ignore doctor Nina." I cut.

"Yes. Two guys. Although..., indeed from the first mama was surprised by his attitude that did not inherit our nature."

"Don't talk like that, aunt...." I cut back. I saw Nina sitting uninspired near Aunt Sofie. Contrary to the aunt Sofie who was so aggressive hugging and even kissing her daughter. Every now and then Nina's doctor turned a little unhappy looking at me and Aunt Erlinda.

"Naura...." Aunt Erlinda spoke again.

"Yes aunty...." I answered.

"Can Naura start calling mama to this despicable woman?" Aunt Erlinda was teary-eyed. I hugged him back tightly. I whisper it softly and gently.

"Naura will try aunty, although it may take more time. Let's be patient and keep everything feeling. Naura has a mother in Mentok. Naura has an older brother who all know her aunt well. Then it takes time to change everything, especially to keep Doctor Nina's heart." I take off the hug. Aunt Erlinda just nodded and smiled. He rubbed my head.

"thank you. With your mother and family, we will be a family with them. Isn't Nina going to be your sister-in-law?" Aunt Erlinda convinced herself to speak. I jerked. But trying to cover up the confusion.

"God willing." I answered.

"Naura..," Aunt Erlinda (mama) spoke again.

"Yes aunty." I quickly answered.

"Mama son." Mama corrected while pinching my cheek. I just nodded with a smile.

"Eh yes ma.., ma." Very awkward it feels to change the habits that have been attached. Nina still steals our eyes. I tried to behave appropriately even though my mother's attitude was excessive.

"When did Naura move into my mom's house? Nina already said she'd move into Sofie's house even though she told me to stay." Mom started talking seriously. I held my mom's hand.

"Let's behave like before to keep everything feeling. If Naura doesn't move into my mom's house soon, I think Nina will still be there. Please help me to be more wise. All will adjust for a while." I try to be wise. Didn't you have 28 years with Mom. Doctor Nina must have been hit. I don't want that to happen.

"Ma, Naura wants to leave first, mama don't stay away from Nina. Just be ordinary." I took off my mom's hand. Mama just nodded. He hugged me back tightly. Then after saying goodbye to aunt Sofie and doctor Nina I left the Hospital for home.

While heating the car engine I tried to call bang Fathur to tell him the news about me. But many times I tried to call bang Fathur did not answer. I called Vioni the same, no one answered. I was pounding when I tried to call bang Zamy, but the number still remained inactive. Yesterday in practice he was not replaced by Dr. Husni at the clinic. Said her nurse bang Zamy had a sudden affair. I wanted to cry, usually he would question me almost once an hour. There is no news from yesterday. I really wanted to scream with all my might. I'm starting to miss him so much. My feelings shook with tears, regretting yesterday not being with him. I took a deep breath, and then I tried to call her back, hoping she would answer like all this time, 'yes my dear Bee..., yes, my brother.' and all his calls unfortunately to me. 24 hours I did not hear his voice felt very tight chest. Why is there such a feeling. Why should there be a longing that stirs painfully. I've never experienced it to anyone. How many times close to others I have never felt such a strange, miserable vibe. Then I slowly took a breath, trying to reach him. But the number is still inactive. I call Dad, usually he'll calm me down when I'm angry, upset or in trouble. But again the father is difficult to contact during working hours. I called my mother many times and didn't pick up either. Calling bang Rahman said he was busy packing. Oh God, it feels so tormented. I tried to send a message in the jannati baiti group, but not a single reply. I finally threw my phone to the side chair in annoyance. Why doesn't everyone like compact take my call. I left the general hospital and turned towards Bhakti Timah hospital where the Zamy bang works. I'm sure he's there. With the excuse of wanting to apologize for not giving me a ride, my heart cheered to see him. I ignored my stomach that was rumbling because I had not eaten rice from morning. Just tea and breakfast bread. At 11 pm, I'm sure the schedule of the Zamy bang is usually in the womb. Arriving at Bakti Timah Hospital I went straight to the gynaecology. In the corridor several times I met colleagues who worked there. While in poly womb, I saw a notice board with a description of bang Zamy not there. Then before anyone recognized me, I immediately left poli. But on the way I met Doctor Ilham, a partner of bang Zamy who already knew me.

"Eh doctor Naura, just this morning was mentioned. How's the doctor?" Doctor Ilham greeted me. I smile nodding.

"Alhamdulillah dok. What about the doctor? What do you say to me...." I asked back.

"Alhamdulillah, this is how the condition is healthy, do not know in the future hopefully stay healthy in the middle of covid-19. Hehe...." Doctor Ilham grinned bitterly.

"Mother." I answered.

"So wonder why mention me this morning?" I hope the one who mentioned it was bang Zamy.

"Lha is on the cover of the newspaper again appears the icon of a general hospital doctor. Hehehe." Doctor Ilham teased me.

"It could be Doc." I was disappointed, they called me just because they saw the news in the paper not because bang Zamy told them about me.

"Oh, by the way, Zamy's doctor is very lucky... hehe...." Suddenly the doctor Ilham spoke again while walking.

"Lucky how does that mean?" I asked seriously by stopping the move.

"That was yesterday. He was late flying to the kemenkes meeting to discuss the precautionary measures of Covid-19 representing the director."

"Well continues?"

"Well, his sister doesn't know?"

"He hasn't told me yet."

"Doctor Zamy will fail to go, he said his car broke down, so join the meeting with the zoom application. Well this morning the doctor who was the director of Prabumulih and Gorontalo hospitals was declared dead because of covid 19. If Zamy had been to the meeting, he would have been in direct contact with them. Reportedly the directors of the hospital who were present there have been many positive results rapid testnya."

"Oh...."

"Maybe want a thank you doc, Zamynya doctor even leave after the incident." Doctor Ilham speculated. He then walked ahead of me. While I went back to thinking and tried to call bang Zamy but remained inactive. I'm disappointed again. Unsatisfied looking for him I decided to go to the clinic. But only I found Ridwan mang, he said Zamy wanted to rest neng, less healthy. I saw the car in the garage. I tried to go to the main house, there was no one. The room and kitchen were neat, the sink was dry. There's no sign of bang Zamy at home. I'm upset and disappointed. Bang Zamy might be really angry and not want to see me.

Then I called my 2 nurses at the clinic, I told them to take a 3-day break. I'm gonna take a break. I can't take it anymore. I don't know why it feels like I'm getting pissed at bang Zamy. Why the phone's been switched off since yesterday. It's really annoying.

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Finally, after packing a little clothes, I decided to go home to Mentok, it was like crying in the arms of mom while complaining about the act of bang Zamy like childhood. I drove alone, traveling 2 hours at 70 to 100 km/h while occasionally calling bang Zamy. Still not active. I'm getting more and more upset. I don't know why my heart became brutal. My brain only thinks about bang Zamy's face, his smile and his jokes. Last I remembered the call that was about to ride my car but I ignored it.

"Ah...H....!" I was upset to remember my childish actions.

Finally, after a long journey alone, I reached Mentok. A small town that has forged the warmth of our brotherhood. Mentok always reminds me of our sweet memories. The one who sent me to the right family. It was here that I was thrown away as a baby. It was here in Mentok that I spent 18 years in school. Just studied medicine plus coas and specialists outside Mentok. Back to milling memories of the past where my three brothers took turns to take me to go tutoring, teaching, to school following extracurricular activities. Ah beautiful at the time. Back to my memory when I cried so much when bang Zamy went camping. Then I escorted my mother's father to the camp and made my own tent that was far from official participants. I went camping not to be far from my dear brother, Doctor Zamy. Ah, it turns out I have indeed been so troublesome bang Zamy from childhood. But what is my reply? I refused to take her to the clinic just to keep up the prestige with aunt Sofie. Uh. I feel like I'm the worst human being ever born on earth.

I slowed down the vehicle. I heard the Ashar Adhan on the border of Mentok and Belo Laut. I've been at the mouth of Mentok city. I called the mother, she said there was another meeting on adjusting the hours of civil servants and honoraries due to the coronavirus with the Regent. I called Dad, he said, at the end of the month, I'm going home at night, and at the office there's a difference in the report, I want to finish the report first. Calling bang Rahman he said again in Kundi sub-district buying household goods. Shrimp, fish, shellfish, squid that are still fresh is indeed once a week taken from the Kundi region. I feel increasingly sane, have come all the way to Mentok from Pangkalpinang itself, uh at home also there will be no one. I took a deep breath. Is this the recompense of Allah, for I have wronged those who love me? I grumbled to myself.

***

I parked the car in the garage. I saw Bude Marni welcoming me through the side door. Just bude Marni. She's a housemaid since I was a baby. His house is right behind our house. It is limited to one hectare of empty land. Her husband is dead and she has 3 children who are all married. She lives with her youngest child. In the past if my mother did not have time I often delivered to school or teach. He's of Javanese descent, pure. The logic is never contaminated with the dialect of the domicile, Bangka language.

"O Allah is Gusti... There is a beautiful doctor.., assalamualaikum neng.." - Bude Marni. He took the suitcase I had brought.

"Waalaikumsalam bude, how's it going." I asked the woman who was so loyal to my family.

"Sae sae - sae mawon neng." He answered while entering the house. My suitcase was put on the screen to my room. While I wash my hands and wear a hand sanitizer, then approach the dining table. I saw on the stove Bude Marni cooking something.

"Budhe, until you cook nopo to?" (Budhe, what else is cooking sich?) I brought her her own royal language. Bude Marni ran up to me.

"Iki lhoo neng budhe again cook kanggo madange vegetables your brother." (This is the deck, Budhe again cook vegetables to eat your brother). My saliva started to expand in my mouth. This vegetable is our favorite. Vegetable papaya mengkal long beans, a little peanuts, shoots catu and shoots melinjo also a little baby corn. Typical Bangka cuisine hand-processed Java. Seger taste, sweet sour spicy, savory. I think bang Rahman wait one way with me to ask this vegetable same bude Marni.

"Oh.., yo wes, iku sayure lives up to neng." Budhe grinned, so did I.

"Ya Naura help lift...." I chuckle to myself. I moved that Bangka 'land spice' vegetable into a big cup. I separated a small bowl, I tasted it with a piece of fried chicken.

"Not taking a shower with the doctor? Want some warm water? Let budhe be ready." Budhe Marni massaged my shoulders. Ah it's so comfortable.

"You're gonna take a shower soon, budhe. But Naura wants to add her vegetables again...." I scooped some more vegetables into my bowl. It feels so fresh.

"Do you want hot water?" Budhe asked again.

"No need to budhe, Naura is also a bit sultry, nice cold water bath, let seger...." I answered.

"Yo wes is. Budhe wants to clean up a little bit...." Bude Marni is back with her routine. He deftly cleans used cooking pots, wiping ceramic tables, spraying kitchen drawers, wiping in the refrigerator. Tidying up the kitchen utensils, making warm tea for the mother to go home with the others. He's not counting on energy at all, from long ago. Well said neighbors who ninyinyir reasonable he diligently, because the mother paid him the same as the basic salary of ASN group 3.a.

I finished my meal, and brought a dirty bowl to the sink. Just wanted to wash it, Bude Marni held my hand.

"Biarin neng biarin do not wash let budhe shower there gih hust hust hust." He spoke without pause while pushing and patting my ass. Even he kicked me out like he was pushing push-push. Ah Budhe was Te O Pe once.

"Only 3 budhe seeds, one bowl, one glass, one spoon. Time can't Naura wash him...." I protest.

"Yes can't.... Shower there!" Bude Marni answered. I nodded, smiling towards my room. Prepare to bathe, pray Ashar and relax while waiting for mother to come home.

***

An hour more I relax in the room, occasionally go out tuning tivi, and because there is no interesting event, then I go to the room again. Finally, after going back and forth from the room tivi room and tired of driving alone from Pangkalpinang to Mentok, I finally fell asleep and momentarily forgot the sickly world.

"Nauraaa.., Nauraaaa.., Nauraaaa.., let's wake up dear Magrib prayer first. Later sleep." I suddenly felt the warm touch of the mother I had been waiting for from this afternoon. Apparently I overslept.

"Momuu...., when did you come home? Naura soybeans were waiting for mom." I squirm while hugging my mother. It was comfortable to feel the sigh of the woman who had been nurturing me since the baby. I can't compare her warmth to other women, who I must have felt so happy to be around my mother. No matter she's not my biological mother.

"Wait on mom what's the reason for driving alone?" Mom squeezed my nose and pulled my hands together so I could get up.

"Both exhaust the mother...." I nodded lazily while writhing again.

"Cock come and don't tell you first? I can ask Mang Ridwan who nganter." Mom's staring.

"Lazy ah, Naura can be independent really." I answered that whole.

"Happy mother's daughter is back again. Kirain if you've met the birth parents will forget the mother." Mom hugged me again.

"Lho's? How do you know? From whom?" Naura just wanted some news. But Naura will never change her mother and family. Mother's love and affection, father's will never be replaced." I hugged my mother even more.

"Thank you dear...." Mom hugged me again.

"Do you know who Naura met her birth parents from?" I asked again.

"There's..." Mother indifferent.

"Come on ma'am, called Aunt Sofie, right? What's aunt Erlinda?" I asked back.

"Tell me first who called mom...." I forced.

"Police."

"Police?"

"Yes. Your biological father reported everything, and the authorities directly collected evidence and other data."

"Oh...." I'm sighing.

"Have gone there wudhu and then pray Magrib will go to hunt Isya." Mother pulled me who was still lazing.

"OK Mom...." I'm budging.

"Later after mom to the kitchen yeah, we're having dinner. Your father came home late he said, Rahman is still on the street to set things up at his restaurant." Mom closed my door and left. While I go ablution, prayer and read-read the status of some friends on WhatApp and facebook. Then I tried again to contact bang Zamy, but it was still inactive as well. My heart is so sore. There is an unusual taste. I miss that one person so much. But why hpnya since I refused him to ride the car never active again. My tears came out. I hate to miss him. I threw my phone on my bed and went after my mom. But just entering the kitchen, I seemed to see a ghost, surprised, amazed, stunned to see my friend sitting at the dining table. Bang Zamy's. I looked at him, but there was no greeting like yesterday from him. Bang Zamy looked at me, flat. His reaction could not be more. He's angry, he must be angry.

"Please sit, miss...."

"Where are you going to sit in the chair of the princess?"

"Would you get me some rice, baby?" I imagine the days ago, bang Zamy always stood up when I came late to the dining room. He will lead me to sit and even serve me. From a young age, he treated me like that.

"Naura sit down, son." Mom suddenly dropped the shadow of my happiness in the past. I was still staring at bang Zamy who started scooping up various vegetables and side dishes. He ignored my presence. Mother alternately looked at me and bang Zamy while shaking her head.

"Bang Zamy's...." Like so many years ago, when regret and pity saw bang Zamy pinched mom because I complained she teased me constantly, I called her shrill. Tangisku. My tears came out. But bang Zamy did not budge at all. He didn't even look at me at all.

"Eat son, eat Naura. Your brother's starving. Eat it baby." Mom pulled my arm and sat me in the chair next to her. My tears are flowing. My chest tightened with longing and guilt. I've been looking for him since yesterday, but I haven't seen him since his hape is inactive. Now she's at my mother's house, with a flat face, indifferent and not reprimanding me at all.

"When did Zamy go to Mentok? Why was hape inactive from yesterday?" My voice shakes asking. A glance at bang Zamy looked at me.

"Eat...." Bang Zamy only said a word and then resumed eating. Mother looked at me for pity.

"Bang Zamy's. Is he still angry with Naura? Forgive Naura bang, Naura doesn't know that you're seriously going to leave in a hurry...." I started crying. Bang Zamy just kept eating. He kept quiet without paying attention to my question. I wish he was mad, slapped me, slammed a plate or something as an outburst of his angry emotions. But there's nothing like that. Just silence. Only I started to occasionally pull the nose that felt cloudy because it let out tears, then exhaled with tissue. I stood up and wiped my tears with a tissue.

"Zam!" Mom's eyes swiggled heavily towards the Zamy bang. But bang Zamy still casually enjoy the sauce 'land spice'. Several times he inhaled it with a spoon.

"Yes mom." He glanced at me. Then his hand was busy playing the hape in his left hand. Hpnya active but why contacted never active. Is it okay for my number to be blocked or for him to change new cards without telling me.

"Bang Zamy." I still whine for attention. But his left hand is so deft to play the keypad button. He was watching a fishing video on Facebook. I can hear from the voice in the video.

"Bang Zamy forgive Naura." I stood up from my seat, but bang Zamy still didn't care. Don't answer, see meun he won't. I cried leaving the dining table. Tight as this chest. I can't stand being ignored by the person I miss so much. So hurtful. Very torturous. It really hurts so much.

"Zamiy! You take care of your sister." Before entering the room I still had time to hear my mother talk to bang Zamy. I lay my body on the bed. I shed my tears on the pillow. This was the first time I felt the deepest pain. I miss the person I really miss. My chest is really tight, my eyes seem to be swollen. Sometimes it feels a little salty in the mouth because it is swallowed by tears. It's really like to go far, go to a place where there's no annoying Zamy bang. Suddenly the doorbell rang, someone came. I'll get up soon. I wish Dad had come home. I rubbed my eyes, so as not to look like I was crying. Convinced mom and bang Zamy were eating inside, I peeked out and immediately opened the front door.

"May....?" I saw my best friend from Junior High have a heavy crush on the incoming Zamy bang. Someone was waiting for him on the bike.

"Naura when is it coming? The next time I stop by, it's just for a minute. Zamy's wallet is left at home." Maya gives me the wallet and then says goodbye. The deg! The first time my heart seemed to want to be dislodged because of jealousy. Why is Zamy's bang wallet at Maya's house? And when the body turned out to lock the door, suddenly bang Zamy was behind me. I dodged it and put the wallet on the guest table, and went back to my room. Continuing my tears that had paused. The tightness in my chest is becoming more and more so because of it. I'm jealous!