dark is not always dark

heartache

That day back home from college Irene did not usually go home quickly without saying anything to me smiling was not. Let him maybe there's a need. My friends are still talking in front of the campus. 

" wah at the chat what the hell is the richness on the rame"; I said

"we want to watch it" said Joko

"watching ga ah yesterday you said you wanted to watch eh instead watch a demo person"; I said

"ah kampret nih aka watch a movie": said Joko.

"not watching people shower": I said

"oh so mas like nagintip nackal well"; said Erni while nyubit Joko

"that koq is aka aja ngarang"; said Joko

"hihihihi ga koq mas Joko son is good erni kasian not pinch"; I said.

The six of us went to the cinema in the mall near our campus distance well thought about 1 km. I, Joko, Opik Erni, Intan, and Ella. Entering our mall directly to the cinema on the 4th floor when the escalator arrived opik said to me.

"aka see that Irene is the same guy" said the opik while pointing to the floor under the escalator.

"Yes, no, no, no, no, no, no" said Joko

" hus do not accuse us carelessly hide first not to look out"; said Erni.

"this if we see Irene must be suspicious what if the Ella who told me to keep a picture of the two of them?" opik.

"Ella do you want?": I said

"we're playing detective" Ella said.

We went to the movies and Ella followed Irene. It's been a while since there's been any news from Ella. Yes finally Ella came while saying that Irene ate with that guy and went downstairs while showing a photo of them both I asked the photo to be sent via bluetooth to my phone. I tried calling Irene two missed calls. The third time just lifted.

"Hallo, where is Irene?": I said

"Dikosan nih"; said Irene

"koq came home and said no"; I said

"again not feeling well rush home this is also abis taking medicine again to sleep": said Irene

"i'm going to your boarding house": I said

"let's see you on campus tomorrow" Irene said

Dammm why Irene lied to me why Irene was like that to me. Why is it that the word repeats itself in my brain.

[qoute] "fren, I don't watch my feelings so gini because I came home well": I said

"bro already do not think to watch me pay deh": said Joko

"ga ah bro thanks for the treat but I'm so gini": I said.

"yes, the heart is on the path of patience" said Intan.

I stepped home.

the skip

At 12pm I still couldn't sleep.

I looked closely at the lyrics and meaning of this song

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade. 

If you, if you can come back, don't let it crumble, don't let it fade

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude, 

I'm sure it won't be rude, but it depends on your attitude

It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything. 

Makes me sad, messed up everything

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.

I promise you, I promise you'll be better, so will you, baby, 

So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand? 

So why are you holding his hand? is that how we're together?

Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you? 

By lying all the time? you think it's a game?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. 

But love, you know I'm stupid enough for you

You got me wrapped around your finger, 

You got me entangled in your arms, you,

Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, 

Should you snare me for so long?

Should you snare me for so long?

Oh, I thought the world of you.

Oh, I thought we lived together. 

I thought nothing could go wrong,

I don't think there's gonna be any trouble 

But I was wrong. I was wrong.

I was wrong, I was wrong 

If you, if you could get by, try not to lie, 

If you. if you can change, to be honest

Things would not be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used, 

It won't be this complicated and I won't feel so meaningful

But you always really know, I just wanna be with you. 

But you always knew, I just wanted to be with you

It makes me even more confused to change the song ah Forever and One Helloween

What can I do? Will I be getting through?

What can I do? Can I go through all this?

Now that I must try to leave it all behind

Because now I have to leave everything behind

Did you see, what you have done to me?

You know what you did to me?

So hard to justify, slowly it's passing by

It's hard to keep up, slowly everything passes

Forever and one, I will miss you

I will always miss you

However I kiss you, yet again

No matter how I kiss you, but

Way down in Neverland

Only in fantasy

So hard, I was tryin'

I'm trying so hard

Tomorrow, I'll still be cryin'

Tomorrow, I'll still cry

How could you hide your lies, your lies?

How can you hide your lies, your lies?

Here I am, seein' you once again

I'm here now, seeing you again

My mind so far away

My mind flew far away

My heart is close to staying

My heart is so close

Too proud to fight

Too proud to fight

I'm walkin' back into night

I went back through the night

Will I ever find someone to believe?

Will I find someone to trust?

Could it be because of my old music taste Irene turned away from me noaaaaaaak...

I replaced my BBm DP with a photo of Irene holding hands with the guy.. How could you hide your Lies, your Lies.. I turned off my HP and tried to close this eye with a thousand questions.