dark is not always dark

collegetime

it was the darkest day I think I was standing here watching the body of a very dear person one last time. I'm just a regular guy I cry like almost everyone here. 

Many times I've seen Rini's mother pass out looking at her son's funeral. I felt the same I could not say what many condolences from my friend many advice that I be patient, unable to make me get rid of this sadness, pain, and loss.

the funeral was over Rini's father took me home I shook my head I still want to be here I don't know to continue this step. They left only Deni and Indri by my side. Still imagining the face of Rini last time I saw her, the smell of her hair scented her perfume. Oh my God how I went on without him.

I sat down for a long time. Indri and Deni took me home. 

I went to Rini's parents and I'm sorry I couldn't prevent Rini's departure. Only Rini's father can answer the same apologies if there is a mistake Rini . Rini's mother was dissolved in grief.

My steps let me walk without direction. Adan Isya said I saw a small mosque there were some people who wanted to pray after taking ablution I participated in congregational prayer. finished praying I prayed a thousand feelings of sadness and guilt I expressed do not feel these tears shed. Suddenly a father came up to me and asked why I was crying I told him about my vision and the death of Rini I told him also my guilt could not prevent Rini from leaving and I felt the nose was useless.

"son don't blame yourself, if you love him you have to let him go maybe he's in a better place now. Your vision is a blessing you can help people but there is a destiny that can be changed. We can only respond to fate what because of that destiny we become disbelieved because we do not like God's decision of destiny or become a person who fears because the occlusion accepts God's decision. You have tried to pray now is the time to accept the reality of life pray for him to be accepted by the Lord given happiness in nature there. We cannot question God's decision but later we will be asked about our attitude to God's decision or destiny."

I'm a little relieved.I thank you for your advice and advice. I'm asking permission to go home. I came home feeling a little relieved. Before I go to bed I pray for Rini and then I go to sleep.. In my dream I saw Rini smiling happily.. Goodbye Rini I hope you're happy there

College started, I became a student. originally I just wanted to take D1 now so D3 because several times I got a small project that is painting in school tk gambae cartoon picture until painting for home decoration. I'm pretty sure I'll save enough to get a D3.

I started making new friends. There is Joko who is pretentious, there is Opik who likes to joke, there is Supriatna called the most calm supri. In my class there are only 3 cw Irene the most beautiful, Goddess and Maya who is very coquettish.

With college I was able to reduce Rini's sense of loss.

Joko kos next to the special cosan cw he said to often see beautiful cw. Aki and Opik often hang out in Joko's kosan. Until we were familiar with one of the residents of kosan cw. Her name erni sweet white guy a little chatty.

Actually Joko has a crush on Irene but Irene rich does not like Joko. Irene in the classroom sitting next to me. Maybe he likes sitting next to me because I never tease him.

That day I finished college, it just happened to be noon and there were no other eyes. I'll hang out at my cafe and Deni's.

"Do you want to go straight home?" said Irene.

"ga I want to see you": I said.

"may follow ga I lag bt": said Irene.

"sure to come along, yes if you're sure anyway": I said.

Irene and I took the angkot to my cafe. Once there Deni Belim came. I went in and sat down at our usual place. I'm out hp bbm Deni where is he.

"it's not wrong that you're pink" said Irene

"ga is" I said.

Once I was in a bbman angkot with Deni your son in front of me laughed a little at my pink hpku.

Soon came Deni, Indri and Amat.

"wey how are we doing bro healthy": said very.

"it's healthy to see it rarely" I said.

"ordinary college kids are busy hahahaha": words are very.

"This is your new boyfriend you know donk" said Indri.

"that's not where I'm pretty, this is Irene my classmate": I said.

Then Irene met my friend.

My phone reads there's a text coming in from my sister.

"you can not escape Rini yes aka.": said Indri

I just shook my head

"You should replace that phone because every time you see it let alone the wallpaper Rini photo you will want to continue": said Indri.

"it's Indri let alone later time aka can move on he must move on" said Deni.

" gini ka me and Deni want to make a clothing distro, especially T shirt you want to help the design of the T Shirt about the payment there must be while still serious maybe still small.: said Amat

"don't think about my payment first that matters the way": I said.

"means deal well, all of us we want to walk this weekend to villa ortu Amat you want to come along?" deni said.

"follow it" I said.

"irene wants to come?" indri

"what can I come with": said Irene

"can the car still fit this": said Deni

"Irene sure you want to come?"say

Irene nodded. 

"yes Saturday gather again here at 2 pm okay" said Deni

"get ready boss":kataku.

skippers

day of departure . We met at the cafe. We ordered food for the walk I saw Indri was familiar with Irene. We leave at 3pm walking. Deni drove Indri's car sitting in front of Amat and lia in the middle, me and Irene in the back.

"iren would your parents let you go?": I said.

"my port is out of town I'm boarding here" Irene said

"why are you invited by Joko koq?": I said.

"i'm evil I don't like to be teretin Joko still like to say hello from Joko": said Irene.

"Sorry, "I said.

Almost magrib we took in the villa. We got out of the car and took our luggage to the villa in the wild villa you were greeted by mang ujang who guarded the villa.

I saw Irene staring at the big tree in the Villa yard. We entered the villa.we cleaned our luggage. Indri kedapur made coffee for us Amat and Lia talked outside with Mang Ujang. 

"What did you see Irene outside?" I said.

"what am I not seeing?" said Irene.

"what did you say I know you can see the supernatural".

" aka koq you know": said Irene

"i can feel the figure on the tree, and I can feel your energy when I see the creature" I said.

"you don't know why I'm sitting next to you when in class I feel different about you but I can't figure it out" Irene said.

"you are sitting next to me because you have a crush on me" I said.

" huuu GR": said Irene

" if you don't have a crush tomorrow you sit with Joko aja ya": I said..

"aka evil": said Irene pinching me.

I remember when Rini used to like to pinch me.