CAKA (Love Me Because of God)

Chapter 11 (Why love hurts this much )

Nayla who was already dizzy listened to Jefri and Andri's debate, trying to close her eyes and ears.

"Nay, you are horrified by yourself that Andri cannot accept you to be his sister-in-law, even Andri tries to take you from me," said Jefri who whined like a child, but Nayla didn't care about it at all.

"Since when a delinquent like Kak Jef behaved like an adorable cat in front of Nayla" Andri said.

Nayla who already felt soy sauce, actually fell asleep with a sitting position on the sofa.

"Nay, are you really sleeping?" jefri asked, trying to shake Nayla's body.

"Sister, don't bother Nayla, sorry Nayla must be a soybean. It's best if Brother Jef moves Nayla into Andri's bed only_" Andri's words are interrupted, because Jefri immediately snapped Andri.

"What do you mean you told me to move Nayla to sleep with you?"

"Sister Jef misunderstood, meaning Andri let Nayla sleep in bed, Andri sleep on the sofa with Brother Jef."

"No need, let Nayla sleep on my thighs only," said Jefri, then lay Nayla's head on her thigh, of course Andri who saw all that again felt tightness in his chest.

Why does love hurt? back when Nayla and I were dating, we were just holding hands, and Nayla was always standing over her, but now, I have to see Nayla in the arms of another man and that person is my own sister, andri said in his heart with tears.

Andri decided to turn his back on Jefri and Nayla, because he was no longer able to see all that.

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Nayla awakens in the middle of the night, and Nayla decides to go to Mushola because she has not yet performed the Isya Prayer.

"Mas Jef's pity, his thighs must have hurt because I had made a pillow, and Mas Andri must have been sad to see me sleeping on Mas Jef's thigh," muttered Nayla who saw Andri sleeping with her back to Nayla and Jefri, then Nayla stepped into Mushala with an uncertain feeling.

Nayla is currently in a dilemma, as she is already caught between two men who are equally meaningful to her. On one side was Andri whom Nayla loved, and on the other side was Jefri who was already her Husband, and now Nayla already had a affection for Jefri, even though that affection still can not be interpreted Nayla.

Nayla said her do'a in the third night after she finished performing the Isha and tahajud prayers, she is currently asking for forgiveness because she still can not be a good wife for her husband, who is not a good wife, and Nayla also asks for the best for her life.

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Jefri was shocked because when he woke up, Nayla was not there beside him.

"Where is Nayla, did she run away because Andri and I just kept arguing?" jefri gumam.

Jefri tries to find Nayla into the bathroom, but she does not find Nayla there, until Jefri decides to search for Nayla to Mushola.

"Maybe Nayla went to Mushola, she wasn't praying Isya yet, I'd better find Nayla there, Andri's sleeping, so I don't have to take care of her, either," jefri said by stepping foot towards Mushola.

Jefri felt tightness in his chest when he saw Nayla who was saying do'a while crying.

"I know that you're crying because you feel tormented having to go through the household with a man you don't love Nay, but I'm asking for a minute to be able to stay close to you, because when you're with you, when you're with me, I feel loved and appreciated, and I never got any of that from anyone but you before" Jefri muttered in tears.

Jefri was surprised by the tears that suddenly dripped on his cheeks, because it had been a long time since Jefri had never cried.

"Why am I shedding tears for a woman I just met? I haven't cried for a long time, even as I remember, the last time I cried when I saw my parents separated" Jefri said.

Nayla felt calmer after pouring out all her heart through the do'a that she prophesied to the divine presence of the rabbi, then Nayla decided to return to Andri's nursery.

"Astagfirullah, Mas Jefri just ngagetin," said Nayla, but suddenly Jefri hugged Nayla's body tightly.

"Mas Jefri why?" asked Nayla who was astonished.

"I'm afraid of Nay, I'm afraid of losing you" Jefri replied with tears streaming down his cheeks.

"Why does Jefri talk like that? I'm sorry that Nayla went to Mushola didn't ask Mas Jefri for permission, because Nayla couldn't have woken up Mas Jefri who was fast asleep."

After feeling calmer, Jefri let go of his embrace to Nayla.

"Yes, we should go to Andri's treatment room now" Jefri said, holding Nayla's hand.

"Did Jefri cry?" nayla asked with tears on Jefri's cheek.

"Where may I cry, I'm just flickering" replied Jefri, who was embarrassed to admit it to Nayla.

"Nay, do you still love Andri?" ask Jefri.

"Why is Jefri still asking that question? nayla had already answered Mas Jefri's question."

"Do you want to marry Andri?" ask Jefrey again.

Nayla breathed in roughness several times, as she could not answer Jefri's question honestly, however, she did not want to hurt the man she had become her husband.

"Is that important to Mas Jefri? can't we just not talk about massalu?"

"That's all important to me, Nay, and I want to know everything."

"Everyone in this world would want to marry the person he loves, but if we do not match with the person we love, what can we do? because the soul mate, life and death of man is the destiny of Allah SWT.

Jefri is well aware if he is very far when compared to Andri seen in any aspect as well.

"Nay, I feel unworthy of you, and I am not comparable to Andri who is much better at everything when compared to me."

"Mas Jefri must not say that, no one knows the content of one's heart, because only God knows all that. During this time Nayla always prayed that Nayla be given the best mate, and maybe Mas Jefri is indeed the best match given by Allah SWT for Nayla."

"Nay, you don't entertain me, where maybe a delinquent like me is better than a young entrepreneur like Andri" Jefri said with a smile, because Nayla's words were always wise and never demeaned Jefri.

"I always pray that Allah SWT immediately open the door of guidance for Mas Jefri" said Nayla with a soft tone.

Nayla and Jefri are now in front of Andri's treatment room, when Jefri opens the door, Nayla tells him to slow down.

"Mas slowly open the door, pity Mas Andri if you wake up."

"No, you still think about Andri" Jefri said, but Nayla was silent, because she did not want to argue with Jefri.

When Nayla and Jefri enter Andri's treatment room, Andri awakens.

"Nay, where have you been? I thought you left me" Andri said with eyes that looked swollen from crying.