
I looked at my wife's face still. His eyes still look swollen. Yeah, it's all because of me. I wanted to give him a special surprise, instead of getting him hurt so deeply. Not only that, he was almost wretched because of the ridiculousness I did.
Acting alone could make him so hurt, what would happen if I really left?
Why would he believe that I just changed, you idiot! I didn't even have the thought of leaving him for a second. Just having dinner with him for a few nights has made me so nervous. Even I almost ruined it all because I couldn't bear to spend dinner with him. Good thing Vera and Mami always prevent.
"Darling, I swear I won't leave you." I tried to whisper in his ear. Rubbing her face, stroking her hair, then kissing her forehead while she is unconscious is very happy.
He was so innocent while sound asleep. There is no pain and suffering. My woman is so worried about our marriage. The requirements of Papi to approve our marriage, it seems, have not produced any signs. My woman is so scared.
And me? whatever I will fight to keep my wife. Fuck the Papi threat.
"But give another year for you to have children soon. If not, you should marry Papi's chosen woman!"
Being devoted to parents does not mean passing the boundaries of religious law, right? for me right now, my main responsibility is my wife. It's funny that I had to divorce Mahira just to get a child from another woman.
For me, happiness is not just having offspring. It is possible that according to God, not having children is best for me and Mahira.
Know that Mahira and I will not take care of our son. Although feel capable, but the child is the direct trust that God gives.
"Ehmm." Mahira squirms. Give me back his body and then give me a hand. "Come, bobo, Mas."
"Yes, baby."
Looking at his face can make you forget about time. Like this time, without me knowing the time has shown at two in the morning.
"Come here." I pulled her head slowly, then let my chest be a cushion for her to fall asleep.
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"What?" I was so surprised to get a call from Mami. I got word this morning that Nek Laila is dead.
I was still in bed looking for my woman. "Honey .. dear ..." I went out and looked for my wife.
"Bi, where's my wife?"
"So go, Den."
"This morning?"
"It's eleven, Den."
I'm looking around for the time marker in this house. That big tall thing was behind me apparently.
"Geez!" I'm massaging my forehead. Without taking a shower, and just brushing my teeth and washing my face, I immediately rushed towards the rainy city.
"Why don't you wake me up? where he went too. My woman was really annoying one time. Good thing baby."
I chattered all the way. My heart is saddened by the passing of Nek Laila, but my thoughts are always with my women. Ahh, she has been reflecting on me apparently.
"Maybe I have to eat a lot of moringa leaves. Uh, that's for a run-down. Jeez, Aldo! Nek Laila is dead. Stop thinking about Mahira for a moment." I still cursed myself.
Arriving at the foundation, so many cars there. Certainly is.
Nek Laila is like a mother to Mami. So it was natural that when Nek Laila left, many of Mami's colleagues would come forward.
Not to forget, the front before entering the foundation area, there is a health protocol examination first.
When I finished, I immediately ran to the back. The first goal is to find Nek Laila's body.
"Mommy ...."
"Al." My mother greeted me with hugs and tears. I patted Mami's back gently. Trying to calm her down even though I myself was very sad.
"Grandmother is being bathed, Al. Let's just wait here."
"Yes, Mi."
I asked Mami to sit in a chair. Mami's friends came and said condolences. Not shaking hands with each other, just talking from a distance of two meters.
Like the body in general. After being bathed, drained, then immediately deliver to the final rest. As a tribute for the last time, I descended directly into the burrow, received Grandma's body, and put her to sleep.
This heart is sore. The events of that time are repeated again. It was my best friend, and now it's my best friend's grandmother. They both left this world. Ah, if there is no current Mahira accompanying me, maybe I will be very devastated.
Now, I fell silent lamenting the mound of red earth that was still wet. The smell of flowers is so thick. I rubbed Grandma's belly button as if it was her face.
"Aldo apologizes, Grandma. Aldo wasn't there when grandma left. In fact, it's been a long time since Aldo's been visiting."
"Mr, good-bye. Grandma was calm there. Aldo will always love Grandma. Al-fatihah ...."
It's hard to leave Grandma in the ground. That regret was so strong the last time he asked to meet, but I couldn't grant his wish.
Now, even I can no longer meet him despite how much I want and try.
It's true what people say. We will truly feel lost when they can no longer be with us. They mean after they're gone. The longing that will be very painful is the longing for those who are not in this world.
My phone rang as soon as it got in the car.
"Yes, baby." Overshipped.
"It's okay. Where are you now?"
"Well at home. My mother, who is patient. This might be the best thing for Grandma. Mas must be sincere so that Grandma can lightly step. Let him go quietly."
"Yes, honey. I just ... I'm sorry I wasn't with him at the last moment."
"It's all God's will, Mas. We have to legowo. Pray for Grandma to lay her grave down."
"Yes, baby."
"When will I go home? want to know it there?"
"Yes, after that, I'll be home."
"Be careful, Mom. Don't be so sad, pity grandma."
"Yes. I'm strong, really. If you were here."
"Sorry, Mas. I didn't feel well this morning, I wanted to wake you up but you were good. So I went to the doctor myself."
"You sick?" The sadness was gone when I heard my woman was sick. "I'm coming home now. Don't go anywhere."
"Mas, I'm fine. Just not feeling well. The doctor also does not give medicine, only vitamins. Just be there first. Not good with family."
"But ...."
"I'm fine, Mom. Don't worry, yeah. Love U."
"Love you too, honey."
Mahira. I miss you, baby. Hearing his voice does not necessarily long as it has not met for many years. I really fell deeply in love with my wife.
Tahlilan is held after Isa prayers. Let's not take it he said.
Almost an hour later the event took place. As soon as I finished, I told Mami and Papi to go home immediately.
"Why rush. The one who died was your grandmother!" No yelling, slow but full of pressure. I know, Papi doesn't like me going to meet Mahira.
"Mahira is sick. He's alone at home."
"He's a big one."
I don't know. Why Papi is like a child .... Never mind.
"Aldo knows, because there's no way she'd be Aldo's wife if she was a kid! after all, what else should Aldo do here? there's no?"
"Don't forget! just one more year."
"Aldo doesn't care. For twenty years, Aldo would leave Mahira for no one, including Papi."
"Oh, is that what it looks like? do you want, all the facilities you Papi took?" Papi yells. The guests who were still present stared at each other and watched the two of us.
"By pleasure, Pi. Just take all. Aldo doesn't need any of that."
"Brazed kid!"
"What more insolent with a father who teaches his son to betray his wife? what kind of education is that? what if that woman was Vera? would Papi be willing for Vera to be treated like that?"
"Vera is different. She's an honorable woman and will always be respected by men."
"Vera and Mahira are the same. They're human!"
"Udah, no! shame on seeing so many." Yanwar's brother approached.
"The more Papi forbids, the stronger Aldo will maintain. Remember, Pi! we have the same character."
"Bad! just for the sake of that lowly woman, we dare to oppose Papi?"
"He's my wife! not a lowly woman!" I'm getting higher and louder. It was hot when my woman was insulted like this. If he wasn't Papi, I would've beaten him all out.
"Already, Al. If you want to go home, hurry up. It's already night. Kasian your wife is waiting for you." Yanwar's brother pulled my hand towards the car.
Brak!
I slammed the car door upset. No matter what Yanwar is out there.
I accidentally stepped on the gas with the brakes and clutch locking. Papi will definitely be upset to hear the noise of a noisy car exhaust.
"Try to separate if you can!"
I looked at Papi's face which looked so upset from the rearview mirror.
Dear. I'll be home soon.
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