Buying Wife

part#59

After the magrib, I'll sit on the prayer mat. Not a thought, but silence. There was so much I wanted to tell Him until I forgot where to start.

A lot of problems are too complicated for me to solve. Until I sighed more by saying the phrase istighfar. Tears are unrelenting. Confused what to say, but I'm sure God knows everything. I just want him to embrace me and see me right now. How my heart is so tired.

Tok tok tok tok

I didn't answer anything. Even if it's Aldo, I don't care. Let him see what I'm like now.

"Neng, auntie's in, yeah!"

I was silent and did not answer. Still busy with your own feelings. Several times Bi Tuti knocked on the door and asked for permission to enter, as long as I was silent without reply.

Not long after, someone opened the door. The money was piercing the nose. With the perfume I like.

"Ra, why don't you answer Bi Tuti? I'm worried you're why."

"Is that?" I half mocked. Aldo sat on the bed behind me.

"We're having dinner outside, yuk."

I shook my head. Refusing.

"Loh, why? we haven't been together in a long time."

"Dinner, huh? is it mandatory?"

"Yaaa, I don't know. I just want us to have dinner together tonight outside. What's wrong?"

"The wrong thing is ... They put unimportant precedence and ignore obligatory."

"What obligations am I neglecting? all this time the battery meets all your needs, right?" tanyanya flat.

"Have you ever asked me, am I okay, Mom?"

"Oh my goodness. We'll live in one house, bobo one mattress under the same blanket. Why should I ask you how you are? people I can see for myself."

"Can you see me now, Mom?"

"could. You're thinking after the magrib prayer. Then?"

"I'm not okay, Mom." I turned around and looked at him, perhaps as if I was pitying, waving or begging him to understand.

Her face was like a shock and probably felt bad as soon as I saw my face that was wet with tears. In fact, I feel my eyes are swollen.

"Yes, I'm sorry if it's not sensitive. Instead, I'll invite you to eat out tonight, yuk. We're traveling around town looking at the night view. How's it?"

"Mahira .. Come on, dong. I was hungry because. Anyway, I don't want to eat if you don't want me to eat out."

Oh God, if only I could, I want him to be a chilli and I'm an uleg right now. Astagahhhh ....

With resignation and also angry at the same time, I took off my face and changed clothes.

"Well, that's dong. Why not from earlier? I've been waiting for him a long time."

"Oh my goodness, my. You–"

"Udah, I'll have no appetite anymore."

Aldo walked ahead of me. Not as usual. He never let go of my hand if we walked. But now? even this time he didn't open the door for me. I miss when he protects my head if he wants to get in the car. Putting on her seat belt for me and asking for a kiss on her cheek as a reward for being so good to me. This time I felt like I was with someone else.

Along the way Aldo hummed ria. No matter what tears come back. He didn't even ask me why I was crying. Whereas, Aldo would always panic at seeing me like this, first.

"Maas ...."

"Hm."

"Are you in love?" ask me when your car has gone far enough.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Is there any other woman besides me in your life?"

"Maybe. Because I can't live with one woman. What else right now, I need entertainment and also a woman who can calm me down. We both know the current situation, right?"

Yep. I know, you are feeling desperate in waiting for the presence of a baby. Does it have to be like this? aren't there still a lot of women out there hanging like me?

"Mas ..." I'm back. Cry broke.

"You shouldn't ask, so you won't hurt. Now, we're gonna meet somebody. Perhaps for now, it is he who is able to ease the turmoil in my heart."

"What is he ...."

"Yes! she's the woman I mean" she said without feeling guilty. Staring at me cynically. A look I've never seen in a while.

DEG!

O God, take away the penalty of sin for suicide. I want to do it right now. Please.

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