BUDUBYNSITTERS

BUDEK PERMANENT

No matter how long we were on the road because the traffic jam was inevitable, I continued to restlessly sit in my chair with my mouth that kept on babbling and praying that Bella could patiently wait for me, and so the confusion hit, I'm the first to go through something like this and damn not know what to do.

after arriving in Jakarta I immediately stopped the taxi and asked the driver to take me to the hospital which was not far from the apartment owned by my boss.

only the cries of interconnected babies could be heard filling the place that welcomed my arrival, I carefully opened the door and found that everyone in the room was just looking down and giving concerned looks at me and the baby.

"Dok mbak Bella why" I asked accompanied by tears.

"Please come with me first" said the doctor, whose name is Kadri

"But doc mbak Bella" The doctor ignored my words and kept his feet out of the room mbak bella and with a heavy heart I followed him anyway.

The doctor told the chronology of the arrival and explained the state of Bella's mother at that time, without a word I could only sob with a sense of sadness that filled the heart, so painful it felt to hear the struggle of Bella's mother so far, so far, bella came to the hospital alone, only with an identity card, ATM card and equipment herself and the baby.

Bella succeeded in giving birth to both but lost the battle due to exhaustion and severe bleeding that eventually took her life.

Bella gave birth to a pair of twins, one son and the other daughter, these two babies are so adorable but dear to his own father like not to know the narratives of these two innocent babies.

I had to call who else, because I didn't really know the origin of Bella's family, which I knew Bella was only four, but only four, two domestic assistants and dimas without interference both sides of their family.

I often met with Dimas' parents in the office but again my careless attitude made me foggy at crucial times like this, the proof is that I have no contact between Dimas' parents or Bella's parents and the last option is to contact the father of these two babies, it's very difficult to contact Dimas.

The habit of the devil during meetings and busy is to turn off the gadget so that no one can interrupt his activities, he said,

I don't know how many times I've called and there's no sign that the number owner will answer my call with persistence I'm calling astrit.

 however, the devil had to be involved in the lives of his two children until 9pm when Astri answered the phone call and let me talk to the bastard.

in our conversation, I said

"cheek, you're too much to go home and forget about today"

"forget it?, even to death I will never forget if even animals are better than you motherfucker" I said again still with raging emotions.

"mahaldica calista watch your words" she snapped to me.

"ahahahaha" my joke but not a happy laugh but a scorn for him, after being satisfied I again said "then what is the most despicable name that suits you, sir?"

"mahaldica" he snapped once again

"i don't want to know now come and take responsibility for your actions before I spread this out" I threatened to return

"you dare me" he threatened

"obviously, you're not a determinant of heaven and hell so what should I fear about the devil?"

"..." now there is no rebuttal sound, which is heard now the sound of calm breathing then not satisfied it feels suddenly the connection is cut off and finally the number mbak astrit already can not be connected anymore.

I'm sure that guy has destroyed the latest advanced gadget that has just been cast as an astrit but what do I care.

I stared at that peaceful face, before me the two unnamed babies fell asleep after drinking formula milk.

they fell asleep so peacefully, seeing them my heart immediately warmed but my tears could not stop the pain, grief and disappointment once filled my mind.

I remember the old me and now have to be near Mbak Bella and twins, the shadow of my past again looks real before the eyes.

I used to suffer from being unwanted by anyone, and it also happened to Bella's children, they had to be born without a mother who was the source of her life, and gave her affection, it was also so terrifying to be in this world without anyone wanting their presence.