Bismillah I Chose You

Part 25 | Phrases of Heart

بِسْمِ اللّٰهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْم

"If love has not been present in your heart, at least give me a chance even if only to melt the ice of your heart."

Farhan

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Day after day, the household that Farhan and Shandra lived in was gradually beginning to show meaningful change. Both have begun to accept each other's presence. Farhan also began to show her concern and sympathy, making Shandra feel a little more comfortable being next to her husband. Not much different Shandra was not so cold and indifferent to Farhan. A pretty significant advance.

"Shan today you don't go anywhere, Mamah wants to come here" Farhan said before he left for the office.

Shandra nodded her head in understanding, and took her husband's hand to salute. "Be careful." Farhan peeped at his wife's forehead and left immediately after saying his greetings first.

The words of Shandra that seem very simple, it sometimes managed to make his heart act in there. Yes, like this morning Shandra who only said those two words, but has managed to make Farhan's mood beautiful and flowery. It seems like he fell in with his own words saying that he would not love his older wife. But in fact, now he is like being drunk by his wife who is still shy of cats.

Thinking of his wife Farhan's smile dimmed slightly. He remembered his conversation last night with his wife, while sitting relaxed and chatting lightly in the living room.

"If I love you how?" farhan asked with a heart palpitations that were already crazed.

Shandra slightly stiffened with a look of disbelief. "Joking you're not funny" he said in a slightly nervous tone. Didn't her husband say a while ago that he wouldn't talk about love and feelings? Why now another.

"Gue seriously, Shan," the man firmly held his wife's hands in cold sweat.

Shandra let go of her husband's gentle grasp. "It was getting late, I was sleepy, too" he said, who immediately stepped wide into the room.

Tittt...

The sound of the car horn behind him woke Farhan from a long daydream. His eyes glanced at the lights that had now turned green, it turned out that he was too cool to struggle with daydreams.

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Fatimah had arrived at the residence of her son and daughter-in-law, waiting in the middle room because the son-in-law was making drinks. She is grateful that her choice to match the son turned out to be the right decision, Shandra is so respectful and good at pleasing her heart even with just small things.

"Please, Mah sorry there are only drinks," said Shandra after putting a glass of warm sweet tea on the table.

"Tamung seneng you finally did not become separated," he said as he stroked the back of the daughter-in-law's hand.

Shandra smiled faintly and said, "Shandra's happy if Mamah's happy." Fatimah loved her only daughter-in-law more and more, she cupped the face that was always slab and flat. "You should be happy too, dear."

The twenty-five-year-old woman over was just nodding with a faint smile. "What did Mom come here for?" ask without hesitation and hesitation. He was very close to Fatimah.

"Mamah just wants to see Mamah's favorite daughter-in-law," said the middle-aged woman after drinking one upright tea, "all Mamah also want to see the future grandson of Mamah. Who knows if he is here," he continued, gently stroking the son-in-law's flat stomach.

Shandra gulped her saliva with great difficulty, even she held her breath as long as the hand of the in-laws was still on top of her queen stomach. His feelings were completely wrong, but it was the feeling of unease and guilt that was so dominating. Moreover, when her in-laws chanted a prayer of hope that she would soon become pregnant. It felt like both of Shandra's eyes were already heating up, she was already not strong anymore. "I'm sorry Shandra, Mah," she said with a single tear.

Fatimah who was looking down and still faithfully stroked the stomach of the daughter-in-law looked up and looked at the confused face of her daughter-in-law who had begun to tear. "What's wrong with you, honey?" he asked, erasing both corners of the son-in-law's eyes, "did Mamah hurt you, son?" Shandra shook her head weakly and tightly hugged her in-laws body.

Fatimah returned her daughter-in-law's embrace and gently stroked the daughter-in-law's back lovingly. "Don't cry, Mamah does not demand you to immediately give grandchildren. Forgive Mom for offending you and hurting you. Mama dear to you, Mamah will not demand much if you and Farhan decide to delay the baby," he said softly and sincerely. Now he understood why his daughter-in-law was crying. There was no intention to interfere in the household affairs of his son and daughter-in-law. He does not demand much if indeed Shandra and Farhan still want to enjoy togetherness. But it turns out that the action has hurt the son-in-law, the guilt is starting to come to the surface. Especially when looking at the tears in both corners of Shandra's eyes.

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Farhan, who had just returned from the mosque after performing the congregational prayer, looked at the astonished wife who had entered the room, not as usual. But she did not get dizzy and immediately went into the bathroom to change clothes.

"Sleep well, I love you, Shan." Farhan's words right next to Shandra's ears made the woman's body stiffen violently. She has not slept, she just wants to avoid her husband, because honestly her feelings are not necessarily direction, and a little distance with the husband seems to be the best choice.

"Gue know you'll never be able to bale my feelings, but no papa. I'm sincere, maybe this is balesan for me because I used to like playing with the hearts of many girls, and now I know the pain itself. Thank you, Shan because you made me aware and can appreciate women," said Farhan who made Shandra's heart feel torn. All day long she has hurt her father-in-law and husband. Why did he hurt those who had given him sincere affection?

"I'm sorry, Mom. I cannot give you happiness, my presence only makes your life filled with sadness" said Shandra with a position that still turned her back to her husband. She could not bear to see the disappointed look on her husband's face.

Farhan was surprised, because it turned out his wife had not slept and was surprised again when he saw a sad face with clear liquid in both corners of the wife's eyes. He hurt his wife. "I'm sorry for the boldness of my heart that has dared to love you. I'm sorry, Shan."

Shandra shook her head weakly and turned around to face her husband and then looked at her husband's bead eyes while saying, "I should apologize because until now I have not been able to reply to your feelings. I'm sorry."

Without Farhan's permission, Farhan brought his wife's body into his warm arms. Directing the wife's head to comfortably lean against the chest of her field, Farhan deliberately piled his chin on the head of the wife. "Gue won't make you feel me, but I will try to make your heart melt so you can accept and love me wholeheartedly, loe," he said that gently stroked the top of the head of the wife who was still wrapped in khimar.

▪To be continue▪