Bismillah I Chose You

Part 21 | Meaning?

بِسْمِ اللّٰهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْم

"It is not good to regret what has happened, because it will only damage yourself. Our job is to live with all our heart."

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Finally the very time Farhan was waiting for him, now he was allowed to go home and breathe fresh air. Free from the room which made him quite fed up and bored. A beautiful arch on his lips never faded, because the wife who was always beside him.

"Have everything been done?" ask Firdaus who just appeared behind the door of the room. Fatimah, Farhan, and Shandra nodded in response. He had just returned from a business trip, and as a form of guilt for his wife, children, and son-in-law he took the time to pick up his son's return.

"Yes let's go home," he asked as he took over the bag tote by his son-in-law. "No need, Pah. Let Shandra take her," Shandra refused to feel bad.

Firdaus shook his head with a smile. "No papa, you better help Farhan alone," he said, making the two corners of the son's lips were widened.

"Come, Mah," he continued, holding the wife's friendly hand. Walk in front of his son and daughter-in-law.

Farhan followed the way his father treated his mother and said, "Come on Sweety." Shandra glared sharply at the husband, who was so presumptuous to hold his hand in public. "My name is Shandra not a baby pampers."

Farhan's mouth was wide open hearing the response given by his wife. Intentions want romantic-romantic instead failed miserably. Firdaus and Fatimah who had indeed walked not so far from Farhan and Shandra had been made to laugh out loud. While Farhan was only able to frown irritably and grab his coarse hair. "Loe put me to shame, Shandra," he said. Shandra, who did not understand, was only able to remain silent without commenting much.

Firdaus served as a driver, Farhan sat beside him, while their partner sat in the back seat while chatting casually. Farhan stared in wonder at his wife who displayed a cheerful bright face, even occasionally laughing. He was confused because of the nature of the wife who winds. If along with her Shandra always shows a flat face without a smile, but if together with her mother Shandra always behave naturally like humans in general. He thought, is there something wrong with him so that his wife acts like that?

Firdaus who found his son daydreaming was only able to pat him on the shoulder slowly. "He's just not used to you always being next to him. Believe me the same Papah sooner or later he will definitely change and accept your presence" he said with a slight smile.

Farhan simply nodded and guaranteed the words of his father. Hopefully after this incident his household with his wife can walk as it should.

"Hurry up and give Papah and Mamah a grandson. Who knows with the presence of a child your relationship can get closer" the father suggested.

Farhan sighed heavily and subconsciously said, "Don't love Papah with Mamah's grandson. I just held her hand she was angry not clear." Firdaus, who had expected it, only laughed mockingly at the misfortune of the fate of the son.

"Inget, Han's living is two. Born and inwardly, you have the right to ask for it because it is your right and an obligation to Shandra," she said before she truly focused on the streets. Farhan was unable to speak the words of his father which were indeed the truth. He could only pensively rest his head on the door of the car that was already tightly locked.

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"Do you want to eat first?" he asked when he saw the husband who had been patted on the bed. "I'm not hungry yet" he said with his eyes closed.

After hearing the answer from her husband, Shandra immediately went out to head for the living room. Sitting around casually with a glass of cold sweet tea becomes an option to release a little fatigue. His mind was a little disturbed because he accidentally heard the chatter of his husband and father-in-law earlier in the car. But he's not ready, or maybe he'll never be ready. Household relations have not changed, still flat. And he was afraid that his household's midwife would stop halfway.

"Why did my life become runyam like this. The marriage that I thought was going to be okay, turned out to be not as expected. What should I do?" his monologue.

His life while still single is not this complicated, his activities are not far from work. But now why does his brain always go the extra mile, and it succeeds in making his head dizzy instead of playing. If only he could choose and repeat time, perhaps he would reject the ridiculous matchmaking that both his parents had asked for. Never in the least bit dazed in her mind that she would marry a man who had an image player like her husband now. He thought his soul mate would not be much different from his nature and personality. Maybe it will look more human. Unlike now that looks very decrepit with a variety of differences.

Taking a deep breath and exhaling slowly, he kept repeating in the hope that his heart would be a little calmer. Leaning his back on the sofa with the two blinds tightly closed, it felt so peaceful and serene. However, his activities were a little disturbed because of the actions of someone who was without permission to sit beside him. "What are you doing here?" ask Shandra who is still loyal to her position.

Farhan was silent for a while, following the way the wife calmed down. "Not nothing just want nemenin loe aja," he said relaxed without burden.

Shandra ignored the answer from her husband, considering that there was no one in the room at all to be the best choice for Shandra. Give them a moment to enjoy being together even without words and conversations. At least in this way it could make the two of them a little more familiar.

"Shan," called out to him after about fifteen minutes of silence without any sound accompanying. "Yes" said Shandra as usual. Short, solid, and clear.

"Loe is beautiful, but dear.." cetus Farhan without even opening his net even if only to just glance at Shandra.

Women with brackets and home-style wide khimar are quite stunned, but still feel at home with the same position as before. "Darling why?"

"I'm just as happy as you are." Shandra's body immediately stiffened upright even the two neutrals were opened so wide.

Did he not hear wrong?

▪To be continue▪