Between Me and My Madam
Part 72's. The departure of Lala
A week has passed, as the return to the Capital Lala decides to leave Alan's life. She's been so disappointed in Alan, their love can't be together like it used to be. Alan had changed a lot and hurt him a lot, and more sadly he lost his fetus to Alan's selfishness. Lala leaves without saying goodbye to Alan, Lala resigns from Hans.Group's company.
Sinta who heard the news of Lala resigning from her husband's company was shocked. He thinks that Lala's resignation is because she continues to dominate Lala. But when Sinta told Ello, Sinta finally got the answer to why Lala quit her job.
"jeez Lala, how sorry are you. Alan is the cruel man I've met in this world, sweet enough to be thrown away. It's nice to treat Lala like a toy, but this is also Lala's fault anyway. Already know his girlfriend has a wife, stupidly willing to marry him without thinking about the consequences.huft...." Sinta sighed heavily, while sitting spinning in her work chair.
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"Sinta says Lala is resigning." said Ello when he received news from Sinta.
"why did Lala resign?" ask Nia.
"i also don't know for sure, maybe because she wants to calm down and can rest completely after a miscarriage." replied Ello without expression. Ello actually knows that Lala and Alan are not okay. He just didn't want Nia to have too many thoughts about Lala anymore.
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Pov Lala's.
Oh God, is this a rebuke from you. Had to lose my love and precious treasure at the same time. I lost the love of Mas Alan and also my future son, did I not deserve the love of them. I love him so much and don't want to lose him, while Mas Alan wants to exchange himself to get Nia completely. Her love wasn't as great as my love for her, and when I lost my baby. It made me even more aware that I meant nothing to him, and he no longer wanted me to be with him.
You used to adore me so much, that I was swept away by your words that didn't want to lose me. Even you convinced me that you would never leave me, and asked me to be your wife.
I remember what you said that made me fall for you.
"sad pardon me, I'm married to the girl you chose" said Mas Alan, who pierced my heart.
"you have the heart, I can't relate to people's husbands. Let's end up here with our relationship, and keep your promise!" I cried and could not accept the harsh reality.
"La.forgive me, I really had to. Dad got sick and asked me to marry that slum girl. I don't love her at all, I don't even touch the woman I don't love."
"she's your wife, so don't hurt her. And we're quite up here Mas.let me give in," I said as I ran away from Mas Alan, but he chased me and hugged me tightly.
"i want to marry you, with or without her consent. I don't want to lose you La, I'll always be by your side no matter what. I'm willing Dad hates me as long as you don't walk out of my life. I can't live without you La, I beg you to marry me!" Alan knelt before me in great pleading.
"Nia agreed, and accepted you to live together in my house. If Nia disagrees, I don't care and will marry you anyway. And I don't care if she gets hurt, the most important thing is that I can be happy with you!" Alan kept forcing me, and I foolishly agreed to be second. Because I also don't want to lose such a great love for me.
The day that used to be passed by was beautiful and so sweet. But when Mas Alan loved Nia, he treated me the way Mas Alan treated Nia. Never paying attention to me, the day was busy looking for Nia. Forgetting about me who needed his attention so much, maybe this is my reward. Who had dared to enter into their household, and directly always made Nia hurt. If I hadn't entered their household, I wouldn't have hurt Nia's heart and feelings. And I wouldn't feel such a deep pain like this either.
I realized that I hurt Nia as well as I did, and I realized that I was envious that Mas Alan's love was shared for her. Until I went blind when Mas Alan asked me to destroy Nia and Ello's relationship. Just to get Mas Alan's love back, which turns out it's never coming back for me again.
I also realize love does not have to be together, love is letting go not forcing. I don't want to force him to stay with me, I'm willing to let go of Mas Alan. I file my divorce suit which will be represented by my lawyer, I can't afford to meet face to face with Mas Alan again.
Now I'm leaving Mas Alan, leaving the Capital full of sweet memories with Mas Alan first. Leaving the house that once filled my happiness, the house that witnessed the injustice of Mas Alan to Nia. I'm not as strong as Nia, and I'm giving up on all of this. I can't continue this marriage, the marriage that started without Dad's blessing. And I ended when Dad accepted my presence, while Mas Alan could not accept my presence.
I'm sorry, I left without saying goodbye. I went with the wound, I left and I won't come back. I wish Mas Alan could change, and realize all his mistakes. Marriage is not a game, and honoring a woman's heart should come first. I can only hope that after me and Nia choose to leave Mas Alan. He is conscious and can throw his selfishness away from his life, so that he does not repeat the mistake a third time.
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Now I'm in a town that Mas Alan won't be able to meet. And there's no way she's looking for me who doesn't mean anything in her life anymore.
"you're welcome to work here!"
"thank you very much, ma'am." I replied happily. I was accepted to work in a cake shop, although I paid a small salary I was still grateful and enthusiastic.
I feel calm because I have now got a job in a new city and left the city full of memories.
Everything that happened to me, not how comparable all that Nia had felt during life with me (adunya). I pray that Nia can live happily with her new family. And let me with all my regrets, and I accept all the reproof and destiny of my life.
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Morning kk all, sorry yesterday can not up. Author busy with real life, taking care of grandfather who is again sick😢. Sorry if there is a slightly unconnected kata²
Healthy always wt kk all😘😘, And for who asked my work similar to the novel next door. I told you🙏🙏 I was contacted by the NT party long before there was a spicy comment comment, and the NT party knew better.
