Between Me and My Husband

Who is that woman

I really did not understand the purpose of Papa's decision and Mama told me to part temporarily with Mas Dipta. What made them make such a decision, is it because me and Mas Dipta were married to them? So they made that decision without our consent?

Frankly, I don't accept that decision. Moreover, obviously I do not want to separate from Mas Dipta. And I'm sure Mas Dipta is like that, not wanting to part with me. Because I saw that he also seemed surprised to hear the decision Papa said.

"Pa, please don't separate us Pa!" Said Mas Dipta, I heard his voice tremble. My eyes are even dewy.

"With you separated for a while, Papa hopes that you can convince each of your feelings. You'll realize you're gonna need each other or not. After that, Mom and Dad will take the next step. Whether to keep it or really have to part." Continue Papa again.

I was really crying, my chest was so tight and painful. I see that too, Dipta. Her tears could no longer be shed.

"Pa. I need it too." Mas Dipta pleaded with hands interlocked in front of his chest.

"Pa, I can explain this.." I interrupted between as I pleased. I shrunk my nose before starting my explanation.

"At the beginning of marriage it is hard, it is natural because there is no love between us. But the more we get together, the more we can accept each other. Now I really love Mas Dipta Pa, Ma. How can it be that after our hearts are intertwined, Papa and Mama will separate us?"

"For another woman's room in Mas Dipta's apartment, Kania already knew. At the time, I was really not okay. But I know that everyone has a past. I will accept whatever the past is, because we will not be able to change what has happened. I think Mas Dipta is also no longer related to the woman. I beg you, Papa and Mama don't separate us!" Say what I am as I feel.

But after hearing my explanation, Papa took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. Mama took my hand and held it so tightly. My tears just flowed from both eyes.

"I'm sorry Nia. forgive us.." Mama said in between her tears.

"Son Kania, do you know who owns the ladies' room in Dipta's apartment?" Ask Papa.

I don't even understand why I know who that woman is. What is clear is that she must have been the woman of Mas Dipta's past, who from the beginning I realized that when Mas Dipta married me in his heart there must still be that woman. But now I am sure, the woman has disappeared completely from the heart of Mas Dipta. Evidently with his attitude so gentle and attentive to me. He also begged me not to part with me.

"The woman is not here now, because we sent her abroad. But he'll come back here sooner or later. He will be present among us, in our midst because he is part of this family. At that time, Papa hoped that the heart of Dipta was indeed for his wife and would not turn to the woman again." Papa's word is full of emphasis. His gaze pointed sharply at Mas Dipta, while the one in the face rubbed rough.

I was stunned to hear Papa's words. Is that woman part of this family? I didn't want to know who that woman was, turned around very curious to know who she was.

"Who is that woman?" I asked everyone there. Verily my heart has been tingled from the beginning, that there is something with this family.

That from the beginning before the wedding, Mama has given me an implied message to be patient with Mas Dipta. At that time, Mama thought that Mas Dipta's heart was confused and lost its direction. And from the beginning I never saw Mas Dipta's sister. What I heard from Mbok Asih that he was abroad. Those memories are like rearranged pieces of puzle.

"He's Delia, Mama and Papa's daughter, Dipta's sister and Dino's sister. At least that's what we're thinking." Mama answered while wiping her tears.

Mama's answer really made my mouth gawk. I was like I was struck by lightning. How could Mas Dipta put his heart on his own sister. I used to be suspicious, but my suspicion was always far away.

"More.. Delia's not my sister. Papa and Mama thought he was my sister." Kelit Mas Dipta's.

I looked at them alternately. Whatisthis? Why the more here makes me even more confused.

"Delia's not your real sister Dip, but you've grown up together. You can betray us with your feelings!" Papa Sentak.

"How can you prevent a sudden feeling from appearing Pa? If possible, Dipta has done that before." The Creator answered back. I heard Mama crying again.

Suddenly my heart was like pinched hearing the words of Mas Dipta. I was sure that Mas Dipta's heart was now filled by me, but now the belief is gradually eroded. I remember again, that Mas Dipta did not even say the word love to me. I realized that what I believed was not necessarily the truth.

I cried, the tears that were just melts now flooded my cheeks. It's so painful, knowing the truth. I covered my face with both hands, so I wouldn't get too hysterical. So far Mas Dipta considers me what, just as a gratifier in bed?!

"Do you realize you've hurt a lot of hearts here? Your mom, Delia and now your wife?!" Papa spoke in a low voice this time.

Mas Dipta seemed stunned, he immediately looked at me. And seeing how hurt I was, he inched closer to me. With a withered look, his outstretched hand wanted to grab me.

"Nia.." called her, but I shifted so that the hand wouldn't hit me. He seemed to flinch when I avoided him.

"You don't love me, mas? Has your treatment of me not been love?" My toot. Mas Dipta sat down next to me. He looked at me, but I didn't want to be fooled again.

"Nia, listen to me. I don't want to share love words with you right now. Just take all the attention from me, what I give you is really heartfelt from my heart. I want this heart problem to be resolved soon, but I have to wait for Delia's return to solve it. Trust me, Nia!"

I really want to believe Mas Dipta's words. But my brain forbids me to do it. Right now, maybe he could have said that because Delia did not exist, but how about Delia to come back. Would her words not have changed, given the time she spent with Delia longer than I did.

"I think Papa and Mama's decision was right. For a while we have to separate first. Each of us must rearrange our hearts, Mas." I said at last. Mas Dipta was very clearly injured from the look in his eyes.

"Happy? What does that mean, whose heart should be laid out? Wasn't it clear I said. That I'm sincere!" Mas Dipta slightly raised his tone. I really stuck to Mama who was sitting next to me.

"Dip.give Nia time!" Mama said while embracing my shoulder.

I heard Mas Dipta sigh. His gaze did not turn away from me, but then he got up from his squat. And he accepted Papa's decision.

That night, he returned to our home. While I still stay at Papa and Mama's house. With a giant step Mas Dipta walked out of the house, occasionally he stared back behind looking for me. But I didn't show up there to deliver it.