Between Me and My Husband

So your mind continues

"Why not answer? Didn't I tell you to wait? But you've been wandering outside. Who's this time?"

Once again the words of Mas Dipta made my heart feel like it was pierced by thousands of needles. Why did he ask but as if to corner and accuse me. My tears fell and soon I was riverbed. I sobbed crying as I pleased.

"Sa.sick mas.." I groaned. Mas Dipta was stunned, his eyes were not as sharp as before. He loosened his grip.

He finally let go of my shoulder. I heard he set his breath that was hunting earlier. I'm still sobbing.

"A.do you feel sick?" Her question was pointing towards my shoulder. I didn't answer, it hurt his grip earlier but it didn't hurt my heart.

"Nia..is it so hard to obey my words? Why do you always do things outside my will?" Mas Dipta lowered his voice.

I was silent, my stuffing had stopped. I just bow down not wanting to see it. But suddenly her hand grabbed my cheek, and wiped my tears.

I raised my face so I could see his face.

"Stop crying! Now, tell me who you were with?"

Huh huh? What I expected. I clap his hand still holding my cheek. I immediately turned around and climbed the stairs into the room.

"More... Kania.." she called me. But I didn't mind.

I locked the door to my room, I heard footsteps climbing up the stairs and before long the door of my room filled my room.

"Cania.. Nia. Come out let's talk!" Speak from outside the room. I ignored the screams of Dipta outside the room. He still yelled a few times to my name and asked me to open the door. I ignored it as well, and after a while passed outside sounded silent.

"OK, rest. Tomorrow let's talk." His words may be tired after a few screams but I also did not open the door for him.

After that, my room went back to silence. I only occasionally sound my own stuff. Yes, I went back to crying probably to dry tears and fell asleep from exhaustion.

I woke up the next day when the sun was high.

Yes aampuun, my sleep is like someone fainted. Even the phone alarm I set didn't sound at all. As usual, the first time I've been looking for an open eye, to see what time it is. I looked for a moment when the flat object on the table was not there, in the mattress there was not even a pillow behind. I remember the last time I put that thing down.

From last night I didn't see that thing. It was in the bag I was wearing yesterday, and I put it on the bottom table last night.

I hesitated to open the room door, I peeked for a moment at the situation outside. Sepi, surely Dipta mas have left for work. I dare to go out and come down.

Up downstairs, it was still quiet. I'm lyric wall clock, it's 10 o'clock. I think it's true, Dipta's already gone. I saw it on the living room table where I put my bag there last night. Nothing, is it possible to fall? I looked under the table, up next to the sofa who knows fell bouncing up there. But still nil.

I heard the door of Dipta's room open. Wh who? Am I alone at home. And there, came out of his room. He saw me crouching beside the sofa with my appearance that must have been random. Wake up, have not washed your face let alone brush your teeth and cry overnight. Oh my God, now I see the same people I want to avoid the most. I want to bury myself at the bottom of the earth if I can.

"Are you awake?" He stood at the door of his room. It's neat, and fragrant of course. Inversely with me.

"Bring first, then we'll have breakfast." He said again who had no answer from me.

When I went down again, Dipta sat down at the dinner table. I saw that there was food on the table. Where does the food come from, pesankah or mas Dipta cook?. I approached him but did not dare to look at him.

"Sit down, let's eat first." Said.

Breakfast we fried rice with sausage and eggs ceplok. I didn't feel whether the food was good or not. Just chewing and swallowing.

After breakfast we sit on the living room couch, I ask him to talk to me.

"You were looking for this?" Mas Dipta stretched out an hp to me and that's my hp. I reached my phone while asking questions in my heart, could it be that from last night this phone was in the Dipta mas.

"There was a call from your friend, her name was Amel." He said, I widened my eyes. I just remembered that I was supposed to be in college at 10. Jeez Kania. I cursed myself.

"Today's lecture was canceled by his lecturer" he said again as if he knew what I was worried about. I let out a sigh of relief.

"You still don't want to talk?" He asked, I looked at him cynically. Then I turned my eyes around, so that she would know that I was really angry.

He moved to sit next to me. And suddenly his hand cupped my cheek to look at him.

"I'm sorry Kania. I'm sorry?!" His face with a deep look. I furrowed my eyebrows.

"I was wrong." he said weakly, his hand taking off my cheek. I still doubt his words. Last night he still insisted on accusing me, why did he easily change his mind this morning.

"Your friend's email told me." He answered my doubts.

"Huh? What?!" My touch, I did not think that Amel who I thought was loyal friend was a bucket in Dipta mas.

"Yes, rather I urged him." Say Mas Dipta. I melengos.

"Nia, you want to forgive me, don't you? I was carried away by emotions, especially when I was in Bandung you could not be contacted. My messages none of you open. I'm not the focus of the work, so.." mas Dipta hangs the sentence. I heard so I looked towards him. He's looking at me.

"So what?" I'm just impatient. And warmly he suddenly took my hand. I immediately wanted to pull him, but instead he made the grip.

"I keep thinking of you." His word. My eyes became patterned listening to the words of the Dipta mas. Maybe if I heard that before he accused me of seducing men, my heart would flower and I would welcome him with joy. But I heard it after his anger exploded and even said cruel words to me, so I doubted all his words.

"Trust me, I even went straight home when the work there was done. But I didn't get you so far home. You even came home very late." He said, the look in his eyes I saw was so sincere.

He pulled my hand against his chest. I felt his heartbeat racing so fast, I thought he might have a heart attack. I panicked, I looked at his face but I found a smile on his lips.

"Mas Dipta is fine?" Manya make sure.

"No, I'm not okay, Nia." The answer made me worry more.