Between Me and My Husband

Lousy

I stared at every second of my phone, hoping that Dipta would call me soon. And when I heard there was a notification coming in, I hunted2 saw. Not from the Dipta mas but from Mr. Ardi.

Sorry, did you eat already? I want to order food online, who knows you are interested so you can all..

Ask him through the message he sent.

No sir, I ate this afternoon with Rania. I replied, and the next second was immediately replied by Mr. Ardi.

Wow, jd is not good. Rania is troublesome bu Dipta.

I don't bother at all sir. Oya, Dipta mas will be home around 8 am sir. My reply, and soon there was a reply from Mr. Ardi.

Well ma'am, I will go there if Mr. Dipta is home.

But some time waiting, I also did not get a call from Mas Dipta. I even sent him a message back, which was the same, asking when he would come home. But there's still no reply from him. My heart is right2 made to be upset by him, what the hell is he doing to not see hp at all. Or don't2 he had actually seen it through the incoming notification but he deliberately did not open it and even ignored it. Prejudice2 bad started to perch on my chest which made it even more crowded. Maybe this is how it feels, to love but to be ignored. Without feeling my tears until I fell and in the next second I began to cry as much as I wanted to reduce the tightness in my chest. Sometimes crying is necessary just to make relief in the chest.

When the time has shown at half 9, and there is no sign2 of the return of the Dipta mas. I decided to let Mr. Ardi pick up Rania. When Mr. Ardi started to enter the house, my door was left wide open2. Mr. Ardi was stunned to see both my eyes were swollen because of crying too long ago. But I deliberately did not respond to him and instead turned away avoiding his gaze.

"Rania's up there, sir, she's sleeping there." I said, then stepped up the stairs followed by Mr. Ardi. When I opened the door to my room, Mr. Ardi came in and had time to scan the room contents. I don't know what he's thinking, but the look in his eyes makes me want to confirm.

"This is the room for me to study, sir. Mr. Ardi knows, I'm still in college right?!" I said, so that Mr. Ardi does not think like 2. Although this room a lot of barang2 I once saw already know that this room I occupy to sleep. Mr. Ardi just kept quiet, he just directly carried Rania and brought her down. I followed him down.

And when on the last step of the stairs, I saw there, in the living room there was a figure of Dipta mas staring at us who were down the stairs together. His eyes took turns to look at me and then looked at Mr. Ardi. His eyes were shocked mixed with astonishment and his brows furrowed. I can't guess what he's thinking. My hands arrived2 cold, and like a misdeed. Like someone who was caught putting a man2 into a room.

"Good night, Mr. Dipta. Sorry to interrupt, this is my son who was playing here even to fall asleep." Sapa mr. Ardi explained. He just kept quiet, and he looked at me.

"Too as soon as we get home first. Again sorry for the trouble and thank you." Pamit pak Ardi's.

"Yes sir sama2.." I replied following Mr. Ardi to open the door that might have been closed by the Dipta mas when he entered. When Mr. Ardi came out, I closed the door again. I saw that Dipta was still standing in his place.

"Just come home?" Sapaku while continuing to pass through. I didn't mean to explain what2 was because I told him on the phone earlier. Although someone else received, it must have been conveyed not my message earlier.

"It..!" The sound of Dipta stopped me when I wanted to climb the stairs. I turned my body to face him.

"What was that? Is there no explanation from you?" Ask Dipta with a sharp look at me. He stepped closer to me.

"Didn't that woman tell us about the Dipta mas?" My answer. Mas Dipta furrowed his brows, he seemed to not understand what I was talking about.

"Women? Whose woman? You don't switch the conversation, you just put a guy in when your husband isn't home and don't explain what2." He said a little more shouting. I clenched my hands tight, I didn't want to vent my anger so stifling my chest just a moment ago.

"I was busy earlier." - Dipta said, his eyes were not focused as if he was hiding something. Back my chest feels tight.

"Kalo mas Dipta sesbuk it's better not to ignore myself as already mas Dipta did to me all this time"

I ended the conversation with Mas Dipta that night. I went up the stairs back to the room and when I wanted to enter the room, I said Dipta was still in his place earlier. Kira2 what is he thinking. But really I do not want to know, did he say we will live each life 2 despite our status husband and wife. He even blatantly rejected me and told me to stay away at that time.

The debate made our relationship that morning even more awkward. Usually when I'm done making breakfast he'll come out or I'll knock on the door. Then we have breakfast at the dinner table. But now I don't do that, he doesn't even come out. Because I have a morning lecture today, I don't have time to eat breakfast at home. I'll just bring it in the lunch box, then let me eat while on campus. When I was about to leave, I took a farewell to the Dipta mas who still did not come out of the room.

"Mas, I'm going to college first!" I said it in front of the door of his room, then went out of the house without waiting for an answer from Mas Dipta. When outside, I tried to re-order the ojek online, which was actually from earlier I had tried the message but somehow this morning was very difficult nyantolnya.

"Tante Nia.." The call made my eyes go from the screen to the school uniformed child with his carry bag.

"Lho.. Rania, are you home? What time is school?" I asked, the little boy walked up to me with his cheerful smile.

"Today, I'm leaving in the afternoon. So I'm leaving with papa on the way to work." The answer came when it was in front of me. I just shake my head while shaking my head.

"Fuck up!!!" Shouted Rania, when he saw Mr. Ardi turned left right looking for him.

"Let's go!" Take Mr. Ardi to Rania.

"Tante.tante with us ajha well.." arrived2 Rania took my hand and pulled me closer to Mr. Ardi.

"Huh? Uh but...." I haven't had time to talk, Rania has been eager to tell Mr. Ardi.

"Papa... Can aunty Kania come with us? Kan aunty also wants to leave" Kania spoke spoiledly to Mr. Ardi. Mr. Ardi looked at me and then turned to my house. Rania was whining more and more asking her papa to take me.

"Yes.iya Rania, but aunty Kania would not come?" Mr. Ardi said to calm his son. Rania turned towards me with a sparkle.

"Look aunty.. later let papa who nganterin aunt." Rania pulled my hand closer to Ardi's car. Okay okay.follow only. From earlier nyari ojek online also can not.

Finally that morning I decided to join Ardi's car. Mr. Ardi smiled at me as he walked in and sat behind the steering wheel of his car.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Dipta, if Rania makes it uncomfortable Mr. Dipta" said Mr. Ardi.

"Ah no sir, I feel helped." My answer. Mr. Ardi nodded, looking a smile on his lips. The car finally left the housing complex.