BETWEEN (TERMINAL ) GIWANGAN ~ BUBULAK

I WANT TO START SELFISH

Almost bedug magrib Fitri back home. In his hand were several bags. When viewed the paper bag logo is from a famous children's clothing store.

“Where are you from Nduk?” ask Suradi gently. There was no anger at the voice of the father of one biological child.

“I finished healing Well. Not going anywhere. The whole day is in the workshop, then when you come home to stop by shopping for children's clothes first,” Fitri replied without guilt. He was already aware, he should be able to be selfish and start thinking about himself. All this time he only thought and acted for others.

All day Fitri pondered in the workshop. He goes through the journey of his life that long ago only thought of the views of the people he loved. Parents, husbands, husbands' families and plus children.

Throughout the day Fitri inner war wants to immediately go home to hold his children. But he kept reviewing. He decided that he would pay attention to himself. But it's not as easy as flipping a palm. Look what he bought. All the kids clothes. There was no one shirt or just underwear for him.

Fitri immediately went into the bathroom to take a shower and held her child.

“Ma .. Mama,” reprimands Yanto who is carrying Daanish.

Fitri did not answer and went straight to the bathroom and cleaned himself up.

After that Fitri went straight to the prayer room and prepared for the congregational prayer maghrib.

After finishing the prayer Fitri directly take food for his two children. He immediately took Daanish and Daffa into the living room and sat down on the carpet.

“Ma, Papa wants to talk,” said Yanto who sat on a chair above Fitri who was sitting on the floor with their two children.

Fitri did not care about Yanto and then he fed Daffa and Daanish alternately. Fitri continued to talk to Daffa and Daanish.

Yanto no longer urged Fitri, he knew it was not good for children to hear the commotion. So he kept quiet, just kept sitting next to Fitri.

“Sini Mbak I take care of the children. Mbak dahar aja same other,” said two housemaids when it was time for dinner.

“What's up. Take care of them, but I'm still here. I don't want to eat together,” said Fitri.

“I will eat later,” Fitri does not want to move from the carpet. His sons are already ferried with their toys.

“Ayo Nduk eat together,” invite Gendis.

“Kan kids there are mbok. Already we eat together yuk aja,” Gendis still trying to persuade his son-in-law.

“Neither ma'am, no need. I'm here aja,” reject Fitri.

Gendis did not dare to press anymore, even though she was self-conscious this was not in her home. The guy went straight to the dining table.

“Mbak ayok eat with me. Ma'am angry because I did not accompany mas Yanto this morning?” insist on Tin after Gendis passes.

“What's the business Mbak is angry with you? Then Ma'am also went mad at no one. You do not need to feel guilty like that,” explained Fitri.

“So there was my friend from another Elementary School, he was apparently also accepted at the school earlier. He asked me to get a drink, so I went out for a drink. It was probably the time when Mbak entered to see Mas Yanto talking to his friend. When I lived there was no one's friend. Mas Yanto alone,” Tin explained the chronology so that Fitri understood.

“Mbak don't care Deck, Mas Yanto would like to chat with anyone please. Monggo, so you don't have to be scared like that. Ma'am is nothing. Mas Yanto wanted to have another woman as well. You have calmed down. Mbak nothing,” so hold that Fitri said.

Everything he said was contrary to how he felt.

“You eat only yes do not have to wait for Mbak, Later if you have finished eating new you replace the same Mbak,” Replied Fitri again.

“Ya wis yes Mbak. From the storm all I ate first,” Tin with gontai left the living room.

“Where's mbakmu?” ask Suradi to Timah.

“Tadi bu Gendis has also jumped, just now I also ngajak Yah. But mbak said later just change. She wants to eat later alone.”

Yanto also took the initiative not to eat so that he could eat together with Fitri.

“You can eat Nto. You won't be able to eat with him. If you want to be with him, you will not eat at all. I have memorized her behavior, so you better eat,” Erlina insists on Yanto never intentionally waiting to be able to eat together. Because it would be more fatal.