Because of Free Communion

#30

Ibete..

Lalalalalala.

Ah it was Edward.

"Hello" he said as I picked up the phone.

"Hello" I replied.

"Have I been back for a week, haven't you missed me? When do you want to go home to your husband?" Ask.

"I still want to be here first, don't know why but it still doesn't feel like I'm going to leave" I replied.

"Yeah, you're there fine, if there's anything you know." Said worried.

"Yes, danke !" I answered by saying a little German.

"Have started to be smart yes, study diligently also yes language, I have a meeting I meet first, bye." he said.

Well it can not be denied we really rarely communicate, a day only once and that's phone, chat was just once a week, phone once a day. Well it turns out the guy was all that cute.

I haven't even opened Instagram in a long time.

I opened Instagram and saw a message coming in

"I'm so sorry about you miscarrying, I'm really sorry, I don't know if I'm still worth talking to you like this, but I know he's my son, I'm really shocked and sad, sorry I wasted you, I was like that so you can be with your husband now so that our child is not difficult, but I never thought he couldn't take care of our son." From Frans.

I was in shock, and completely speechless, was it really like this? She sacrificed her feelings and her relationship for me and kittas? Is correct? What do I have to answer? Is it just thanks? But if it's true as he said, doesn't that mean I've misunderstood him all along? Means all this time, she's been hurt so much?

But.. I don't know.

I started typing messages to reply to her.

"Why? Why is it like that? Don't you also know I'm still a capable family? Why hurt me in that way? Wh why? All the why is stored in my mind." My answer.

"Beth, eat !" Shouted my mother who told me to eat.

I got out of the room and rushed to the dining room. Ah it feels really hungry.

At the dining table..

"When did you go to Germany? Even though the baby isn't there but he's still your husband now, you have to follow him everywhere." Mama says.

"I don't know if I'm ready yet." I answered with doubt.

"Not ready for what?" Ask my mom again.

"It's not ready to go and it's not ready to really be someone else's wife, who I haven't known for a long time, I've been spending time with Frans." I looked away at the food.

"meaning? You doubt it because of Frans?" Ask my mom again.

"Huh?? Ng. nope.. I'm just saying the truth." My answer.

"Despite that, you still have a husband, want to appreciate it yes." Said my mama.

"Yes ma, I'll work it out." My answer.

A few moments later..

Finish eating I go back to the room, grab my phone. And Frans has already returned me.

"Yes, I will do everything for you and your good, but it feels like your husband can't take good care of you and your child. Beth, come back with me, I'll really take care of you and make you happy."

Seriate..