Because of Free Communion

#24

Today we spend time for sightseeing before tomorrow departing for this country of the man beside me, who is now my husband.

Never terbesit in my mind I will marry a man from outside Indonesia, even this man is a man who is quite even very well established, it is seen from how he financed the marriage that was in his magnificent title.

I spent my time with the wrong guy and met this perfect guy who could accept me for who I am. Is God kidding me? Or does God have mercy on me? I don't know.. Now I will enjoy every moment of my life.

Walking on the beach this morning made me feel very calm.

"I heard from the Indonesians here, if pregnant again can not go to the beach, is it okay we come here?" Edward asked with a worried look.

"Nothing is that it's just a myth, actually sometimes seeing the beach like this makes the feeling so much calmer know, see the surging water, because the sea is wide, blue and beautiful" said I.

"Although sometimes water can be an enemy of humans, but you like the beach huh." Edward said with his strange words.

I thought about what to answer, slowly I sat on the white sand looking at the beach.

"Let's sit down." I said, pulling Edward's hand.

"Hmmm.." Answer while slowly sitting down.

"Although water is sometimes scary, but water is also not to be blamed, why water is so scary it is because of the laws of nature, and also there is from the fault of man himself know." My word.

"A lot of dead people drown in the sea even in swimming pools too." Her words.

"It's all fate knows, if God has called you, you'll be called any way, whether drowning or a land and air accident." My word.

"mmm.." His face seemed unsatisfied with my answer.

"Why the hell? Do you hate the sea?"

"Very" he answered briefly.

"Why?" Ask me.

"Here, my brother died drowning in the pool, he loved swimming and during training did not know why his legs were cramping and he could not survive and immediately drowned in the middle of the pool. There were only a few people there, a long distance away they tried to help but it was free. And the sea, I used to have a lover, drowned in the sea, in her family she was her one-on-one cheerful and carefree woman, but she just left in front of my eyes." Her words.

"I'm so sorry." My answer is that I really do not know what to say anymore, because tragically his life.

"Hmmm.." The answer.

"No, if you like it here, we can be here any minute." Say it softly.

One more point I got from him, not selfish.

"Well, if you know what your girlfriend's name was?" Ask me.

"Catherine Cello" she answered.

"How long have you been dating? You really love him, don't you?" Ask me a little doubt.

"Yes, really, we've been together for 10 years and she left 5 years ago and I never had a relationship with anyone until I met you." Evidently.

"Why did you choose me whom you even just met? Why not Dyana?" Ask me.

"Dyana, she caused Catherine's death, I saw her pushing Caherine from the ship to the sea. I immediately charged Dyana, but she was still free, because her father was a prosecutor." Obviously again.

"Geez, really mean !" My exclamation.

"In a world that has power will win." Her words.

"Why did you choose me?" Ask me again.

"Because you look like him, you're really similar, nothing different from you, only your nature has now changed, maybe since you've been with him." His answer was casually.

I heard her really quite surprised.

"So from the beginning you noticed me just because I really looked like him?" Ask me.

"Yes" he said briefly without any bad taste at all.

"So I'm just a surrogate?" I asked him which made him look at me.

I know I have no right to be angry because I also used him to be the father of a child that wasn't his. But my heart still hurt, I stood up and left him. My tears kept dripping nonstop, my heart really hurt considering I was just a substitute. Even though he's responsible for me. But I never asked for it.

Seriate..