Beautiful That's Me
Gorgeous
I'm editing my selfies in Photoshop. Let the pimples on my face not be seen. I used the instgram filter before. But I still wasn't satisfied with my own face. After seeing Korean drama, I actually also want to learn make up. But my mother said, if I use foundation, my acne will get worse. I dare not wear it. Finished editing, I saw my face on the screen. Wow, it turns out that I am pretty smooth too huh. Hmm. I remembered about SNMPTN in school. My heart hurts so much. I never expected anything about academics. Plus, now I'm starting to like Alvi. The man who is so holy to me is astagfirullah. If only I could be smart, I would still have confidence. But my body alone feels no support to be smart. I might be stressed when I'm studying math again. Sucks.
Mama kept persuading me to join the stand. Though, I've been planning to forget about Alvi and be self-conscious. I couldn't possibly be with her, and kept seeing her my heart was getting sicker. But my mother did not understand my feelings. Even this afternoon, I have to go back to the stand. Alvi again.
“Can. What time is it!!!”
Mom's voice filled the whole room of this house.
“Iya Maa”
I took the towel lazily.
Confused what clothes to wear. Everything feels inappropriate. But come on. This time I'm just dumbbells. Not dating Alvi. So, I picked up a hoodie and a short, checkered knee-length skirt. I remember very well, this outfit I got from give away olshop. I remember crying because I got lucky in the end. To be honest, a whole new lifetime at that time I felt special. I rolled my hair up and put on potluck powder.
The clock shows at 4 o'clock sixteen minutes. The sound of Alvi's motor was already heard in front of the gate. I
“Tumben pretty”
The words suddenly came out of his mouth. What's!! Alvi said I'm beautiful? Allahuahbar!! Suddenly from the sky fell pink cherry blossoms. All the happy molecules that are all over my body are gathering and making amends. Butterflies present filled the stomach and stifled. Rainbows appeared all around us and all I knew was that Alvi's motorbike had turned into a beautiful carriage. The trees sing along with my happiness. Squirrels began to line up and dance the Kuch Kuch Ho Ta Hai song. Instantly, I felt like I was flying above the clouds. “Jeez, Alvi says I'm beautiful? Does he have night blindness?
“Heh!!”
Suddenly I realized. Daritadi I danced and smiled to myself in front of Alvi. Alvi's face was shocked to see my behavior just now. I was so embarrassed.My face was originally black so more black pseudo-red. I just grinned and went straight up to the back seat. Alvi, without a word directly drove to the limbel place.
"Dear Diary's
For the first time in my life, someone said I was beautiful. A man who fell from the sky. Being present among the black clouds that enveloped me dozens of years ago. The man was right in front of me. We both have no distance. Yeah, right, there's nothing but a big wall called feeling. One day, Vi. If I could do what I wanted, I would be happy and stop liking you. I will be happy in my own way, not caused by others. Because after this, I promise to study hard. So that I can have money and be beautiful. You know Vi, I wrote this while you were screwing. Oiya, today you are so charming. Thank you for being Alvi and living healthy in the alley next door."
