Beautiful That's Me

Said the Person Challenging My Fate

Someone once said, if the time of High School is the most beautiful time during life on earth. But, until now I didn't even find where the beauty lies in High School? The feeling, I thought, what if the beautiful things in my life just stuck here? What if up ahead I'm going to be a pathetic person? Candra got tired of admitting me as a sister, mom was embarrassed to see her daughter hanging like a leaf carried by the current.

Electrical Engineering. It's a bitch, isn't it? This class feels so hard. But what can I do? Mom was so happy when I got accepted into this department. At first, everyone was shocked to hear that I was in engineering. Thought, I was secretly ambitious and actually smart but not arrogant. In fact, I just fad about this major because there is no other choice. But why does fate suck like this?

I saw all the courses. Almost everything is filled with mathematics and physics. The rest basic electronics. I really did get all wrong. If I may, I would very much like to run away from this house and establish a new civilization somewhere. But, I realized I couldn't find the money yet. Maybe if it's mealtime, I go back home first, then stop again until the afternoon.

I couldn't bear to imagine my college life.  When I remember, I feel like I'm catching a cold. Sometimes it is accompanied by diarrhea. Moments after I forgot about college, I was healthy again. But if discussed again, usually I immediately have a severe stomachache. So annoying. Even my own body refused to go in.

The rice was eaten by chicken. There is nothing to change but to live the days well. Although some time ago, an old grandmother suddenly told me that I would become a spinster and suffer. I've resigned. After all, the grandmother was old, maybe her life was depressed as well.

Coming home from my mom's cake shop, I was greeted by one of my relatives who lived outside the city. When he saw my kriwil hair, he scrunched his forehead. I may have forgotten that my mom has two kids.  Yes, because what is often talked about in the big family is just Candra. I'm just a paid spectator. The uncle suddenly said, "You'll be a wretched man. Everyone who used to be supportive, will come back to attack you. So, don't be weird in college." I'm appalled. Why is it like a shinobi gini war?

The uncle just smiled. I looked at him, looked around for a bit, then said after whispering. "Calm down, no one supported me. My life has been complicated, I have no problem with the burden of my mind."

Mama hasn't come yet, in the living room there's only Candra and that person. It feels so lazy to go out of the room. Until I saw a notification on my phone. I was told to pick up my mom. Finally, with a heavy heart, I got out of bed.

Motorcycle ignite, I say goodbye to Candra and have Candra make tea for the uncle. Because that annoying little sister didn't even give her a drop of water on the guests. Not really a noble human being.

Mom got home feeling happy. He said someone ordered a 100 pcs doughnut so tonight had to work overtime. I heard him half happy, half sad. Because, I'm the one who will be recruited mama in the work of roda making this donut. Yeah, who else if not me? Candra is not.

The uncle talked to my mother while occasionally looking at me. Mom sometimes looks at me with concern. I don't care what I'm talking about because I'm still busy watching youtube videos about "Cat Care Tutorials For Beginners!! Guaranteed Not to be Naughty!!"

Until a few minutes passed, and uncle had to say goodbye to me. When I experienced it, she looked at me sharply and said "Don't bother your mama. A real college."

I who was tired of that sentence immediately say yes. After all, he's also a nobody.