Beautiful That's Me

Mosaic of affection

Apparently I've escaped far enough. I pat the back of the man who carried me like a truck cat, whom he dared to take me and treat me as if he had the right to touch my body. For a moment, it seemed like I knew this posture. I immediately scrunched my forehead and hit the head of the man.

"Dude!! Sick tau!!"

Sure enough that distinctive voice emerged from this damn man. Not wrong anymore.

"Wooy!! Can!! Why follow me!!"

Candra was silent. As usual, he was just a bitch. Even though she's my sister, her body is indeed taller than mine. His chest field and posture were like adults. But still, Candra is the most annoying sister on earth.

"But Mama"

He just stares away while walking away from me. I'm getting suspicious of this little boy.

"Didn't he say that there was an event with them?"

"What the hell is it, brother? The event is mending gausah dateng! Didn't you have the heartache of being humiliated by that cake?"

His voice is higher. This time, Candra said more than 3 words in one breath.

My sister, even though she seems to care less about me, she often listens well to what I say. Even as a sister, I sometimes think that she is much more mature than I am. As a big brother, I sometimes want to set a good example, but the earth is spinning so fast around me that it makes me dizzy myself. So, I just live as a woman like this.

"Jaudah, come back."

He did not respond, but continued to walk in front of me. I was still dizzy a few times the road staggered. I know what my friend did was too much. Infiltration with physical violence. If I were a conglomerate, I would've reported it to the Child Protection Commission. But never mind, this is my last meeting with them. Care for my demons with my feelings for Alvi. Didn't he just shut up when I was persecuted earlier? Hmm!! What a bad man!!

Up home, my mom stood at the door. I'm confused why my mom's tumben is waiting for me to come home, usually also bodoamat.

"What are you doing, baby?"

My mother's hand pulled my body. He hugged me tightly. I'm still confused. Did your mom know about this incident? But how did mommy know?

"What is Ma"

"What the hell is Ma?"

He wiped his tears. Then tell me to go in the house first. I sat down on the couch and got some water on the table. A few more gulps have made me feel better.

My mom gave me a video. Video sent by his son Bu Nur. That's all the video of my bullying. It looks so clear. Anjir, the stamps of the cantelan the pan video! Why don't you help me!!

"The son of Bu Nur Sakit mencret so gabisa come with separation. Then he was sent the same video. Finally, she called mom, so she told you to pick you up right then and there."

I just kept quiet. It turned out to be Wawan. Why is she the same bike as me?

"Thank you Ma"

"Make what?"

"Udah is worried."

Mama took a long breath.

"Although you are often wayward, and mama is often angry, it does not mean that mama does not love you."

I just kept quiet.

Today, I realized that I was not as burdened as I thought. The proof is that Mama and Candra still hold me human. There are many who still love me.

Suddenly I thought of Sarah. Why isn't he coming tonight? If there was him, I would have defended him on the show. Does he also have pain in the creche?

Maybe tomorrow morning I should visit him. Tonight, I'm tuning the koplo dangdut song out loud. Sometimes I hum in front of the mirror. It's a celebration of my heartbreak tonight. You know why? Yep. Divideo earlier, it looks Alvi did not twitch even a bit when I saw me bullied on stage. I saw for myself, hold that hand. Close hand grip between Alvi and Dewi. Maybe they were there that night. Just when I was still dragged like a rat on stage, when no one dared to help me because the two female witches were indeed famous bully in class. Or maybe they didn't want to help me. I don't know, it feels like my head is dizzy, usually if the heartache is like this, mama told me to scrap. Let it be, think about it tomorrow again. Maybe tomorrow I'll see Sarah again.

Seriate.....