Arumi Sekar

loss of shame

" prinse me five hundred for the fare, and a million for my parents". Bima shamelessly asked me for money, after what he did to me and my mother, after what he did to me, basic man has no akhlaq, his mouth is so light say my mother who spent my money, but in fact, it is precisely he and his family who continue to spend my money with various reasons.

"sorry, I don't have any money, haven't you been asking me for two days, what's the money for,? a million lots of tablets, I'm not a storehouse of money, so don't be willing to keep asking me."

honestly, this chest feels tight, holding back the overflow of emotions in the man who holds the title of my husband, just two days asking to be sent money for the same reason, borrow first, but the results are predictable, at payday, at the end of the day, he will pretend to forget, even with a sorry face willing to borrow money again, honestly I am tired of all his attitude.

"begin the calculation ye Sekar, remember.you are my wife, the wife should be devoted to her husband, your paradise is in my diridhoan, keep it".

mas Bima glared and began to raise his voice when his desire was not fulfilled, I used to be afraid, and said to be afraid if accused of being an ungodly wife, but the more here the more annoying the attitude of not knowing shame.

"look first, what kind of husband used to be, yes if the husband is kind and can be a role model, meet all household needs well, can speak soft words and please the wife, he said, boro boro can be like that, appreciate me you can not, before talking it's good introspection first, let's know the fault of self, not just a lot of talk but minimal knowledge, not only, like a loud empty barrel that sounds."

I was really tired so I couldn't help but answer all his arguments, let it go, he wanted to get angry or leave me, I didn't care, for me this relationship is already unhealthy, so there is no reason for me to survive.

my God, what kind of man I married is Robb, why he didn't realize if he didn't have the right to my money at all, casually asking even lightly told me to give his family money with an amount that he set himself, I will not love, it is considered easy what money, what, can I go crazy if I keep dealing with this shameless guy.

"just go home if you want to go home, and one more, do not ask me for money, because you or your family is not my obligation, it is you as a husband who should meet my needs, not even keep asking me for money, from now on, don't ever bother my money".

furious to face a man with a lack of morals like it, I was no longer able to, and there was no woman who Sudi fooled like this, I left Bima with his emotions, getting into the room and locking it up, the hope I have a beautiful family, all broken by the attitude of the selfless.

crying and regret that is what I now do, for today, I will shed all my tears, so that tomorrow I can stand up again to face Bima and her family.

mas Bima continued to scream and bang on the door of the room, without the slightest shame continue to force that I quickly give the money he asked, it was very tight, the face that I had once seen was soft, so I could not help but, with a look that kept his head down, indicating that he was a Sholeh man who would be able to take me in a better direction, in fact it was a fake, just a mask that he used to charm, he said, regret is getting deeper when the words do not like from om Huda and mas End of that time ringing back.

because love has blinded the eyes, so I can not see sincerity or just purebred, in fact now all began to open who is really the man I married, he said, just wanting my money to fulfill her lifestyle without bothering to bother, how stupid I felt to be fooled by the innocent face made, he said, it feels sorry why I didn't listen to my family's advice and now I feel the consequences of my stupidity.