Arumi Sekar

Arumi

Night......

Silent, silent, and clear....

There was only a sound from the wall clock.

Samar, there was a light behind the glass window.

Sitting pensively, behind the orange curtain.

Self-infidelity, will be the lilaf that was created.

There have been so many neglects to create sin.

Conscious and promise not to repeat.

But sometimes, the promise is just a sweet promise in itself, although in the end, it all repeats again, again and again, so and always so.

But every time I remember, always the word that becomes an escape, will be a pile of sins.

The falling round of clear circles soaked the face, as if unable to remove the guilt, guilty of having continued to violate what was forbidden by HIM.

Only the sorry strands of the Istighfar continue to climb, hoping for the embrace of love and forgiveness from the owner of life.

Tonight, not much different from the night before, silent in silence.

Living a life of kara, like walking on bare coals as a passenger of the soles of the feet, the pain of the heat of the coals, is no longer inevitable, but can not be avoided.

There is no choice but to try hard, pull everything aside, throw all worries and create a smile behind the pain.

In my space and time, just a blank story fragment with no color, bias.

Only by night, I painted all the stories, poured out all the fret, poured out the sorrow, through the most beautiful prayer in silence in silence into silence.

That hope I always say, I say throughout my prayer.

My love, allow me to regress happiness for the rest of my young age, every step of the way in the waiting Titian that just waits in your sure promise.

You give thanks, so that the heart will no longer fall.

Although still trained, I will train my heart to be as strong as steel, my soul as tough as a rock and my body is not easily given up by the waves of life that often crashing uncompromisingly.

maybe, not many know the meaning of each step, so often I often hear the scorn and scorn of those who just look with a view that must have limitations.

undeniably, the pain and tightness are present, so as to invite tears profusely wet the face that has been tired with the journey of life.

then, what can I do?

answer and give them understanding?

it is impossible, because to them, their judgment is the truth, without wanting to know the truth of a story.

being a married woman but never knowing the meaning of how to be a real wife, living life without a place to lean is painful, even more painful than sharp objects.

I am Sekar Arumi, an orphan girl who from childhood lives with all limitations, my mother a widow who was just left behind by a creature that should be called father, he said, but from me still in the womb he has left my mother without a hint of compassion, giving up his responsibilities as a husband, even with the heart of a happy life with a woman who deserves to be called an actor.

from then on, my mother struggled alone through the storms of her life with sweat and tears to raise me.

my mother was a strong woman, despite her lack of life, not one bit she complained and asked for mercy from others, all the work she did, from being a washing worker, iron worker, iron worker, selling fried food around, to open a street stall in front of the house.

this is me and my life, the life that is not easy has made me a woman who should not complain, should be strong, should be able, should be able, for the sake of a better life.

My name is Sekar Arumi, born to a mother named Fatimah.

I will write all the stories about human life that are far from easy but not easy to give up, so happy is in the grasp.

follow the story of Sekar Arumi in Eve's note, an emotionally draining and tearful story inspired by the life of someone who has given permission to be written in a story that is certainly peppered with fiction also disguises the name of the character.

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